Lights Will Guide You Home…

(Featuring designs by Egoisme, Bellydance Goddess, and more; Photographed at Art of Submission.)
 
(Staring off into space is nothing new for me…)
 
Oi.  So.  RL has been insane lately… from being stalked and nearly attacked by one of my neighbors high off his ass to finding out that my mother is FINALLY coming home for a little bit (she’s been in Alabama caring her for her parents after they both fell in the same week)… I just kept getting sidetracked.  I’ve got another OrsiniRed blog post started, just not finished.  But this Egoisme post has a deadline.  So here’s what you’re getting to see first.
But before you get to see the other pictures, I have to brag on Aquilegia Gossipgirl a little bit.  Back when I was involved in the raging fiasco that was called the Miss Metaverse pageant, I went to Aquilegia for help.  I needed a ‘gown’ that could be deemed appropriate and tasteful, while still being able to move and flow like it needs to for dancing.  At the time, my plan was to dance in it for one of the preliminary categories.  *I* screwed up the timeline (I chalk it up to it being my first pageant and really not knowing what I was doing) and we had to make a few adjustments, but you know what, the extra time paid off.  Instead of using it for a preliminary category, I had it slated to be used for one of the Finals walks: Queen of the Metaverse.  Not that I was being presumptuous… in fact, I was just trying to be prepared in case I DID make it… so I wasn’t scrambling around at the last minute.  I was stressed enough spending almost 2 months to get the prelims stuff put together.  Let alone having 24-48 hours to put Finals stuff together if I made it.
Yeah.  It was all insane.
Anyway.  Before I show you this gown, I should mention that I was representing Greece.  That would explain the elegant simplicity behind the gown she custom designed for me.  And the kicker?  Gowns aren’t really the ‘typical’ creations that she makes!  First of all, she’s a kick-ass gown maker for someone who doesn’t do it a lot.  And secondly, to my knowledge, she and I are the only two people who own this gown, because she hasn’t put it up for sale.  Again, gowns aren’t normally what she makes, so she never put it into her store.  I LOVE this dress and wear it every chance I get (and half of you models just cringed because I just admitted to wearing the same outfit more than once… haha!).
So… without further rambling from me… the amazing Queen of the Metaverse gown designed specifically for me by Aquilegia Gossipgirl of Bellydance Goddess:
(Look at the bottom and how gorgeously it flows!  Even just with my AO standing and rocking subtly.)
 
Now, with zooming out to show you the gown, you get to see a little bit of the venue that I photographed this post in.  I have a friend… Princessbbygurl Resident… and she happens to be a pretty amazing builder from what I’ve seen… even if she won’t admit it, or hasn’t built much.  From what she tells me, the original version of this build was done as a surprise for an ex.  But now she keeps it up in the sky and filled it with pillows for a discussion she leads at the Art of Submission M/s Academy, called Slave Journeys.  (Thursdays at 6:30pm SLT, if I remember correctly).
The build itself is so peaceful that I warned her I was going to use it to photograph for a blog post one day… well Princess, I did it!  *Giggles*  What better place to photograph a Greek dress than in a gazebo that is structured with pillars and a nice little pool at the front.  Very Greek.
Then again, it’s all Greek to me.
So why the Greek theme anyway?  WELL, that’s the exciting part!  Earlier this week I got a notecard from JeffLevin Resident, from Egoisme.  How in the world he’s seen my work when I’ve been blogging for such a short amount of time completely floors me, but I was honored to be included in the offer to begin blogging with Egoisme.  My first project was a new release, the Evian – Aphrodite skin.  Rumor has it this is only the FIRST release in a Gods and Goddesses set.  So of COURSE I had to pair my Greek Queen of the Metaverse dress with the first Goddess skin I was given.  I chose the darkest skintone they had, which, admittedly isn’t as dark as I normally like it, but the lightness allowed me to keep the red updo that I had originally paired with this dress when I was using a pale skin.
Needless to say, some people call blogging ‘work’… but when I’m given awesome creations and awesome venues like this to complete a blog with… if this is ‘work’, then I’d gladly ‘work’ for the rest of my SL.  😛
(The eyelashes are not built into the skin… they are mine.  Same with the red lipstick.  The normal lip for this skin is a neutral lip.)
 
