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Confession .306. If The World Was Ending, You’d Come Over, Right?

i know, You know, W/we know
You weren’t down for forever and it’s fine…

Confession .306.  If The World Was Ending, You'd Come Over, Right?

This song smacks me right in the feels every time i hear it, so it was high time i used it to word vomit a bit of what i’m feeling lately…

To Whom It May Concern:

My heart hurts.  Things You said, things i said… things You did, things i did… my heart just hurts.  i don’t necessarily even know how to make it stop.  i thought i could dance my way through it – it’s why i reached out to ask if there was a day You’d be able to see it at the theater.  But i don’t know what hurt more – the silence, or the inability for me to articulate in dance what i’m feeling, when that has been a way for me to communicate for the better part of 12 years.

Am i losing my touch with dance?  So much so that i’m rambling like You’ll even listen?  What the fuck have You done to me?  Not consciously of course, but Jesus Christ.

And i get it… i wasn’t for You.  i mean, i say i get it, but i don’t think i really do.  i get it in the sense that not E/everyone is right for E/everyone else, but i don’t get it in the sense that W/we could just… be… until You changed.  You got a lot different when stuff was rocky in Your RL and i got scared and pulled away.

But does that mean i can never come closer again?  Did You just create some kind of insurmountable wall that i’ll never be able to climb again?

i don’t know why i’m asking these questions like i expect You to care enough to read this and answer them.

i guess i’m holding on to some kind of hope that if i were truly in some sort of distress… if things were really falling apart around me… that some piece of You still has enough care for some piece of me that You would be there.  Like the song says, if the world was ending, You’d come over, right?

Cause i think the world might be ending.

The more i say “It’s fine,”… the more i say “i don’t care…” the more i realize that’s a lie.  i care.  A lot.  Too much, probably.  In fact, i know i never said it, because i was always afraid it was the wrong time or that You’d think You pressured me into saying it… but i fell in love with You.

So there’s that.

So i think the world might really be ending.  It certainly feels like it’s tearing me apart.


Shape || Mine
Body || Lara Body (v5.2) | Maitreya
Head || Genus Head Baby Face W001 (v1.7) | Genus Project
Skin || Jayleen Skin (Nordic Tone) | Deetalez
Eyeliner || Mod Chic 1 | Shiny Stuffs
Hair || Alaska Hair (Deluxe HUD) | Doux
Dress || Corset Belt Shirt Dress (All) | Zenith

Backdrop || New Beginnings Photo Booth | FoxCity
Pose || Drift 6 | FoxCity

Blogging Tune || “If The World Was Ending” – JP Saxe ft. Julia Michaels

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