Some days, I don’t want to see or
Have a bunch of people to impress
I just want relief from my stress
Yeah, I just want relief from my stress…
i had a completely different post planned tonight… so forgive the photo not matching this subject matter at all. But i’m just… beyond floored tonight.
Continue reading “Confession .297. I Just Want Relief From My Stress…”
Nothing that you say is mildly true
Spit deceit through shift smiles
Two faces you’ve had for awhile
You act like such a fucking child…
Today, I’d like to have a fun little chat about gaslighting – so please consider this your trigger warning for subjects like self-harm, psychological/mental abuse, and other similar themes. If you click off for this reason, then see you next time! ♥
Continue reading “Confession .207. Turns Out I’m Your Favorite Thing To Discuss…”
If You look into the distance, there’s a house upon the hill
Guiding like a lighthouse, it’s a place where You’ll be safe
To feel our grace
Cause we’ve all made mistakes
If You’ve lost Your way…
“And I know You’re down and out now, but I need you to be brave. Hiding from the truth ain’t gonna make this all ok. I see Your pain. If You don’t feel Your grace, and You’ve lost Your way… I will leave the light on.”
The last couple weeks have been… a lot. Like… a lot, a lot.
Continue reading “Confession .192. I Will Leave The Light On…”
So go on and smoke that shit, baby…
I know that you know I’m your favorite
Think she’s what you want, but she ain’t it
Watching how my waist whine, tryna touch my waistline
Know I like to take time with it…
What? Deia took 2 photos for a blog post again? What is this, the apocalypse? *Grins*
No, no… don’t break out the bomb shelters! I just got a new toy to play with, so I had to take a couple pictures to see how I liked it. And I liiiiiiiiike it! More below!
Continue reading “Confession .184. I’m Bad For You, Love, But I’m Your Cigarette…”
Now tell me: How did my dreams turn into nightmares?
How did I lose it, when I was right there?
Now I’m so far that it feels like it’s all gone to pieces
Tell me why the world never fights fair…
I’ve had these photos for days… and just haven’t known what to write really to go with it. And I still don’t, really. So this might be a relatively short post.
Continue reading “Confession .170. Someone Take Me Home…”
And You say I drink and I smoke and I talk too much
But I know You lied when You said that You just had enough and save Yourself
So hear me out…
“And You said need me to let this go, but it’s who I am. Or am I just losing it? Cause You said ‘Jump’ and I went first, but falling’s always been my downfall.”
This song. Ugh. It just punches me right in the feels. So… I’m sorry if it punches you in the feels too. *Nods lots* Then again, most things that Eden and The Eden Project does know exactly how to drag you through a rollercoaster of emotions that you didn’t know you were going to feel for those 3 to 5 minutes.
It’s fucking tragically beautiful.
Continue reading “Confession .153. And It Mean Nothing Til You Let It…”
I am human, I am the villain
I am a monster, but you let me right in
My mind is polluted, my thoughts convoluted
I don’t feel the pain, but I feel what I gave to you…
I feel like I say this a lot lately… but welp. This is a thing that happened.
I didn’t put on the outfit with the intention of going this direction with it, originally… but see… what had happened was…
Continue reading “Confession .138. But You Still Stand In Frame, I Just Don’t Look The Same…”
It’s the very first breath when your head’s been drowning underwater
It’s the lightness in the air when you’re there chest to chest with a lover
It’s holding on, though the road’s long
Seeing light in the darkest things
And when you stare at your reflection, finally knowing who it is
I know that you’ll thank God you did…
If you were on my Facebook this morning, you know exactly what I’m going to talk about in this post. If you were not on my Facebook this morning, then please know that this post will contain a narrative that may or may not be triggering to those with anxieties and sensitivities to certain subject matters, including but not limited to suicide.
Thank you for heeding this warning. If you don’t continue reading, to avoid the triggering subject, I understand, and I’ll see you next time. ♥ If you continue… let’s talk about my sister’s father-in-law…
Continue reading “Confession .131. It Feel Like My Life Ain’t Mine…”
I got a lot to say
No time to play
Ay, I’m comin’ for ya…
“You teach people how to treat you.”
This commentary came up in a group discussion tonight. It wasn’t something I’ve thought about in a long time, but I thought about it a lot tonight. It came from such a simple question as to how to move on after a break up or a bad relationship, but the conversation evolved to this.
Continue reading “Confession .130. If You Didn’t Know, I Fight Like A Girl…”
Baby, fineness is the way to kill
Tell me how it feel, I bet it’s such a bitter pill
And yeah, I know you thought you had bigger better things
Bet right now this stings
Cause the grass is greener under me
Bright as technicolor, I can tell that you can see
And yeah, I know how bad it must hurt to see me like this
But it gets worse!
Sorry, not sorry. I’m absolutely OBSESSED with this song right now. (Well… by ‘right now’ I still mean a week before you’re going to see this. But this is the last of the pre-scheduled posts, so you’ll start getting stuff in real-time again soon!)
Continue reading “Confession .115. Payback Is A Bad Bitch, And Baby, I’m The Baddest…”