Cause I had the best of the worst sides And I had these lungs And I had too many flash fires that I just let them burn Til my chest is on fire And my head just won’t die I guess I’m lyin’ cause I wanna I guess I’m lyin’ cause I don’t Cause I just feel so tired…
“Like it’s move or slowly die…”
Again, sorry not sorry that Eden songs have been stuck in my head for the last several days. It’s one of those times when I re-discover how much I love something. Especially when I spent more hours than I’d like to count tabbed into the Hunt avatar managing everything over there, I just toss on a mix that’s an hour or two long so I don’t have to worry about finding new songs to listen to. And one of my favorite mixes is full of Eden and The Eden Project songs. Lol.
Maybe if I was a neon light I’d lead your car right back to my door Oh, maybe if I was a jukebox needle dropping on a drinking song You’d want one more If my name was Whiskey Maybe right now you’d miss me…
There comes a time where you’ve given so much to someone or something, that you have to see if it’s not being reciprocated. You have to sit back and objectively look at what you’re giving and what you’re getting back from it and question whether the return is worth the effort put in.
And sometimes it will be unbalanced, and that’ll still be ok. Other times, it will take sitting back and looking objectively at it to see just how much your efforts are being taken advantage of.
Where would I, where would I be? What would I do? If You were, if You were there when I needed You?
I don’t think this particular post actually exists on social media anymore… I shared it last night on my Facebook page from Chris Crocker, but today I couldn’t find it on my page or his. I went looking and found a cached version that still had it, where I was able to grab the content because I feel like it is COMPLETELY true in the age of social media, and also in Second Life.
He may have deleted it because of social anxiety issues or any other reason really… it’s his page, but I felt the need to post it here. These words are not my own, but Chris Crocker’s.
Stay, You’re not gonna leave me This place is right where You need to be And why Your words gotta mean so much to them And they mean nothing to me So stay, You’re not what you’re hearing Cause I’ve been watching You changing And who said You’re one in a million anyway?
Don’t judge me. Girl-Tivi is less of the barefoot hippie I used to be… so boy-Tivi has to take over that role now. Lol.
Also, not to spoil the content of the post too much, but consider this your trigger warning. If death, near-death experiences, or cancer are triggers for you, then you may want to proceed into this post with caution.
We fight like lions, we howl at the moon We should be flying, instead we bury the truth But I know inside, we’re beautiful creatures…
Before anyone starts reading and goes to make this comment… yes, I’m aware this is a deer onesie, not a goat. *laughs* However, the deer was the closest to a goat in this gacha set, so you gotta bear with me. I did what I could with what was at my disposal.
Besides, it was only to be smartass-y about this particular topic anyway. Lol. Zodiac Signs!
I don’t know what it is, but I got that feeling Waking up in this bed next to you, swear the room – yeah – it got no ceiling If we lay, let the day just pass us by I might get to too much talking I might have to tell you something…
“I like me better when I’m with You.”
I’m the one that will sabotage my own relationships. I’ll get stir-crazy and feel trapped, despite WANTING to serve and be in that subservient place in my relationships… so I’ll sabotage myself, find an excuse to leave, and go. Peace out, do not pass go, do not collect $200.