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Confession .120. But I Always Make The Same Mistakes…

Got a boy back home in Michigan
And it tastes like Jack when I’m kissing him
So I told him that I never really liked his friends
Now he’s gone and he’s calling me a bitch again…

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Hooray!  I can start blogging the Miss Colour of Couture Challenges that we’ve done so far.  I’m going to TRY my damnedest to keep up with them… the Photo challenges, like this one, will be easier to blog because the photos will be there and edited already, but the runway challenges will take more motivation to put back on and blog.  Lmao.

My apologies in advance if I fall behind.

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Confession .107. Don’t Call Me Up At 2am Tonight…

Bittersweet in your mouth
Can you stomach the doubt?

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“Don’t waste your time convincing me that maybe someday we’ll get it right.  Cause we never could.”

“We won’t, so just don’t.”

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Confession .38. Sometimes You Gotta Burn Some Bridges Just To Create Some Distance…

You ever wonder what we could’ve been?
You said you wouldn’t and you fucking did.
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix.
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed…

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“Feeling used, but I’m still missing you.  And I can’t see the end of this.  Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips.  And now all this time is passing by, but still I can’t seem to tell you why it hurts me every time I see you.  Realize how much I need you.”

She used to be strong.  She used to be… the epitome of independent, feminine strength rolled into a romantically submissive package.  The woman who could manage with the best of them but still come home and sit at Daddy’s feet and be perfectly content.

She used to be strong…

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I Told You Time And Time Again…

I’m so ready for war
Got my soldiers and all
You should call on the Lord
Cause you’re taking the fall

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“We uncontrollable.  You tamer than a dog on leash.”

The third runway challenge for Miss Virtual World, fourth challenge overall, was this past Saturday.  And this song has been stuck in my head since the Empire episode it played on, on Wednesday.  I’d already mostly, if not completely, styled by then, but still for whatever reason this song served as my inspiration, and spoke perfectly to the attitude with which I styled.

Unfortunately, for me, this challenge was my last this year.  My journey has been cut short.  And yes, to me it feels like “cutting short”, but I’ll reflect on that, and everything else when it’s less raw.

The theme behind this runway challenge was “Fash and Furious”, based around the Fast and Furious series… HOWEVER, while we were asked to look to the series for inspiration, the briefing went DEEPER than that when our challenge was described to us.  We were told to “make being illegal look fashionable.”

That was the object.  The object was not to recreate the movie.  So I did not draw inspiration from particular characters, or a particular movie from the franchise.  Instead, I took my inspiration from the overall style briefing, the objective we were given, and the series as a whole.  With that, this is what I got.

My backstory for this particular challenge may have been a bit intense for some of the judges… but hey, it’s me.  Take it or leave it.  (For those who might be confused because of how broken up my backstory was for this challenge… not a long rambling paragraph about meaningless things that have nothing to do with the inspiration behind the outfit… everything from here to the end is the backstory that was read out on Saturday.  As I said earlier, I will blog at a later time about an overall reflection of my journey this year, at a time when the feeling is less heartbreaking and less raw.  Love you guys.)

“You don’t know me.  But you’re about to.”

There is nothing like the thrill of an adrenaline rush, no matter what it is that causes it.  Speed, tension, danger… anything that causes your blood to flow and your heart to race.  It makes you feel alive!  That is what Tivi screams when she takes this runway this morning… and it is a vital part of understanding who she is.

“Thrill me!” comes the cry of the bold red on black.

“Excite me!” call the spikes that litter the top and heels.

“To bore me is to lose me!” chime the chains across her shoulders.

Everything about her riddling a harmonious discord… a chaotic sort of stillness… a loud silence.

“I am a woman!  Not a fairytale princess!  I have emotions, opinions, a temper, a very loud voice, and one hell of a right hook!”  A smirk will pull across blood-stained lips.

“You don’t know me.  But you’re about to.”