*~*  Lights Will Guide You Home *~*
 
Shape: My personal shape
Skin: Evian – Aphrodite Skin – DARK (Dark brows) Cleavage One: Egoisme
Eyes: JABU Eyes – LightBlue: -DAMNED-
Hair: Waiting For Tonight – Rouge (with tiara pin in Silver): Exile *~* mesh *~*
Eyelashes: **Irresistible Look** Eyelashes: Crissy Designs
Makeup (eyeshadow): Eyeshadow Black Smoke (comes with skin): Egoisme
Makeup (lipstick): Classic Lipstick – Pinup Red: Pink Fuel
Gown: Miss Greece Queen Goddess Draped Gown: Bellydance Goddess
Necklace: Greek_Kolje: Dark Moon
Earrings: Caged Pearl Drop Earrings: Earthstones
Nose Stud: Nose Diamond: envi
Ring: Legends Family Name Women’s Wedding Ring: JCNY
Nails: Square Medium Frosted Flowers: MoonDance Boutique
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Lies, Disguises, and Hoops… Part 2

Which hoop am I jumping through?  And why is is lit on fire?

This is exactly how I felt throughout the vast majority of the Miss Metaverse pageant.  It was asked of me to make a more ‘fact-based’ account of my experiences, rather than the emotion-based one that I made in my last post.  The only response I could think to say to the person who asked?  “Oh, it would be my PLEASURE.”

First of all, I think it’s been well established by other contestants in the pageant that the rules were changed on us fairly frequently.  I think I ignored the changes mostly because the ones that I saw really only affected how the Finals were going to go.  Originally, how Finals were slated to run was as follows:

  • The Top 10 Men and Top 10 Women would be selected from preliminary competition.
  • Second Interview
  • Walk: Style Category: Evening Wear
  • Walk: Style Category: Creative Costume
  • Viewer’s Choice (online poll where SL residents could vote for their favorite finalist)
  • Administrative award (measures the ability to follow directions, be where you need to be when you need to be there, etc.)

There was no narrowing… no “Queen/King of the Metaverse” walk.  And it’s not like I came in late.  I was brought in with the 2nd round of candidates chosen.  (Side Note: When the 1st round went out, I thought it was the only round and missed my opportunity to apply… because I’d meant to do so.  When I went to the website and saw the deadline was still ages away, I applied immediately to be sure I didn’t forget again.  That’s how I ended up in Round 2.)

Now, to my knowledge (I’m not in the ground anymore and it was more than 2 weeks ago, so the notice would be gone anyway), right AFTER candidate selection closed, the Executive Board had a meeting.  The notice that came out after that meeting introduced a NEW structure for Finals, splitting it into Semi-Finals and Finals.  This was the New Structure:

  • Top 10 Men and Top 10 Women would be selected from preliminary competition.
  • Second Interview
  • Walk: Style Category: Evening Wear
  • Contestants would be narrowed to Top 5 Men and Top 5 Women
  • Walk: Style Category: Creative Costume
  • Walk: Style Category: King/Queen of the Metaverse
  • The viewer’s choice and Administrative categories will be eliminated.

Ok.  Now.  Not only have we split this that was once “Preliminaries –> Finals” into “Preliminaries –> Semi-Finals –> Finals”, we have now taken away 2 opportunities to earn a decent score and have added an entirely new walk category.  Seriously?  Oh, but it gets better.

