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Confession .231. Is There A Way Out?

Did W/we light too many matches?
Turn O/ourselves into these ashes?
Did W/we throw it all away?
Did W/we throw it all away?

Confession .231.  Is There A Way Out?

I’m usually anti anything having to do with the Youtube algorithm, because of how often it screws over some of my favorite creators, but i DO have to say that the mixes it makes for me based on stuff i’ve listened to and stuff that it thinks sound similar are absolute fire.  (No pun intended…)

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Confession .222. I Could Lie And Say I Like It Like That…

Don’t You know i’m no good for You?
i’ve learned to lose, You can’t afford to…
Tore my shirt to stop You bleeding
But nothing ever stops You leaving…

Confession .222.  I Could Like And Say I Like It Like That...

i don’t have the energy to sustain one-sided friendships, relationships, or anything-ships really.  i spent too much of my life doing this because i had myself convinced that if i just worked a little bit harder to prove that i was good enough, i could have something great with this person.  A great friend.  A great lover.  A great Dominant.  A great whatever.  But unfortunately i constantly learn the hard way that no matter how hard you work – with some people, you’re never going to get anything back.

That doesn’t stop me from regularly making a dumbass out of myself, however.

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Confession .214. Why Am I Doing This To Myself?

Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It’s ok not to be ok!
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising
Just be true to who you are!

Confession .214.  Why Am I Doing This To Myself?

“I forgot what to do to fit the mould.  The more I try, the less it’s working, cause everything inside me screams, ‘No no no no no no no no no!'”

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Confession .97. Every Day You’re Here, I’m Healing…

I’ve been hearing symphonies
Before all I heard was silence
A rhapsody for You and me
And every melody is timeless…

Confession .97.  Every Day You're Here, I'm Healing (Fameshed 5th Anniversary Contest)

Core Values.

This was the topic of a discussion I attended this afternoon, and it definitely made me think.  Granted, I have been at a point where previous relationships have caused me to examine those things I consider to be Core Values… but this discussion made me think about some of this stuff in a different way…

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Confession .90. Density. Mass per unit volume…

And now your song is on repeat
And I’m dancin’ on to your heartbeat
And when you’re gone, I feel incomplete
So if you want the truth…
I just want to be part of your symphony…

Confession .90.  Density.  Mass per unit volume...

“Now I can’t find the key without you.”

I’m having a mini identity crisis… so please forgive the sad nature of this post and the ‘woe is me’ moment that I’m about to have.  You’ve been warned.  I simply didn’t realize how big this regret was in my life until recently, and I kinda need to get it off my chest.

Welcome, sounding board.  I love you for being here.

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Confession .89. I’ve Heard It All Before At Least A Million Times…

I’m so sick of that same old love
That shit, it tears me up…
I’m so sick of that same old love
My body’s had enough…

Confession .89.  I've Heard It All Before At Least A Million Times...

This is another one of those posts that might not make much sense to anyone other than for Whom it is intended.  My apologies for this.

I was going through my notecards folder Saturday morning based on an off-handed comment in a discussion… and I found my petition.  It’s about a week shy of being one year ago.  So that’s what’s been on my mind lately.

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Confession .88. My Life, My Love, My Drive, It Came From… Pain!

I was choking in the crowd, building my rain up in the cloud
Falling like ashes to the ground
Hoping my feelings, they would drown
But they never did, ever lived, ebbing and flowing
Inhibited, Limited… til it broke open and rained down
It rained down like…

Confession .88.  My Life, My Love, My Drive, It Came From... Pain!

I’ve bitten my tongue far too hard for far too long.  And tonight, I attempted to warn someone who was in a position to DO something about this particular individual, in terms of giving them access to a hunting ground of people to prey upon… and they did nothing.

So instead… here is my letter to the Predator’s current flavor of the week… and any who may come after her…

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Confession .24. The Funny Thing Is

Bittersweet in Your mouth…
Can You stomach the doubt?
I wish I could say what I’m feeling…
I’m scared to let these words out

Confession .24.  The Funny Thing Is

“Don’t go to war for me.  I’m not the one that you want me to be.  Don’t call me up at 2am tonight.  It feels so damn good, and I wish you would.  (Just don’t.)  And don’t cry no more for me.  Don’t waste your time convincing me that maybe someday we’ll get it right.  Cause we never could.  I wish that we would.  But we won’t, so just don’t.”

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Confession .14. The Sun Will Always Shine

Look at me, really look at me
Heart of a champion, eyes that have seen
Murder on my street, death on my block
Cops that be more criminal than cop…

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“I see one shot, two shot, three shot, four.  Daddy, I can’t take no more…”

I warned you all on Facebook to start expecting a string of Empire songs from the back half of season 2 to riddle my upcoming blog posts.  I ADORE a vast majority of the music (with the exception of anything Tianna [Serayah] did) from this part of the season, and so it’s definitely enough musical fuel to keep me going for a bit.

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Confession .11. My Body Is Trying To Kill Me

The fire used to burn, and the words used to hurt
But you’re not like us, you are different
I couldn’t see that that was a compliment

Golden

My body is trying to kill me.  However, if you remotely pay attention to my Facebook, then you likely know the mess that’s been going on.  My apologies for not being around much.  I’m slowly sorting through my objects folder with stuff from sponsors, Fantasy Faire, and other craziness.  There’s so much.  I’m so sorry that I’m such a disorganized mess lately.

Let’s recount how my life has gone since the last time I blogged… on the 8th…

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