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*~* I Told You Time And Time Again… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup Option 04) || Glam Affair
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.3) || Maitreya
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: Airwaves II (light blondes) || Vanity Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant 1) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Half Glitter Fall 2015 (Red) || -{ZOZ}- || from Rock Your Rack
Eyeliner: London Liner (Black Eyeliner Only) || Madrid Solo
Lipstick: Essential Lipsticks (Red; Matte; Dark) || Pink Fuel
Lip Shine: Grace Bonus Lip Gloss Only || Madrid Solo
Bustier: Rosalie (Black) || Maci || from Rock Your Rack
Jacket: Opium Jacket, Sleeves, & Skirt || Eshi Otawara
Pants: Abandon Pants (Grey) || Dead Dollz
Heels: Geeky Heels (w/ Color Hud) || Ducknipple
Back Pearl Necklace: Pearl Necklace (Back Only) || EMO-tions
Shoulder/Chest Chain: Scarlett Body Chain (Black) || Noodles
Forearm Cuffs: Yseult Cuffs || Zibska

Pose (photo 1): Runway I 6 – Level 4 || Vitalis Animatum
Pose (photo 2): Runway I 5 – Level 4 || Vitalis Animatum

Blogging Tune: “Dynasty” – Yazz & Timbaland ft. Empire Cast

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Tell Me, Are You Just Getting By?

Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame, someone’s bound to get burned
Just because it burns, doesn’t mean you’re gonna die
You gotta get up and try, try, try…

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I promise there are pictures that exist somewhere of my MVW Audition outfit.  I think I need to re-shoot them, though.  Sorry about that.  >.>

I am Miss Virtual ♛ Iceland 2016.  And that still feels REALLY weird to say.  For a few reasons.  Any of you who have followed me for any length of time probably know a few of said reasons, but it’s just… still so surreal to me.  Even after having walked the runway in our first challenge.  I thought that might be the point that made it feel more ‘real’… but it’s still so… gah!  Perhaps the second runway challenge, which is a tribute to our current Miss Virtual ♛ World, will sorta bring together the fact that here in the next couple of months, Eles will pass her crown to one of 33 of us competing right now.

That thought alone is still so… wow!

Anyway…

It’s surreal to me for several reasons.  (Have I repeated myself enough?  Lol.)

And while I was totally going to save this story for the post of my audition outfit, it doesn’t look like that’s coming back out of my inventory any time soon, so since this is my first official “MVW post”, I figured I’d tell you all this story now.

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Reason #1: I’ve been working for this for the last 3 years.  Every year in MVW, there is such a mixture.  People who just started modeling, wanted to try their hand, and got in right away, people who aren’t certified models but are killer stylists, and people who have been working and improving for this moment to finally make it in on a second, third, fourth, etc attempt.  I fall into that last category.  Now, with that said, I did NOT audition last year.  I did not even put my headshot in to be considered.  BOSL and MVW had just come into new Ownership and I wanted to see… just how it was going to go.  MVW had been built up into this huge thing… like some giant rite of passage, and there was some stuff behind the scenes under the old ownership that so many people questioned or outright attacked.  I took a ‘gap year’, for lack of a better term, to watch and see.

And I was blown away.  Last year’s group of ladies  was amazing.  The competition was run like I always knew Reign to run things.  (I’ve also been rather close to Colour of Couture happenings for the last 3 years as well, auditioning, competing, helping backstage, etc.)  I had every reassurance in the world that I needed in order to put my headshot in this year and get to this point.  I wouldn’t change my ‘gap year’ for anything, as I got to see some truly beautiful, wonderful women have their time and their journey.  And now this year, it’s time for mine.

I remember my first audition 3 years ago.  I totally felt like the cards were stacked against me.  Not purposely… but just… I didn’t actually get a live audition until the last one.  So there were literally 40-50, if not more, of us walking for the last 4 or 5 spots.  Lol.  Needless to say, there were going to be a lot of disappointed models, and I was ultimately one of those.  Even though I’d expected it, it didn’t stop it from hurting any less.  But I’d just recently begun modeling, and I remember speaking to one of the ladies who DID make it through, and she reassured me, “This was my third try.”  Not her third try that year… her third YEAR trying.  And I’d always looked up to this woman as a model.

