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Confession .183. Looks Exactly The Way It Did Inside My Head When I Dreamed About It…

I don’t really like anybody
So don’t tell me I’m like anybody else
You put it back together, don’t let it fall apart again
People change with the weather…

Confession .183.  Looks Exactly The Way It did Inside My Head When I Dreamed About It...

I’m still getting back to getting comfortable exploring different style genres and things a little outside the “casual potato/barefooted hippie” vibe my SL normally consists of when I walk around not taking pictures.  Bear with me.  🙂

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Posted in 4Mesh, Collabor88, Events, Fantasy Gacha Carnival, Powder Pack for Lelutka (November), ROMP

Confession .153. And It Mean Nothing Til You Let It…

And You say I drink and I smoke and I talk too much
But I know You lied when You said that You just had enough and save Yourself
So hear me out…

Confession .153.  And It Means Nothing Til You Let It...

“And You said need me to let this go, but it’s who I am.  Or am I just losing it?  Cause You said ‘Jump’ and I went first, but falling’s always been my downfall.”

This song.  Ugh.  It just punches me right in the feels.  So… I’m sorry if it punches you in the feels too.  *Nods lots*  Then again, most things that Eden and The Eden Project does know exactly how to drag you through a rollercoaster of emotions that you didn’t know you were going to feel for those 3 to 5 minutes.

It’s fucking tragically beautiful.

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Confession .132. Too Hard To Breathe, I’m On My Knees Right Now…

I’m so sick of that same old love
That shit, it tears me up
I’m so sick of that same old love
My body’s had enough…

https://www.flickr.com/photos/riki-tiki-tivi/36647573843/in/dateposted-public/

For a long time, both in my SL and my RL I’ve tried to figure out this delicate balance between how I feel as a submissive, and how I feel as a ‘hopeless romantic’ in a more vanilla sense.  And let me tell you, it’s not exactly the easiest balance to find.

Today, you’re going to get some ramblings from my brain about romanticism and M/s relationships.

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Confession .118. What’s Left Of My Heart’s Still Made of Gold…

And I know that I’m still fucked up
But aren’t we all, my love?
Darling, our scars make us who we are
So when the winds are howling strong
And you think you can’t go one
Hold tight, sweetheart…

Confession .118.  What's Left Of My Heart's Still Made Of Gold...

I’ve talked about this a few times before, once extensively that I can remember… unless I’m just implanting memories in my own head, which is entirely possible as I’ve not had much sleep today… but it’s time to go over it again.

Progressive Myoclonous Epilepsy with Early Dementia.  Or, FENIB.  (Which means something else entirely that I don’t know.)

My family’s disease.

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Confession .111. But I’m Thinking, “Damn, If These Walls Could Talk!”

Been about three days and I’m comin’ back
I’m about four minutes from a heart attack
And I think You make me a maniac
But You don’t know.

https://www.flickr.com/photos/riki-tiki-tivi/35116213583/in/dateposted-public/

Don’t bust my balls for one picture in this post.  I was zooming in to take a closer picture of the face/hair and Black Dragon crashed on me.  (Shock shock!  A buggy viewer crashed!  Never!  Lol.)

The point of this post is pretty hair, pretty skin, pretty tattoo, and you can see all of that in this photo.

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Confession .109. But He Could Make Me Golden If I Just Showed Some Respect…

But I don’t let Him touch me anymore…
I said, “I’m not something to butter up and taste when You get bored.”
Cause I have spend too many nights on dirty bathroom floors
To find some peace and quiet right behind a wooden door…

Confession .109.  But He Could Make Me Golden If I Just Showed Some Respect...

He said, “Please don’t go away.”
I said, “It’s too late.”

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Confession .101. This Time Keep Yours, Cause I Got Mine…

I ain’t never been the one to wait up
Waiting for a Man to save me
Independent, got my own stuff
I’m good, I’m good…

Confession .101.  This Time Keep Yours, Cause I Got Mine...

Is it really that hard to believe that I’m a grown-ass adult who makes my own decisions, and will inevitably take responsibility for those decisions should they go wrong or right?

I don’t understand what’s so hard to understand about that.

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Confession .94. Who Cares If One More Light Goes Out? I Do…

The reminders pull the floor from your feet
In the kitchen, one more chair than you need
And you’re angry… and you should be… it’s not fair
Just cause you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it isn’t there…

Confession .94.  Who Cares If One More Light Goes Out?  I Do...

I was more than a little bit terrified when I started getting wind of a new Linkin Park album.

Like… I grew up with Linkin Park… and they were kind of the misfit’s anthem of my generation – at least in the part of the midwest I was in… maybe in more musically-diverse areas of the country and of the world, you had a different band that was this for you… but, like… I couldn’t wrap my head around being now 27 years old and going back to listening to this band from my childhood/early-adolescence.

And then I heard “Heavy” for the first time.  And that song played on repeat for DAYS… Linkin Park had managed to write my anthem all over again… so of course, I started poking around at other songs from the album.

That’s when I found this one…

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Confession .91. If My Armor Breaks, I’ll Fuse It Back Together…

If I fall, get knocked down
Pick myself up off the ground…

Confession .91.  If My Armor Breaks, I'll Fuse It Back Together...

So this?  This right here?  This is my ride or die.  😀

Which is why it’s so strange to me that I’m pretty sure this is the first time we’ve truly collaborated.  But, to be fair, that’s likely my fault.  Cause I’ve always been relatively terrible at pictures that involve more than one person… so I’ve always been wary about pulling someone else into my little slice of the world over here, and then not being able to make them look as amazing as they deserve.

At least Nova wouldn’t kill me if this turned out shitty.  LOL.

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Confession .86. But He’ll Never Stay; They Never Do…

Would’ve gave it all for You, cared for You
So tell me where I went wrong…
Would’ve gave it all for You, cared for You
My Lover… My Liar…

Confession .86.  But He'll Never Stay; They Never Do...

It’s been a loooooong time since I’ve given you guys a really good story.  Like… one of those stories that really sucks in the moment, because everything that could go wrong, did… but in the end, I can look back on it and laugh.

It wasn’t until I told Nova the entire story over the phone this evening that I realized JUST how ridiculous it was… so I HAVE to share it.  Lol.

I hope you get a good giggle at my expense…

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