The endless of darkness is hovering
The sound of the silence is deafening
Ten billion decibels shattering
People ask me sometimes why i withdraw from people and places that i used to frequent and enjoy being around. Most of the time, my answers to this question are varied, and can sometimes be an over-reaction to a perception i have about a P/person or situation. Today, though, today was different.
Continue reading “Confession .230. I’m Drawn To The Unknown, Where Shadows Hide…”
i can’t breathe, i can’t be
i can’t be what You want me to be
Believe me this one time
When it gets cold in the South, that’s when you know winter is ‘officially’ here. When i, in Southern Alabama, get cold, that means it’s winter. -laughs- And my favorite Papillon market sim just changed over to winter and snow this week as well, so that’s what came as the inspiration for this photo.
Continue reading “Confession .229. Integrity, Faith, and Crocodile Tears…”
P/people wanna talk while i’m not around to hear
Really, T/they don’t know what i’m made of
P/people keep on walkin’ so far away from here
Clearly, i’m the one T/they’re afraid of…
4 days into NaNoWriMo and i’m already behind… i didn’t intend to blog the progress, so don’t get all weird about seeing writing from me all throughout November… lol… but i DID intend to spend November writing.
Though i don’t write novels. i did mean to focus a bit on some poetry, though.
Continue reading “Confession .224. So What If I’m The Monster That’s Been Here All Along…”
Don’t You know i’m no good for You?
i’ve learned to lose, You can’t afford to…
Tore my shirt to stop You bleeding
But nothing ever stops You leaving…
i don’t have the energy to sustain one-sided friendships, relationships, or anything-ships really. i spent too much of my life doing this because i had myself convinced that if i just worked a little bit harder to prove that i was good enough, i could have something great with this person. A great friend. A great lover. A great Dominant. A great whatever. But unfortunately i constantly learn the hard way that no matter how hard you work – with some people, you’re never going to get anything back.
That doesn’t stop me from regularly making a dumbass out of myself, however.
Continue reading “Confession .222. I Could Lie And Say I Like It Like That…”
i still see Your shadows in my room
Can’t take back the love that i gave You
It’s to the point where i love and i hate You
And i cannot change You so i must replace You…
i hadn’t written anything new, poetry-wise, since the Beyond the Rainbow event i read at during BOI Week… i’d started a few things but nothing that i never really finished until last night when i was journaling. So this is another blog post where i’m going to cheat and show you what i journaled. Some of you, while not D/s, may still relate to this… and D/s people, particularly submissives, may relate more deeply.
Continue reading “Confession .221. Who Knew Evil Girls Had The Prettiest Face?”
Is she the one that I couldn’t be for You?
Is she the one?
Mm, I hate that You’re the one that I never get over
That I wanna get closer to…
Today I want to share another one of my poems from the Beyond the Rainbow event that was hosted by Beta Omega Iota back on September 22nd. The event was LGBT-focused, and so I began with my story of my sexuality in mind when I started writing and… well… you can see the turn it took…
Continue reading “Confession .215. I’m Laying In The Shirt You Used To Like…”
There’s something about You
It’s when You get angry, You have me at Your mercy…
And You’re like the shoulder to turn to
Cause certain things mend us when we’re hanging on for dear life
We held on so tight…
Lately I’ve been getting back into freeform poetry written for speaking aloud… and so don’t be surprised if a lot of my posts become sharing some of these with you – like the last post I did, and my post today.
Continue reading “Confession .212. Cause Certain Things Hurt, And You’re My Only Virtue…”