If it took her 3 years, then it’s a process.  I’d resolved that in myself and started working my ass off.

Reason #2: It’s not Ireland!  If you scroll back a bit, I spilled my guts some time ago about my “Ireland dreams”.  It had always been my dream and goal to represent Ireland in MVW.  My father was Irish… which, with his death just over 2 years ago, made this dream that much more significant.  But also, for the longest time I ran around SL as a redhead.  I was always some form of red.  When my skin was darker, my hair was more of a crimson/merlot/blood red.  When my skin was pale, I was a ginger.  I was always convinced that no one could take my red hair from me.  And then someone did.  I was literally at the point that I could not look at my avi with red hair.  The reason for which and the story behind the change just… isn’t something I want to go into… but I started running around with something I never thought I’d do again… super pale, and super light/platinum blonde.  And that became my look.  Now, I’m not saying I couldn’t represent Ireland just because I didn’t have red hair anymore.  And in fact, it was my second choice in country selections.  But I happened upon a quote about Iceland one night while I was on a random Google search.  And the quote spoke to me so deeply, I knew I had to make it my first choice.  Iceland is like… my life, and my journey, in country form.  *Laughs*

“When you live in a country which moves alarmingly under your feet every five years or so with an earthquake or a volcanic eruption, you face, like the saga heroes of old, a choice of two courses of action, neither of them good: Either to flee the country and all its hazards, or to stay and brave them out. For more than 1100 years the people of Iceland have chosen to stay and brave them out.”

That is me.  And that is what I will continue to do.  When faced with the choice to run away or brave it out… I will ALWAYS brave it out, for as long as I can take it.  And I’m still here.  So, that should tell you something.  🙂

Anyway… I know this had nothing to do with the actual runway challenge that we walked in on Saturday… haha!  The theme we were given was Lady Marmalade Meets Zumanity… both of which are amazing.  I knew generally what Zumanity was, I’d heard about it in passing, mostly because I’m obsessed with Cirque du Soleil, and so is Nova, and she’s also obsessed with this show in particular.  But I’d never actually poked around the trailer videos and stuff before this challenge.  I was REALLY inspired by the ‘Wind’ number, and the little previews of it I saw.  Which explains why my styling was a bit ‘longer’ and ‘more covered’ than a lot of the other candidates.  I wanted something that would flow like the Wind performer did, but I also didn’t want to be in just a sheer bodysuit.  So I took my Lady Marmalade and the burlesque that I love dearly (and have WAY too much of in my inventory from my neo-burlesque dancing days!) to recreate “Wind in the Style of Lady Marmalade”.  It was super fun, and I had a blast walking with 32 other wonderful women.

I look forward to more!

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*~* Tell Me, Are You Just Getting By? *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup Option 04) || Glam Affair
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: Ennuit (All Blonds) || Vanity Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Dark Set || Nailed It
Eyeshadow: Iza (Aqua; manually tinted to match) || Nuuna
Lipstick: Shena Lips Only (Aqua) || Madrid Solo
Black Lingerie (Underneath Corset): Vitality (Black Satin & Ruffle) || Blacklace
Corset: Fancy (Teal Satin & Lace) || Blacklace
Feathers (upper & lower): Lis Feather Upper & Lower (Teal) || -AZUL-
Full Skirt: Dubois (prim skirt) || Lyrical Bizarre Templates **not released yet**
* Thank you, Lyrical!  It was perfect to meet my vision of Wind!
Heels: Anime Platforms (Black) || Pure Poison
Earrings/Necklace/Bracelet: Royal Blush || Lazuri
Rings: Accessories Rings (Black) || Formanails