Here is, to my knowledge, how Semi-Finals and Finals operated.  (I did not make it past preliminaries, so I am only going on what I have heard and what I saw on the website:

  • Top 8 Men and Top 10 women were selected from preliminary competition.
  • Second Interview
  • Walk: Style Category: Evening Wear
  • Contestants were narrowed down to Top 5 Men and Top 5 Women
  • A vote of all 18 semi-finalists was cast to bring one non-semi-finalist back to get a free pass into finals, plus $L5,000.
  • Top 5 Men and Top 6 Women would now compete in Finals.
  • Walk: Style Category: Creative Costume
  • Walk: Style Category: King/Queen of the Metaverse
  • Placements/Crowning

I have one major issue with this “voting” thing.  Whereas in another pageant, one may see their competitors do their walks, see their outfits, hear their interviews, etc… and have a GOOD understanding of how their competitors did… preliminaries for Mr and Miss Metaverse were CLOSED.  NO ONE except the judges and Hethwen Resident (Heth, the pageant CEO) got to see anyone else’s walk.  So what exactly was everyone voting based on?  It certainly wasn’t who they felt did well and deserved to come back, because no one knows how well anyone truly did.  So what was the criteria?  Their friendships? Popularity?  Heth’s suggestions and personal politics?  As I was not there, I cannot say for sure.  I only know that the voting was NOT done based on performance in preliminary competition… and if you can’t vote based on that, why the hell vote at all?

I wasn’t even in the group at the time of Semi-Finals.  And I had not left it of my own accord and denounced my title as so many others seem to have done.

So why, you ask, was I not in the group?  Oh dear.  Let me tell you.

I was very emotionally connected to my participation in this pageant.  It was my first one, and being so close after One Billion Rising, my platform of bringing awareness to sexual violence against women and empowering these women to stand up for themselves as victims hit very close to home for me.  Actually, in my Preliminary interview, I was asked WHY my platform meant so much to me, and there was really no other way to explain except to recount my own RL situations that make me identify with these women.  My leadership ability and my honor were called into question during that very same interview, in a question about my being a collared submissive, and yet being a leader in a pageantry organization and how I feel I could handle that responsibility.  I took everything they threw at me and hit it head on like a mac truck.  I was honest, I was open, I was different, and dammit, I don’t care what the numbers say (I don’t even KNOW what the numbers say… more on that in a moment) I did well.  So of course I was upset to not make it farther.

Now, in this pageant, I have developed friendships.  And so I went to someone that I knew, as a friend, and expressed a very simple disappointment.  My message read as follows:

{☆ Tivi ☆} shakes her head, very disappointed.  I’m on my way to bed, but of all the emotions swimming around, betrayal is the most prominent.  And I can’t explain why that is in a way that makes sense, but I feel very betrayed by the whole concept of the value placed on being “different” versus being a carbon copy of every other pageant girl out there.  This is cookie cutter… and it hurts.

Now, no offense to you ladies whom I competed with.  I love all of you that I got to meet, and all of you are awesome.  I was NOT pointing out a flaw in you.  I was pointing out a flaw in Heth’s organization of the pageant, ranting and raving about how he was going to place an emphasis on being different, with comments like, “You know everything you’ve seen in every other pageant?  That’s what I DON’T want.”  This was allllll Heth.  This wasn’t any of you at all.

Of course, being in pageantry and being that the friend I sent that message to is an executive board member, she showed Heth the message.  I’m honestly not mad that she did that.  It’s basic business ethics.  HOWEVER, the fact that Heth completely misinterpreted that is what disappoints me.  Being that I was very upset, before I went to bed, I was given a list of maybe 15-20 people that I was allowed to speak with in IM over the course of the weekend.  Otherwise, beginning after I woke up from a good sleep, I was to take time TO MYSELF (something I NEVER do) for the weekend.  It’s a rarity that I have the weekend off of work with nothing to do, so I was instructed to take full advantage of that.

