Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It’s ok not to be ok!
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising
Just be true to who you are!
“I forgot what to do to fit the mould. The more I try, the less it’s working, cause everything inside me screams, ‘No no no no no no no no no!'”
Continue reading “Confession .214. Why Am I Doing This To Myself?”
No Masters or Kings when the Ritual begins
There is no sweeter innocence than O/our gentle sin
In the madness and soil of this sad earthly scene
Only then I am human, only then I am clean…
Oh, come on, it’s almost October. Did you expect anything less of me? ♥
Continue reading “Confession .213. The Only Heaven I’ll Be Sent To Is When I’m Alone With You…”
There’s something about You
It’s when You get angry, You have me at Your mercy…
And You’re like the shoulder to turn to
Cause certain things mend us when we’re hanging on for dear life
We held on so tight…
Lately I’ve been getting back into freeform poetry written for speaking aloud… and so don’t be surprised if a lot of my posts become sharing some of these with you – like the last post I did, and my post today.
Continue reading “Confession .212. Cause Certain Things Hurt, And You’re My Only Virtue…”
I ride the edge, my speed goes in the red
Hot blood, these veins, my pleasure is their pain
I love the watch the castles burn
These golden ashes turn to dirt
I feel like I should apologize for the dark place my head has been lately – but at the same time I feel like I shouldn’t… because it’s not a new thing, my mind has always been this twisted… it’s just… finally coming out to play? And not all darkness is bad, so… there’s that. ♥
Continue reading “Confession .211. I Light The Match To Taste The Heat…”
Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way, yeah
But You never go away
So I guess I gotta stay now…
This is going to be one of those random rambling blog posts that don’t really make sense to anyone not inside my own head… so, if you read this and don’t understand, don’t worry… you may not be meant to.
Continue reading “Confession .210. Tear Me To Pieces, Skin And Bone…”
All the pain and the truth, I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused, I was broken and bruised
Now I’m a Warrior – now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a Warrior – I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor is made of steel – you can’t get in
I’m a Warrior – and you will never hurt me again…
Please be aware, what I’m talking about today has to do with the themes of rape, sexual assault, violation of consent, other forms of domestic and sexual violence, and suicide. If these are triggers for you, you may not wish to proceed further.
Continue reading “Confession .209. I’m A Survivor In More Ways Than You Know…”
Will You hold the line when every one of them has given up and given in?
Tell me, in this house of mine, nothing every comes without a consequence or cost
Tell me, will the stars align? Will heaven step in, will it save us from our sin? Will it?
Cause this house of mine stands strong…
“Cut until it bleeds, inside a world without the peace. Face it – a bit of the truth. The truth.”
Continue reading “Confession .208. Will Somebody Let Me See The Light Within The Dark Trees Shadowing?”