Poses: Various from PosESioN

Location: Runway for MVW Runway Challenge #1: Lady Marmalade Meets Zumanity
* Built by the wonderful and amazing Sofia Corleone

Blogging Tune: “Try” – Pink (Jayesslee Cover)

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Bombs Over Broadway For Fire In The Sky…

My life flashed before my eyes
Razorblade lips and daggers up in your eyes
Baby your love is a crime
Danger by day, but you’re evil in the night…

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“Switch to the improved posting experience!”  God no!  I like my posting experience the way it is, thank you very much.  I’m already more than a little irritated at the two successful hacking attempts into my blog that has now forced me to move back to the WordPress.Com platform and re-syndicate my blog with everyone… again.  I’d like to not have to learn new posting experiences.  Lol.

One step at a time, WordPress.  Please?

Anyway.  This is an entirely new look for me, yeah?  Haha.  Some of you might remember my Facebook post the other day (a week or so ago?) about the Fantasy RP sim that Rodric and I found.  I have two characters there, both on Tivi’s avi, just different appearances and different slots on the roleplay HUD for her information, but this is one of them.  Her true name is Jerijah, which literally means “fear”, and she goes by Ijah, because she can be bonded and controlled by anyone who knows her true name.  She’s a demoness who doesn’t exactly… eat?  She feeds solely on fear.

Though how she harvests said fear, as she is learning, can tend to drive people a little bit insane.  So that’s always fun.

She is the darker side of me.  When I’m angry, upset, stressed out… when I just want to throw things or beat things with sticks (ask Rodric… it happens more than you might think), it’s a nice outlet to go and be able to roleplay a character that is simply, for lack of a better term, a frigid bitch who gives zero fucks about anybody else.  And when she doesn’t feed for an extended period of time?  She becomes extremely violent and psychotic (a racial trait), so that can be fun to play as well.

Plus… do you see her?  The styling opportunities are tremendous!  *Giggles*

Here shortly I plan to show you my other character as well, Faelwen, as soon as I can get some good pictures of her.  I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting this blog for so long.  As you all know, shortly after my last post, I went to housesit for my parents for a week, so I didn’t have access to my computer, nor my internet connection for most of that.  Then when I came home, I was home for less than 24 hours before I ended up with a fever of 104.5 and my mother came and got me to take me back to her house.  I was literally held captive (well, not literally, but it felt like it! lol) until my fever was down and stayed down without being pumped full of antibiotics and ibuprofen, which lasted about 3 days.  When I got home, the storm that rolled through the day before knocked out my internet.  And when I say knocked it out, I don’t mean like, “Oh, it was a signal problem that a tech fixed the next day.”  I mean, literally, something nearby got hit by lightening, and it took 4 days to get someone out to fix it.  Lol.  From there, I’ve simply been attempting to get back into the swing of things, adjust to new medications after finally getting to go back to a real doctor, and was busting my ass on a project… that I am no longer working on.

But we won’t go into that project.  Because the whole situation surrounding that mess makes me angry.

Either way, I’m back and blogging again, and hopefully will introduce you to Faelwen soon!  And I’ll blog my MVW audition outfit with a bit of a recap on how that went and what is going through my head as this journey begins.  And and and… so many post ideas!  So excited.  ❤

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*~* Bombs Over Broadway, For Fire In The Sky… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Immortalia (Femme; Nerio Tone) || The Plastik
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v 3.3) || Maitreya
Eyes: Deadshine Eyes (Black) || IKON
Hair: Stoned Love (All Blacks Pack) || Vanity Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant 1) || Slink
Feet: Mesh Body Feet (v3.3; set to Flat) || Maitreya
Tail: Sci-Fi Demon Tail || CREATiCA
Nail Claws: Lethal Talons (Black; For Slink Elegant 1) || CerberusXing
* Comes with sizes for Maitreya Hands, Slink Elegant 1, TMP Female, and TMP Male
Claw Top/Panties/Skirt: Thorny Succubus Outfit (Black) || Aii
Chain Top/Sash/Belt/Bracelets/Hands: Aphrodite Gacha || Aisling || The Secret Affair
Sandals: Pandora Sandals (Coal) || Fri.day
Halo: Lucifer’s Halo || CerberusXing
Forehead Horns: Devil Female (Black) || Punch
Horns: Hundred Chain Horns (Chained + Black) || CerberusXing
Facial Piercings: Schakal || the HV
Pipe: Dragonclaw Pipe Silver (Ebony) || CerberusXing
Katana: Da-Katana || MPS