Thursday evening I’m in a roleplay with some very close friends, laughing, having a good time, and doing a lot of things that I haven’t gotten to do in a long time: roleplay, hang out with people outside of the context of a class or meeting, dance for the hell of it, and just HAVE FUN.  I had my autoresponse set to say this:

“It is my wish to be left alone for the weekend.  Please refer ALL communications to Cloe Darkfold.  Thank you in advance.

A&M inquiries should be placed in the Assistance Dropbox at the mainstore location.  Thank you.

❤ Tivi”

Basically, what my partner did all weekend was filter the bullshit and give me important information, allowing me to focus on taking time to myself.  Easy enough, right?  Simple enough request, right?

Clearly not.

Hethwen Resident (Heth, Metaverse Pageantry CEO) came into my IM box that evening while I was in roleplay.  Not only was he NOT on the list of people I could speak with, he wanted to speak about pageant business which I was not allowed to do, AND I was BUSY.  He received my auto response and continued to type to me.  Each attempt he made at opening my IM, I closed the window without responding so that he would see that autoresponse.  “Maybe he missed it the first time…”  A lot of people seem to.

By the FOURTH time that this man got my autoresponse and had not paid attention to it, I finally responded to something he said.  However, it was not rude, it was not angry, it was not disrespectful in the slightest.  It was simply this:

[2013/03/15 20:48:35]  Tivi ‘Lux’ Darkfold (tiviyah): I do please have to refer you to my autoresponse and wish you a wonderful evening.

Some people aren’t USED to people having autoresponses up.  Maybe he saw “A&M” and ignored it, thinking the whole thing was a store message.  I was still giving him the benefit of the doubt at this point.

In response, I simply get a “FINE”.  I was hoping that was the end of it and went back to my roleplay.  Then, much to my complete SHOCK, I get the following:

[2013/03/15 20:49:12]  H E T H   V E R T A U S (hethwen): You have been ejected from ‘Metaverse Pageantry’ by Hethwen Resident.

He goes on to tell me that he hopes THAT got my attention and to remove any tags and associations that I have with Metaverse.  Ok… I have a few issues with this.

  1. You cannot negate the hard work I put into earning my title.  So long as I fulfill my obligations, it is my title.  Period.  I earned it.  You can take away your endorsement of that title, but it is still mine until 2014 when someone else has the ‘current’ title and I will simply be the titleholder from 2013.  Don’t think you can use bully mentality to scare me into negating my own hard work.  Hell no.
  2. I’m ejected from the group because I COULDN’T and DIDN’T WANT TO deal with DRAMA that you were bringing into my IM box at the MOMENT you wanted it dealt with?  Who’s playing games now?  Seriously?  Grow up.  People have lives outside of Metaverse, ESPECIALLY those of us that didn’t have to worry about competing that weekend.
  3. The comment about hoping THAT got my attention.  It wasn’t that he didn’t have my attention… in fact, he had MORE of my attention that I desired to give him at that point, as he was interrupting my roleplay and my fun time with my friends.
  4. You don’t use things like group membership or titles like a weapon.  If there’s one thing I’ve learned through my chosen Lifestyle of D/s and M/s… you don’t use things that are important to you like a weapon!  The more you do, the more flippant they become.  If you use your collar as a weapon, it becomes more like velcro than steel.  If you are going to use a title in your organization against me like a weapon, then how much value does it REALLY hold?

Anyway, I went on my merry way and kept my title in my resume, as I DID work hard to earn it.  I just severed all ties and associations and tags and whatever else having to do with Mr and Miss Metaverse.

Now… at that point, MY experience stops.  However, today, after I was asked to re-write this blog from a more ‘fact-based’ point of view (dear lord, I hope I’ve done that… and sorry it’s so long winded…) I received the link of a blog belonging to another pageant contestant.  In this blog post, this contestant mentions something that deeply disturbs me on a very personal level…

When candidates were being accepted, we were told not to have anything sexually explicit in our profiles, etc, to keep up the image of the pageant and keep dignity associated with our title. I  even had to hide groups like, “Gorean Whip Radio” and “Gorean Whip Staff” that are groups for a radio station I broadcast for.  Harmless, but because they’re “Gorean” they might be “controversial”.

