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Confession .356. And If You’d Ask Them, They Would Describe Me Differently…

‘Cause some people make me bitter
Smile and then squeeze a lime in my cut
And some people make me sweeter
‘Cause they make me feel like I am enough
And that makes me a giver
But my mom says I tend to give too much
And some people make me better
And that’s how I know my favorite part of me is you
My favorite part of me is you…

Confession .356.  And If You'd Ask Them, They Would Describe Me Differently...

As we enter the last few days of Mermaid Cove, I would like to once again encourage you all to go explore the underwater seascape that is the amazing event full of talented creators ready to help you bring out your inner-mermaid.

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Posted in Anthem, Events, Life, New Releases, Tres Chic

Confession .350. But She Gets The Flowers, Right?

But she gets the flowers, right?
The posts made about her
A love that is perfect
A love I deserved, yeah
A love that I gave…

Confession .350.  But She Gets The Flowers, Right?

It’s interesting, talking to people all over again. Back to square one, getting to know them, having to out all of those things that He used to accept about me and wonder if a new person will walk away. Or if I’ll fuck it up and push them away before I can get hurt.

Cause, you know, I’m really good at that…

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Posted in Collabor88, Events, Life, New Releases, Skin Fair

Confession .343. But You Won’t Be Left Behind…

So I’ll tell You now, I don’t have a doubt
I’ll come home to You, no matter what we do
I will find a way, cause I’m not ready
To say goodbye at anytime…

Confession .343.  But You Won't Be Left Behind...

The concept of Polyamory as a whole is way too much for me to talk about in one blog post, but there are a couple of musings I guess I want to mention.

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Posted in Life, New Releases

Confession .283. If You Close Your Eyes, Does It Almost Feel Like Nothing Changed At All?

We were caught up and lost in all of our vices
In your pose as the dust settled around us
And the walls kept tumbling down in the city that we love
Grey clouds roll over the hills, bringing darkness from above

Confession .283.  If You Close Your Eyes, Does It Almost Feel Like Nothing Changed At All?

In the last post i made, i shared with you my letter to my future self that i read out loud in a private ceremony.  Today, i want to share with you a letter written to my *past* self.  The self that i was before i began pledging.  It is a little less deep, and a little more pledge and sorority centric, but i think there are still some vital things in there worth sharing.

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Posted in Anybody, Belle, Events, FaMeshed, Life, New Releases

Confession .281. Would You Believe Me If I Told You I’ve Got Flaws?

Cause i don’t know the perfect road to go down
But i know i’m trying my best
i’m trying my best to be ok
i’m trying my best, but every day it’s so hard…

Confession .281.  Would You Believe Me If I Told You That I've Got Flaws? (BVN Collab Challenge)

Oh god, i collabed!  And i hope it doesn’t look terrible!  My inspiration is always so sporadic that i’m scared to collab with other P/people that i won’t do T/them justice or their avatars or their looks or pretty much just any bit of anxiety that can stop me from doing something cool, will.  But this year i signed up for the BVN Collab Challenge and while finding these two collab buddies was a bit unconventional, we did it!

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Posted in Belle, Events, Life, New Releases

Confession .279. I’m Tired And Angry, But Somebody Should Be…

Come on little lady, give Us a smile
No, i ain’t got nothin to smile about
i got no one to smile for, i waited awhile for
A moment to say, “i don’t owe You a goddamn thing!”

Confession .279.  I'm Tired And Angry, But Somebody Should Be...

This is another one of those days where the lyrics to the song speak more than i do…. and so i’m just going to let them do that.

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Posted in Equal10, Events, Life, New Releases, ROMP

Confession .275. Dig Up All The Ugly Shit, Then You Offer Up Your Remedy…

You like broken girls cause they make You feel put together
Broken girls, rip it open then You kiss it better…

Confession .275.  Dig Up All The Ugly Shit, Then You Offer Up Your Remedy...

It’s been awhile.  Damn near a month.  And i apologize for that.  If Y/you read my last post, Y/you know that i posted that literally the day after i got home from the hospital.  i wasn’t ready to share all of that with E/everyone, really, but unfortunately, a poorly-managed situation in my home Community in which my personal business was being spread around carelessly made it such that if i didn’t tell the rest of my own story it likely would’ve morphed beyond recognition by the time i was ready to speak about it.

Unfortunately, that means that i kinda had to force myself to be more raw than i was ready to be, and it took away every desire i had to write anything else for awhile.  Again, my apologies.  Especially to those Designers who entrust me with showcasing their designs.  i’m playing catch up, and i thank you in advance for Y/your understanding.  ♥

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Confession .266. I Was Getting Kinda Used To Being Someone You Loved…

i need Somebody to heal, Somebody to know
Somebody to have, Somebody to hold
It’s easy to say, but it’s never the same
i guess i kinda liked the way You numbed all the pain…

Confession .266.  I Was Getting Kinda Used To Being Someone You Loved...

i feel like lately my reaction to everything is that i don’t really have words.  And then yet my instinct when these things happen, is to blog.  i’m a bit of a purist and believe that blogging also involved writing, but lately i find that my negative emotions are more aptly sated by the creativity of the photo, and by the time i come here to write i’m just… drained.

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Posted in Events, Life, N21, New Releases

Confession .265. You Don’t Know What It’s Like…

So let me just give up, let me just let go
If this isn’t good for me, well, i don’t wanna know
Let me just stop trying, let me just stop fighting
i don’t need Your good advice or reasons why i’m alright
You don’t know what it’s like…

Confession .265.  You Don't Know What It's Like...

Hopelessness is a feeling with unfathomable depth.  Each time Y/you think Y/you’ve hit rock bottom with it, S/someone or something else can push Y/you just a little bit deeper.  Let Y/you sink just a little bit further down… and at some point i worry that i won’t have enough oxygen left to swim to the surface.  It’s a dangerous game of chicken to play, and eventually, S/someone’s going to lose.

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Posted in Gor, Life, New Releases

Confession .263. Breathing Half A Breath Since You’re Away…

One less spark from a flame
One more heart beat away
i think i lost Your scent after the rain
i’ll find You when O/our paths cross by the gold mines…

Confession .263.  Breathing Half A Breath Since You're Away...

i’m not used to not getting what i want in dance.  And as self-centered as that sounds – let me explain.  i’m not used to competing, as i don’t do so very often anymore.  Most of the time, i’m performing in a theater with a group of like-minded P/people, just for fun and the love of dance (and sure, the tips don’t hurt).  It’s not often i put myself out there to be judged anymore… and yesterday reminded me why.

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