Pose (both photos): Rock Chick 09 || Ma Vie

Location: Realm of the Forgotten Fantasy RP Sim
* I’m linking it for those interested in checking it out, but please keep in mind this is an ACTIVE roleplay sim.  This is NOT a photography sim.

Blogging Tune: “Evil In The Night” – Adam Lambert

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My Memory Lacks Initiative…

Yeah, so I’m already dead on the inside
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs
I have learned to love the lie

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Ok, so the lyrics of this song sound incredibly depressing… but the upbeat nature of it and some of the random things they say make me giggle.  So… bear with me.  This is my mood on blog post #3 of the day.

You’ll have to forgive me for being the largest blogger hypocrite ever today… when I made post #1 today and mentioned I didn’t understand how some people could do multiple posts in a day (except for those who sacrifice photo quality), I was kinda intrigued and inspired to try it myself.

I hate it.  I’ll be lucky if I can sit down and do one per day.  Let alone multiple per day, several days in a row.

I just feel like I got NOTHING else done today.  Granted, I’ve been awake since 7pm my time yesterday, so the longer I go, the more I slow down with exhaustion.  But seriously.  I’ve pretty much been standing in my dance pit tabbed into Photoshop, or writing, or looking up SLURLs, or tp’ing to MIC to take pictures, or tp’ing to an event to figure out more information about it… I couldn’t imaging allowing this to consume my entire SL.

There’s so much else that I enjoy doing, I couldn’t sit here all day every day just blogging.  I can do it for short periods of time, like now, to catch up on how far behind I am on everything, post-wise… but I don’t think I could do it regularly.

I’d never get anything else done.

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This is the part where some of you tell me, “Well Tivi if you didn’t yammer on every time you blog, then maybe it wouldn’t take you so long to post the shit and you could get multiple posts done in a day AND do other things.”  But that’s just it…

a website containing a writer’s or group of writers’ own experiences,observations, opinions, etc., and often having images and links to other websites.” — Dictionary.Com

From what I read… the very definition of a blog includes writing.  This has been one of my pet peeves for awhile.  People who literally post nothing but a picture or two… on a white background, no less… and then style credits.  And usually incomplete style credits – another pet peeve I can rant about later.  Like… where is the creativity in that?  Where is the originality in that?  Where is the art in that?

Where is the BLOGGING in a blog like that?

There is someone I know, and I don’t want to use her name just in case people misunderstand and think I’m talking about her negatively (I’m NOT… I love her to death and wish more people would follow her example).  She keeps a blog, on a blogging website… but then she does additional pictures that are not blogged and keeps them solely on her Flickr.  She doesn’t call them her ‘blog’ and her ‘Flickr blog’.  She calls them her ‘blog’ and her ‘photo journal’.  THAT, to me, is accurate.

Much like events are cropping up all over the place and coming out of the woodwork, bloggers seem to be coming out of nowhere as well.  Everyone who can operate the SL camera and start a WordPress or Blogger site and post pictures and sometimes credits is trying to call themselves a blogger now and it’s just… frustrating.

What happened to the days when bloggers actually… you know… BLOGGED?

