I ride the edge, my speed goes in the red
Hot blood, these veins, my pleasure is their pain
I love the watch the castles burn
These golden ashes turn to dirt
I feel like I should apologize for the dark place my head has been lately – but at the same time I feel like I shouldn’t… because it’s not a new thing, my mind has always been this twisted… it’s just… finally coming out to play? And not all darkness is bad, so… there’s that. ♥
Continue reading “Confession .211. I Light The Match To Taste The Heat…”
Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way, yeah
But You never go away
So I guess I gotta stay now…
This is going to be one of those random rambling blog posts that don’t really make sense to anyone not inside my own head… so, if you read this and don’t understand, don’t worry… you may not be meant to.
Continue reading “Confession .210. Tear Me To Pieces, Skin And Bone…”
All the pain and the truth, I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused, I was broken and bruised
Now I’m a Warrior – now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a Warrior – I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor is made of steel – you can’t get in
I’m a Warrior – and you will never hurt me again…
Please be aware, what I’m talking about today has to do with the themes of rape, sexual assault, violation of consent, other forms of domestic and sexual violence, and suicide. If these are triggers for you, you may not wish to proceed further.
Continue reading “Confession .209. I’m A Survivor In More Ways Than You Know…”
Will You hold the line when every one of them has given up and given in?
Tell me, in this house of mine, nothing every comes without a consequence or cost
Tell me, will the stars align? Will heaven step in, will it save us from our sin? Will it?
Cause this house of mine stands strong…
“Cut until it bleeds, inside a world without the peace. Face it – a bit of the truth. The truth.”
Continue reading “Confession .208. Will Somebody Let Me See The Light Within The Dark Trees Shadowing?”
Nothing that you say is mildly true
Spit deceit through shift smiles
Two faces you’ve had for awhile
You act like such a fucking child…
Today, I’d like to have a fun little chat about gaslighting – so please consider this your trigger warning for subjects like self-harm, psychological/mental abuse, and other similar themes. If you click off for this reason, then see you next time! ♥
Continue reading “Confession .207. Turns Out I’m Your Favorite Thing To Discuss…”
Meet me on the battlefield, even in the darkest night
I will be Your sword and shield, Your camouflage
And You will be mine
Echoes of the shot ring out
We may be the first to fall
Everything could stay the same, or we could change it all…
I went a bit literal with this inspiration today – but as I mentioned to Tray who’s posing with me… I couldn’t be bothered to not take it literally. Sorry, not sorry.
Continue reading “Confession .206. I Will Be Your Sword And Shield, Your Camouflage…”
If teardrops could be bottled
There’d be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a whore…
Sometimes I get to a breaking point – and the things that push me there are different each time. But they usually seem overwhelming, when in all reality they are likely inconsequential. However, the people that drag me out are sometimes the most unlikely.
Continue reading “Confession .205. Was I Made From A Broken Mold?”