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Confession .308. I Worry I Won’t Be The Same, But I Guess That That’s The Point…

Is this the way to fix this
Or is this a quick fix?
i really couldn’t say…

Confession .308.  I Worry I Won't Be The Same, But I Guess That That's The Point...

September is Suicide Prevention Month, and National Suicide Prevention Week is September 6th-12th.

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Confession .307. Let Me Live In Blissful Ignorance…

You need to get Your conscience clean, but just spare me the details, please
i wanna keep remembering this Perfect Day…
i’m not the type to be left speechless, but i don’t think i can deal with this
It’s all the closure that You’ll get, this Perfect Day…
Justifications veiled as apologies; i don’t wanna cause a scene
Please let me go, i just wanna leave this Perfect Day…

Confession .307.  Let Me Live In Blissful Ignorance...

Lately, i’ve been learning a lot and doing a lot of self-exploration.  i want to share an iteration of a journal entry i wrote recently with Y/you A/all.  i go back and read some of my posts here from this time a few years ago and if Y/you would’ve told me that this is where i’d end up, i would’ve laughed at Y/you.

Things seemed so perfect then…

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Confession .304. Deep Down, When No One’s Around, You’ve Got A Heart Of Gold – Where Is It Now?

Charlotte, would You still care
If You knew i was hurting?
i miss my Friend, it’s like i’m missing
Parts of me i didn’t know
And now i’ve got to let them go
But i…
i just wanna know if You’re still fine…

Confession .304.  Deep Down, When No One's Around, You've Got A Heart Of Gold - Where Is It Now?

i don’t have another way to get to You…

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Confession .303. I Had No Warning About Who You Are…

You will never, ever touch me again
Won’t see your alligator tears
Cause, no, i’ve had enough of them…

Confession .303.  I Had No Warning About Who You Are...

Today i want to talk about the feeling of betrayal – a topic i realize won’t be E/everyone’s cup of tea.  So if this isn’t something you’re into, then feel free to scroll down for the pretties and i’ll see you at some point with something more lighthearted.

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Confession .302. It’s Evolving, Just Backwards…

Confession .302.  It's Evolving, Just Backwards...

i took this title from the title of a Pewdiepie video.  i didn’t actually watch the video, so i’m not sure of the context, but the title just seemed to speak to everything that was on my heart right now.  Consider this a disclaimer.  i suppose i should also add a trigger warning… but i’m not sure what for?  If you don’t like being reminded of your privilege, i guess?

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Confession .301. So I Took A Breath And Made A Wish And Blew Them All Away…

When I was a little girl, my mama said to me
“What’s your favorite flower, darling? I’ll get you the seed”
I said “Dandelion, Dandelion, ” that one’s so pretty
She said, “Child, that one’s not a flower, that one’s just a weed”

Confession .301.  So I Took A Breath And Made A Wish And Blew Them All Away...

Oh, what a same.  Now it don’t look the same.  Guess it don’t look the same.  Oh, what a shame.

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Confession .300. If I Played Along To Ease The Friction, Would You Still Tell Me That I’m Terrible?

Is this what you came for, you paid for?
To watch somebody burn and crumble and stumble
Then fumble all my words and let you twist them
And listen to all the ugly things you tell me i am
i’m tryin’ so hard to understand how i’m the
Master Manipulator who couldn’t fool anyone
Monster Reciprocator, shot no bullets from my gun
The Drama Queen who never seems to get applause from anyone
i won’t be who you say i am…

Confession .300.  If I Played Along To Ease The Friction, Would You Still Tell Me That I'm Terrible?

Of course i’m returning with a Gabbie Hanna song – it’d feel inappropriate if i didn’t.  Lol.  Her new EP, Bad Karma came out on the day my blogging ‘vacation’ ended, and given that the first time i heard the song “Special”, i immediately sat down, choreographed a whole routine and built a set to perform it next Sunday at Moonshadow, this felt like the appropriate song to return to.

So i’m back… kinda.

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Confession .299. If You See The Shell That’s Left Of Me, Could You Spare {Her} A Little Kindness?

Am i broken?  Am i flawed?
Do i deserve a shred of worth
Or am i just another fake, fucked up lost cause?
Am i human or am i something else?
Cause i’m so scared and there’s No One there
To save me from the nightmare that i call myself…

Confession .299.  If You See The Shell That's Left Of Me, Could You Spare {Her} A Little Kindness?

Here’s the scariest part of me – or one of them, anyway.  You won’t know i’m upset or that something is wrong… until it’s REALLY wrong.

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