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*~* My Memory Lacks Initiative… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup 04) || Glam Affair || Summerfest (til July 12th)
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: The Italian Job (Blondes) || Vanity Hair
Ears: Steking Ears (Season 5; set to Elf) || Mandala
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (Mid) || Slink
Nails (hands): Mesh Nails (Slink Elegant) || ZOZ
Nailpolish (hands): Wild Summer 2015 Polish || ZOZ || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)
* Must have ZOZ Mesh Nails for this polish
Nailpolish (feet): Tropical Nails || MUA || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)
Eyeliner: U-Color-It Bold Liner (Thin Set) || Madrid Solo
Outfit: Fleur (Etre Aux Anges Collection) || Lyrical Bizarre
* Includes Corset, Panties, Pearls, Collar, Garter, & Back Piece (called ‘chest piece’)
Jewelry: Hibiscas Falls || Moondance Boutique || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)

Pose (photo 1): Phenomena 04 || Ma Vie
Pose (feature/photo 2): Star 04 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 3): Revealed 02 || Ma Vie

Location: MIC Imagin@rium

Blogging Tune: “LG FUAD” – Motion City Soundtrack

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Is That Your Bitch Over There?

But You took advantage of, You took advantage of, You took advantage
I cannot understand, I cannot understand, I cannot understand it
I thought You’d always be there for me, yeah yeah
But if You ask if I knew better now,
Hell yeah.

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One of the most amazing honors I’ve received lately is the ability to be a blogger for The Fantasy Angels show this year.  While I’m not a Fantasy Angel model, I get to play dress up and look like one and show you all the AMAZING designs by some incredibly talented designers that will be involved in this year’s show.

And I’m telling you… these are gorgeous.  I can’t even wait to show you some of the rest.

This first design, I opened up… and I didn’t even put it ON yet, I just saw the ad photo and immediately IMed Lyrical, from Lyrical Bizarre and said, “Girl!  You are a genius.”  I love everything about this.

Then again, as someone who spent most of their SL time as a redhead, I’m pretty partial to red.  *Grins*

The red and gold in this just screams sensuality… it screams lux.  And right now, I’m watching (random, I know) Big Brother Canada, Season 3.  The Head of Household room is usually done in this entirely beautiful red and gold, so this set just felt perfect.

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Though the more that I watch Big Brother Canada, the more that I’m reminded of the lengths some people will go to to get what they want.  It’s a little discouraging in a “lose faith in humanity” kind of way, but at the same time, it’s not ‘as bad’… the environment in the Big Brother house is controlled.  And the worst they really come away with are newly-formed friendships that are broken.

In real life when people pull the shit that are pulled on that show, it hurts real, genuine people… not players in a game.  So while I try to find solace in the fact that this kind of underhanded shit is going on as a part of some strategy to win a game, and ultimately win $100,000, I’m still reminded that if people are wired in such a way that they’ll even CONSIDER pulling half the shit they pull, then what’s to stop them from doing it in the real world?

Unfortunately, there’s nothing to stop them.

And unfortunately, some people do ‘play’ their real lives like a game.  They even ‘play’ the real people behind the keyboard in Second Life like they’re just a pawn in some grand scheme that revolves around them.

It’s enough to make me sick.

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*~* Is That Your Bitch Over There? *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Harley (Porcelain Tone; Lid 02) – Pink Fuel
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) – IKON
Hair: Ennui (All Blonds Pack) – Vanity Hair
Body: Lara Mesh Body (current version 3.3) – Maitreya
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Casual) – Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) – Slink
Nailcolor Appliers: Diva Set (Red) – Nailed It
Eyeliner: London Liner (Red Tip Liner Only) – Madrid Solo
Lipstick: Essential Lipsticks (Red; Satin; Dark) – Pink Fuel
Lingerie Set: Perla – Lyrical Bizarre Templates  @ Fantasy Angels Show
Boots: Gladiator Couture Princess Boots (Red) – Dirty Princess
Jewelry Set: Royal Blush Set – Lazuri

Pose (photo 1): Paulina Two – oOo Studio
Pose (photo 2): Iced One Mirror – oOo Studio

Location: Home

Blogging Tune: “I Bet” – Ciara

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Home, Let Me Come Home…

I’ll follow you into the park
Through the jungle, through the dark
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you…

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More new things!  *Giggles*

In an effort to catch up on some stuff that came through my inventory while I was dealing with holiday stuff and moving, there may be times when I (attempt to) blog multiple outfits in the same post.  Some of you find this to be bad practice, or whatever… but at this point, I’d prefer to make sure that more creations get shown, as opposed to focusing on individual posts for EVERYTHING which will simply burn me out.  Especially at this stage in the game where I’m playing catch-up.