After the crowning of Mr and Miss Metaverse, a picture link was brought to Heth’s attention, regarding Mr Metaverse in a picture on Flickr engaging in an SL Rape scene.  (Now, yes, I understand that in SL everything is consensual because there’s a big red ‘x’ in the upper right hand corner that will take care of anything you don’t consent to.  I get that.)  HOWEVER, when this was brought to Hethwen Resident’s attention, as the CEO of his organization, instead of dealing with the matter quietly… and ethically… he chose to SLANDER the person who REPORTED the link in the first place.  Claiming that the links he had been given of both Mr AND Miss Metaverse (I had not been aware of a Miss Metaverse nude picture until that moment) were done as works of art.

Ok, slow your roll, Sarah Lee.  You want to call a picture depicting a scene of RAPE a “work of art”?  You want to call a picture that not only depicts but endorses as being OK, the idea of a man taking a woman against her will as some sort of display of power over her, a “work of art”?  You want to call a picture that may very well be a TRIGGER for people who have EXPERIENCED rape in their real lives, a “work of art”.  And you want to say that it’s OK for your CROWNED MR METAVERSE to SUPPORT such acts?  Really?

Coming from someone who has experience rape not once, not twice, but three times in their real life, I simply have this to say to your “work of art” bullshit defense: Fuck. You.

So honestly, I went into this whole Miss Metaverse thing with high hopes about being involved in something that could really affect change in SL as well as RL.  I went into this, admittedly, with my rose-colored glasses on, seeing the good in everything and everyone… looking to Hethwen Resident not as the delusional lunatic that I’d been told he was, but rather as someone I could RELATE to and LOOK UP to… I went into this completely blind and expecting to grow and change and push myself and my boundaries in ways that I couldn’t imagine pushing them.  I went into this thinking I would come out on the other side as a better person.

Well, I DID come out a better person on the other side.  But it wasn’t BECAUSE of Miss Metaverse.  In fact, it was IN SPITE of it.

EDIT/UPDATE 3/23/13:

I realize that in my rush to make it to RL work on time after posting this, that I left out one VERY crucial piece of information about this pageant… that I’m not entirely sure if it’s been discussed or brought up by anyone else yet.

One of the biggest issues that Heth has with Frolic’s Miss Virtual World pageant is that he sides with the group of those that believe the whole thing is rigged from the get-go.  From the very beginning of the Mr and Miss Metaverse Emeritus pageants, Heth was ranting and raving (noticing a pattern here yet?) about how he wanted this pageant to be conducted with honor and integrity and ethics and all those other 5-dollar words he didn’t follow through on.  But the BIGGEST way that he said he would be making sure the pageant would remain ethical would be to publicly publish the scores.

This would give everyone, not just competitors, but others in SL, the opportunity to review the scores given to each contestant, and verify that the semi-finalists were, indeed, the ones highest scored, and were fairly moved into semi-finals.  It’s about transparency and giving people the ability to fact-check.  This, in the beginning, I believed, was an awesome idea and a true display of the integrity that Heth claimed to want to bring to this pageant.

Unfortunately, to this day (and I just checked it around 8:30am EST on March 23rd) the scores have not been published.  A few contestants found out how they ranked in preliminaries by asking one of the women who helped tabulate scores, but that is not what the initial plan was that Heth was bragging that he was going to do.

Of course, Heth doesn’t seem to be too keen on sticking to his initial plan.

Anyway, in re-reading this blog last night, I realized that I made mention of not knowing where the numbers fell, and that I would give “more information in a moment”, and I never did… so I figured I’d come back and edit this part in.

