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Confession .264. I Wish That You Could See The Pain That I’ve Seen…

i’m trying my best, i’m trying my best to be ok
i’m trying my best, but every day it’s so hard
i’m holding my breath
i’m holding my breath til i can say all of the words i want to say
From my heart…

Confession .264.  I Wish That You Could See The Pain That I've Seen...

There isn’t a lot that i get to say about this.  There isn’t a lot that it would even be my place to say.  But i do have a few things…

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Confession .263. Breathing Half A Breath Since You’re Away…

One less spark from a flame
One more heart beat away
i think i lost Your scent after the rain
i’ll find You when O/our paths cross by the gold mines…

Confession .263.  Breathing Half A Breath Since You're Away...

i’m not used to not getting what i want in dance.  And as self-centered as that sounds – let me explain.  i’m not used to competing, as i don’t do so very often anymore.  Most of the time, i’m performing in a theater with a group of like-minded P/people, just for fun and the love of dance (and sure, the tips don’t hurt).  It’s not often i put myself out there to be judged anymore… and yesterday reminded me why.

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Confession .261. Trust Me When I Tell You Not To Touch Me…

Our chemistry’s irrefutable
And i’ll love You til You die…
i’ll come to Your funeral
But i won’t promise to cry…

Confession .261.  Trust Me When I Tell You Not To Touch Me...

i’m avoiding talking about Azuri.  Hate me for it if Y/you want to, but i will talk about it when i’m ready – and i’m just not quite ready yet.

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Confession .260. I’m Here, But I’m In Pieces, And I Don’t Know How To Fix This…

If i’m just somebody that You’re gonna leave
And You don’t feel something when You look at me
You’re holding my heart, mmm, what You say?
Just let me down slowly, i’ll be ok…

Confession .260.  I'm Here, But I'm In Pieces, And I Don't Know How To Fix This...

i’m eternally conflicted.  i want to hate You for what You did to me.  i want to hate You for the lies You told while proclaiming transparency.  i want to hate You for the integrity You lacked while thrusting Yourself forward as an Example in the Community.  i want to hate You for the girl You replaced me with.  i want to hate You for every time You said one thing and did another…

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Confession .259. Butterflies Ruined My Perfect Day…

You need to get Your conscience clean, but just spare me the details please
i wanna keep remembering this Perfect Day
i’m not the type to be left speechless, but i don’t think i can deal with this
That’s all the closure that You’ll give, this Perfect Day…

Confession .259.  Butterflies Ruined My Perfect Day...

Are W/we surprised it’s another Gabbie Hanna song at this point?  No?  Good.  🙂

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