Not gonna waste my life, ’cause i’ve been fucked up
‘Cause it doesn’t matter
So, waste my time, and God save all of us
And the walls, they’ll shatter
And i won’t let my insecurities define who i am
i am not gonna waste my life, ’cause i’ve been fucked up
‘Cause it doesn’t matter…
i spend a lot of time, a lot more than i’d like to admit sometimes, mourning situations, relationships, etc that died a long time ago. It doesn’t matter how recent the final severing of the connection happened… most times, what made it ‘special’ died much before that.
Letting things and people go has always been hard for me, at least while i’m blinded to the bad. P/people in my life who care for me will warn me what’s happening, but until i see it for myself, i can’t let it go.
After all, i let myself be mistreated by a sim full of people for 3 years, including and not limited to sim ownership allowing a member of the sim to share my personal, real life information and doing nothing about it for over a year. i stayed in that sim for 3 years, and it took THEM removing ME for me to leave and start to untangle myself from the toxic environment.
Like… what kind of fucked up glutton for punishment do i have to be to deal with that for as long as i did? And that’s just one example of one group of people for one period of time. i’ve been in SL for 12 years… to think back on all the shit i put up with from all the people i shouldn’t have… ugh.
Anyway, just like i’m at the point of i’m done undervaluing myself professionally… i’m also done undervaluing myself personally.
Or, like the song says, “i’m not gonna waste my life cause i’ve been fucked up, cause it doesn’t matter.”
Shape || Mine
Body || Legacy Body (v1.3) | The Shops/The Mesh Project
Head || Fleur Head (v2.5) | Lelutka
Eyes || Influencer Eyes | Avi-Glam
Skin || Alice Skin (Sand Tone) | Heaux
* Hair || Serenity Hair (Candy HUD) | Truth Hair | new!
* Dress || Romance Dress | Blueberry
– This was a budget berry release, so if you didn’t grab it already, you can grab the full fatpack for L$850!
Backdrop || Minimal (Marshmellow) | FoxCity | vip group gift!
– This backdrop is an old VIP group gift, but is still on the VIP wall!
Pose || Portrait 4 | FoxCity
Location || Home
Blogging Tune || “God Save Me, But Don’t Drown Me Out” – YUNGBLUD