Lies, Disguises, and Hoops They Make You Jump Through…

(Featuring designs by Soedara, Emo-tions, Madrid Solo, and a few others; photographed on the gorgeous Bellydance Oasis sim.)
 
(I look so different to myself!  More info below…)
 
So, as those of you who are either my friends or have followed the pageant know, I did not make semi-finals.  I worked my ass off during prelims and the nearly two months prior, I gave it my all, and it was not enough.  Is this a disappointing realization?  Yeah.  But no one likes being told their best isn’t good enough, and there was some stiff competition.  I love all the ladies that were competing and I know that Miss Metaverse is going to find a wonderful face of its pageants.
To add to that disappointment, a bit more drama flew my way at the hands of those who cannot seem to understand and respect a simple request.  I mean, really… is it too much to ask to want 3 days to yourself?  I didn’t have pageantry business to worry about, I had the weekend off of work (which I NEVER have, btw) and so I was taking some time to enjoy myself doing the things that *I* like to do.  At the time the drama transpired I was actually in Gor… which is something I haven’t had the time to do in a long time… roleplaying… which is also something I haven’t had the time to do in a long time… and celebrating Kajrualia with a few of my closest friends.  For those that don’t know, Kajuralia is a Gorean holiday in the books where a LOT of tolerance was given to slaves, and they could do much of what they pleased, within reason. Our roleplay centered in the Tavern… so I’m sure you could only imagine the things we were getting up to.  But was I able to truly enjoy it?  For awhile, yes.  But damn… when I have an auto response up that expresses a simple wish to be left alone for the weekend, you’d THINK people could understand and respect that, yes?
Clearly not.
Anyway.  So needless to say it’s been a hell of a weekend.
Being the workaholic that I am, I couldn’t resist peeking into the designer behind Soedara (Marbella Provonost)’s IMs and asking if, after the weekend, she had any projects for me.  She doesn’t have staff exactly, but I do odd jobs for her when she needs me to, like research projects.  *Giggles*  She comes back with, “Actually, yes, I do.  It’s a pain in the ass.”
Now keep in mind, the last project I did for this woman was researching vendors and how many ways you could build a clothing rack and sell items from a prim with the texture on it… without putting the ACTUAL texture on it so copybotters couldn’t steal it.  So when she tells me that something is a “pain in the ass”, I’m expecting a similar project.
Instead, she says she wants me to “parade around” in an outfit today and tells me to pick a color.  Given a heart to heart I had with Sequoia Nightfire (more on that in a moment), I chose black, as my skin is darker now.  Where I think I’m getting a pain in the ass project, instead, I get passed this gorgeous outfit.
(I think the only thing “pain in the ass” about this is the person wearing it.  *Grins*)
 
