Now all of my oceans have riptides
Can’t seem to find what’s wrong
The whole world is letting me down…
My avatar is a bit of a mood ring for me, sometimes. I’m so used to changing everything as often as I feel like – a simple scroll back through my Flickr feed will show you how often I change my avatar. Lol.
Continue reading “Confession .368. Today It’s As Dark As My Roots…”
Spilling teardrops on my pillowcase
My mascara always goes to waste…
So this happened. Lol. Sometimes I find something that inspires me to go in a completely different direction than what I normally look like. This wasn’t even the first look I started with – I tried all colorful and pretty, complete with pink freckles, but in the end, I settled on my darker side.
Oh, you know, you know
You know I’d never ask you to change
If perfect’s what you’re searchin’ for, then just stay the same…
It WOULD be Pride that gets me back into being inspired for photos. The support of all of these creative talents in our little virtual world just amazes me, and I feel the need to showcase them, as they support me and others like me during this time. ♥
Continue reading “Confession .352. Cause You’re Amazing Just The Way You Are…”
But she gets the flowers, right?
The posts made about her
A love that is perfect
A love I deserved, yeah
A love that I gave…
It’s interesting, talking to people all over again. Back to square one, getting to know them, having to out all of those things that He used to accept about me and wonder if a new person will walk away. Or if I’ll fuck it up and push them away before I can get hurt.
Cause, you know, I’m really good at that…
Continue reading “Confession .350. But She Gets The Flowers, Right?”
You don’t know a thing at all
You don’t know about the way I am when I am all alone
You don’t even know
Where I care, the way I’ve grown
You don’t know about the way I love so deeply to my bones
You don’t even know me…
I’ve been thinking a lot about situations I shouldn’t be thinking about lately, which is of course an awesome thing, right? -insert eyeroll here-
The more that You say, the less I know
Wherever you stray I follow
I’m begging for You to take my hand
Wreck my plans
That’s my Man…
They tell you that you won’t find what you’re looking for until you stop looking. And this was no more true for me than in the last four months or so. Learning about myself through learning about You, learning about working together instead of against each other. Learning about what love actually looks like.
Continue reading “Confession .339. Life Was A Willow And It Bent Right To Your Wind…”
For all of the light that i shut out
For all of the innocent things that i doubt
For all of the bruises i’ve caused and the tears
For all of the things that i’ve done all these years…
Tonight while i ironically led a Red Flags workshop in-world geared towards submissives and what they should look for in their interactions with Dominants, i realized just how terrible i am at taking my own advice and practicing what i preach sometimes. Let me explain…
Continue reading “Confession .288. Grace Is Just Weakness, Or So I’ve Been Told…”
You come out of nowhere
And You cut through all the noise
i make sense of the madness
When i listen to Your voice…
i was too distracted to see the toxicity right in front of me.
Continue reading “Confession .287. I Felt So Afraid Just To Show You The Mess That I Made…”
I gave you all I had to lose
My skin, my soul, my finest jewels
You stole it all for someone new, and then
You gave away the best of me
My sins, my sweetest ecstasy
To someone worth much less than me
Yeah, you’re my Robin Hood…
This is the last one for You. i’ve given You control over me for the longest, even when You didn’t deserve it. And when You didn’t do anything that warranted it. And even when You did everything within Your power to destroy it, and me. So this is the last one for You, Robin Hood.
Antisocial Darwinism 