Two of my favourite gowns in my inventory at the moment both come from Kiddo Oh of Dead Dollz, and they were both designed for Miss Virtual World candidates this year.  The first gown I want to show you below, is “Andalusia”, made for Miss Virtual Spain 2015.  The second gown you’ll see is “Tanguera”, made for Miss Virtual Argentina 2015.

Both of these gowns dwell in a color palette of black and red, and both are unique in their own way.  Both are extremely well-crafted, so of COURSE I fell in love with them immediately.

(And then I’ve got Jacob in the background saying, “I really like this dress.  Well, the bottom half.”  LOL.)

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It was interesting to sit on the sidelines and watch some friends I’d grown close to take their MVW journey without me.  After some incredibly negative experiences in Colour of Couture, I just couldn’t see subjecting myself to MVW when they are now run by the same people.  So I smiled and nodded, wished my CoC sisters, and some other friends, the best of luck on their individual journeys, and watched as the challenges unfolded before my eyes, on Flickr and Facebook.

From a spectator perspective, there were a lot of interesting challenges this year.  Some stylists hit them head-on and went all out with it… and I loved seeing some things that they came up with.  Jamee Sandalwood was one of my favourites to watch, as was Trinity Aironaut.  And Eleseren with the swimwear challenge blew me away.  Then again, I LOVE color, so I was totally biased.  LOL.

Either way, it was fun to just sit back and watch.  Will I ever try to do MVW?  I don’t know. At this point, from where I’m sitting right now, in this moment, no.  I never will.  Because I don’t have enough personal belief in capabilities of the leadership to instill a sense of individuality and creativity among the contestants, as opposed to conformity to some ideal that squashes everything they are as a PERSON.  I can’t get behind that.  I’m sorry, but I can’t.

For right now, I’m just lingering back.  I’m doing Mr&Miss Model International because it compounds on a few ideas that I’ve been looking for in fashion from the very beginning: creativity and individuality are EMBRACED… and FEEDBACK is offered after every challenge.  That is the thing that makes me hold up my pom-poms and scream “Whoo MMI!”  I’ve been dying for feedback for years.  As a dancer it’s crucial.  As a model, I feel it is too.  How do you know how to better prepare for the next casting after you don’t succeed in the last one, if no one gives you CONSTRUCTIVE criticism?

Anyway.  I’m just having fun being me.  And that’s all that matters right now.  I don’t need MVW.

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*~* Home, Let Me Come Home… *~*

— The Basics (the same for both gowns) —

Shape: MINE
Skin: Amberly II (Jamaica Tone; Makeup Option 02) – Glam Affair
Eyes: Promise Eyes (Apex) – IKON
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) – Slink
Body: Lara Mesh Body v2.1 – Maitreya
Nailcolor Applier: Dark Set (Red) – Nailed It
Eyeshadow: lilumi Eye Shadow (Ignition) – Lovely Disarray
Liptick: Glossy Pout Lipstick (Red; Deep Tone) – Pink Fuel
Earrings: Hoops Earrings Deluxe (Gold) – Soedara
Nosechain: Of The Plains (Gold) – Soedara

— Gown 1 [photo 2] —

Hair: Snowdrift (Redheads) – Tableau Vivant  (former C88 release)
Gown: Andalusia Gown – Dead Dollz
Collar: Junon Collar (Gold) – Skjern Designs