Now, I mentioned earlier having a heart to heart with Sequoia Nightfire.  A pageant that I’ve been hearing talked about for quite some time, given that the Dazzlers perform for it (I believe) is Colour of Couture. I ‘d not heard much more about it until registration opened up, so I went to take a peek.  I think it is truly awesome what these women are doing.  This pageant is directed specifically for women who portray women of color in Second Life, from a list of specified regions.
Depending on how long you’ve known me, if you know me at all, you may know that I played a mamba in Gor for YEARS, where I used the dark skin I’m wearing in these pictures.  Essentially, to understand what a mamba is, culturally, think… tribal cultures in Africa… and then stereotype them to be cannibals.  That is what I roleplayed.  A fierce, vicious woman who normally couldn’t speak the language that those around her were speaking.  It was amazingly fun, and honestly… I identified more with my personality in Gor than I did outside of Gor just trying to “be myself”.
I am not a woman of color in RL.  But ever since I was young I’ve been FASCINATED with the culture in Zimbabwe.  I was a puppeteer in a puppetry ministry in church when I was a preteen, and when our adult leader’s daughter became a missionary to Zimbabwe, our group actually handmade about 3 or 4 puppets that were meant to be culturally African, and sent them with her to take to the children down there for something to play with and teach with.  Ever since then, I’ve been hooked.
In speaking with Sequoia, I told her about how I used to represent myself in SL, and about how I allowed people in modeling academies when I began modeling to convince me that a pale skin was more “right” for modeling… she urged me, rather simply, to consider that which I love.  And if I truly loved it, then to represent myself how I wish, and live as that culture that I relate to and love.  I’m trying my best to take her advice to heart.  I may not be able to live it in RL, but the beauty of SL is that I can live it if I feel like it.
So if you see me around SL all dark again, know that I am once more truly myself.  I honestly can’t believe that I allowed myself to lose sight of myself for that long… and I can actually thank the Miss Metaverse pageant for allowing me to rediscover who I am.  When I walked out on that runway for the “Me” walk category, in that dark skin and tribal styling… I felt more myself than I ever had since before I began modeling.
And I’ll never lose that bit of myself again.
*~* Lies, Disguises, and Hoops They Make You Jump Through *~*
Shape: My Personal Shape
Skin: Bean[Dark] Pout – Brat 1: Curio
Eyes: JABU Eyes – Green: -DAMNED-
Hair: *RUTH* Black (worn with hairbase): EMO-tions
Makeup (Eyes&Lips): Insanity Plea – Gold: Madrid Solo
Makeup (Blush): Cleo 2 – Blush Only: Madrid Solo
Outfit (all jewelry & piercings included, except earrings): Nubian Divinity Night Creature: Soedara *~* mesh included *~*
Headpiece: Nubian Divinity Headdress Stones Adorned: Soedara
Earrings: 3-Hoop Earrings in Radiant Gold: Misha Fine Jewelry
Feet (not pictured): “Feet”: N-Core

P.S. SURPRISE Soadara!  I blogged it.  😛

From the Place I Was to the Place I Am to the Place I Want to Be…

(Featuring designs from Sascha’s Designs, TRUTH Hair, WTG, and many more…)
 
 
*~* Miss Metaverse Prelims #1 *~*
 
 
I feel like I’ve been waiting forever to be able to blog this stuff… *Giggles*  And then when I did, I told myself I was going to blog it in the order that the judges saw it… keep it more realistic, you know?  But of course, there is a wonderful person out there named Sascha Frangilli.  When I went to Sascha with the fact that I was in this pageant, told her a little about it, and about representing Greece and how excited I was, she seemed pretty eager to help.  Granted, she wasn’t, like, jumping out of her seat, grabbing my hands and hopping around with me like we were six years old and found out a boy liked me… but she was quick to offer opinions, show me designs, and leave it all open to me.  Whatever I felt I needed, I could ask her for.
Now, she gets really angry at me, because there is a heavy difference between how Europeans and Americans communicate.  Americans, for lack of a better term, beat around the bush when it comes to A LOT of things… and we hide behind the facade that we are just trying to be polite.  Sascha has pretty much gotten in the habit of ignoring me while I ramble on in my “attempting to be polite”, beating around the bush way, and really only pays attention when I get to the point.  So while I’m saying, “Well I really like the look and simplicity of this gown, but I don’t know if it will work the way I want it to… I just want something simple, yet elegant…” she took the opportunity to poke around in Photoshop.  30 minutes later, when she looked at the window again, I’d made a decision and had finally actually asked for the Gown.
Envy – in Blue.
Let me tell you, this gown could not have been more perfect if she’d made it specifically for me.  Sascha is a genius with women’s formal wear and I can’t possibly thank her enough for her sponsorship of me in this pageant.  I could feel confident styling this gown with most anything and the clothing would not get in the way but would also not be out-shined by the jewelry.  Being very versatile with MULTIPLE skirt options, I could make sure to wear the gown in whatever way worked for the runway, the poses, and the mood I was trying to set.
Sascha, thank you again, from the bottom of my heart.  You really helped make this experience amazing for me.
(This was the shot the judges of the pageant got in my style card.)
 