— Gown 2 [photos 1 & 3] —

Hair: Diavolo (Dark Reds) – Vanity Hair
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) – Slink
Gown: Tanguera Gown – Dead Dollz
Ribbon (feet): Ballet Lace – Alterego

Poses: various from Agapee

Location: My home

Blogging Tune: “Home” – Glee Cast

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Don’t Get Me Wrong, Your Eyes Are So Intimidating…

I dont wanna steal Your Freedom
I don’t wanna change Your mind
I don’t have to make You love me
I just want to take Your time…

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Remember what I mentioned about trying out some new post formatting?  Well, get ready for one of the ideas I want to try.  *Giggles*  Are you ready for it?  Hmm?  Are ya?

I realized that, while I talk about dance all the time, I never really SHOW you.  And 90% of you likely wouldn’t feel comfortable going to one of the Gorean events that I dance at, even if it’s Out of Character and completely safe, you’d be totally out of your element.  Soooooo… I decided that I’m going to start recording some of my sequences and blogging them.  I won’t post the emotes… because, well, a lot of my dances are a bit personal.  And while I’m ok posting them in local chat during the time that they’re danced, I’m not terribly certain how fond I am of the idea of them being on the Interwebs in my blog to live in the Cloud somewhere forever.  Lol.

Maybe I’m weird for thinking about it that way.  I don’t know.

BUT, I’ll blog the fun parts… the movements and what I was wearing!  Maybe I’ll tell you a little bit about where I was dancing and why, or what the event/theme was.  But the focus of these dance posts will be the dance itself.

This first sequence I’m choosing to post is one I just recently performed, on January 17th.  The dance exhibition was held at the School of Gorean Dance and it was the “Master Ramius Challenge”, where he challenged the Instructors at the school to get out of the classroom and into the pit.  We were to choose our favourite dance that we’d performed, but I don’t actually have the music to my favourite dance… and it was an edited version that I’m not sure I could re-create without fully re-writing.

So instead, I asked Maia if I could perform a new dance.  She agreed.

And so I wrote one for Jacob.  It was nerve-wracking!  As it always is, performing in front of someone you give a damn about who’s never seen you dance before.  Especially when the dance was written FOR them.  Buuuuuuut… He liked it.  (*Quietly cheers with those who knew how much I was agonizing over this thing*)

Anyway.  I’ve rambled enough.  Here it is.  It was performed to Sam Hunt’s “Take Your Time”.  (For best viewing, click the little wheel settings thing at the bottom and make sure you’re viewing in 720 or 1080.  It was recorded in 1080.)

*~* Don’t Get Me Wrong, Your Eyes Are So Intimidating… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Amberly II (Jamaica Tone; Makeup Option 04) – Glam Affair
Eyes: Promise Eyes (Apex) – IKON
Hair: Driven To Tears (Dark Reds) – Vanity Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) – Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (Flat) – Slink
Body: Lara Mesh Body v2.1 – Maitreya
Nailcolor Applier: Dark Set (Red) – Nailed It
Scar: Scar Eye (Right; Light) – Soedara
Black Bra&Panties: Lara Lingerie – Maitreya
* These pieces were not a part of the dance, but they were added for modesty, for Youtube and this blog.
Camisk: Provocation (Red) – Haste  @ We ❤ RP
Nosechain: Of the Plains (Gold) – Soedara
Earrings: Hoop Earrings Deluxe (Gold) – Soedara
Collar: Luma’cam Iron Collar – A Master’s Eye  (past FGC release)

Pose: Adriana 2 – KaTink
* This pose was provided in a sponsor gift box for the Mr&Miss Model International Pose Off Challenge.  Thank you so much, Marit!

Pose (in dance): MC003 – agapee
Dance animations were from A&M MOCAP danceworks, 3fx, and Henmations.

Location (of video): My home
Location (of dance): School of Gorean Dance/Dance Gardens of Gor

Blogging Tune: “Take Your Time” – Sam Hunt