*~* From the Place I Was to the Place I Am to the Place I Want to Be *~*
 
Shape: My personal shape
Skin: Petal[Dark] Pout 2 – Brat 1: Curio
Eyes: JABU Eyes – LightBlue: -DAMNED-
Eyelashes: **Irresistible Look Eyelashes**: Crissy Designs
Makeup (Eyes&Blush): Cosmo: Madrid Solo
Makeup (Lipstick): KMTD Lipstick 12: -DAMNED-
Hair: Soleil w/Roots – Cherry: TRUTH Hair
Nails: Square Medium Neon Stripes (Blueberry): MoonDance Boutique
Gown: Envy – Blue (with Battleship Skirt): Sascha’s Designs  ***donated as sponsorship***
Shoes: CAPRICE – “Platine”: N-Core
Necklace&Earrings: Drops-S (with Sapphire jewel): WTG
Ring (left hand): LEGENDS Family Name Women’s Wedding Ring: JCNY
Nose Stud: Nose Diamond: envi
Poses: New Baroque 1-10: *PosESioN*

A Walk In The Park…

(Featuring designs by OrsiniRed, Luck Inc., Magika, and many others.  OrsiniRed Dress is special for Fashion For Life, 2013.)
 
 
As I looked for a place to take pictures of this outfit (admittedly, I’d been looking around for appropriate places for the better part of 3 days), I ended up in this little park.  I pretty much told myself that I would find a good place to take pictures here, regardless, as I was sick of looking.  First, I found this awesome looking statue (featured above) and around it, almost with the statue at the head, were these little mushroom seats with all different kinds of sits in them.  The pose I captured is actually an animation that plays when you sit on the mushroom I’m on.  I’ll definitely have to go back and let you all know who made this awesome little seat set.
But anyway… I continued walking and decided that a bench was as good a place as any to take a few more photos, though I realized while editing these photos that I look pretty pathetic having a conversation with myself.  Haha!  Note to self: drag people along for next blog.
(Talk to myself much?)
 
(I look so sad!)
 
The bench was pretty awesome, and the tree behind it was probably one of the most frustrating and amazing things that I’ve photographed in awhile, so it made the post-process portion of this blog pretty fun.  Of course, just when I thought I was done taking photos, I found the water.  And because I am forever mentally five years old, what did I do?  I ran right into the water for a photo, clothing and all!
(Cheeky little thing, aren’t I?  Though ironically enough, I look cold, and I can hear my mother’s voice in the background screaming, “Get out of the damned water!”)
 
*~* A Walk In The Park… *~*
Shape: My Personal Shape
Skin: Petal[Dark] Pout – Brat 1: Curio
Eyes: JABU Eyes Light Blue: -DAMNED-
Hair: Clumsy (Color HUD 02): Magika  *~*mesh*~*
Makeup: KMTD Lipstick 11 + EyesMakeup: -DAMNED-
Dress: Mersh Dress Neon Flower Blue FFL: OrsiniRed *~*mesh*~* (Fashion For Life)
Jeans: Tyra Lowrise Jeans Starlet Wash Dark Blue: Luck Inc.
Shoes: Chloe Sandals Shiny B&W (in white): Gaeline Creations  *~*mesh*~*
Feet: Flat Bare Feet: Gaeline Creations  *~*mesh*~*
Necklace: LING LING B/W: LOULOU&CO
Nails: #PS004 Stardust Platinum: Candy Nail
Bracelet: medaille bracelet (silver): Gabriel
Nose Piercing: Nose Diamond: envi
Ring: Legends Family Name Women’s Wedding Ring: JCNY
Collar: My Heart Is Caged – Eternity – Vintage Silver: [Tethered] BDSM
 
Remember: You’re a Goddess!
~ Tivi ~