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But He’s Gonna Leave You Cryin’ With Your Heart In The Dirt…

Why, why you gotta be so blind?
Won’t you open up your eyes?
It’s just a matter of time ’til you find
He’s no good, girl
No good for you
You’d better get to gettin’ on your goodbye shoes…

Good Girl

“I bet you I can tell you what you’re thinkin’ about…”

This round of Collabor88 made me /thoroughly/ happy.  Lol.  I tend to style based on my mood, and lately I’m so grr and rawr, as can be evidenced by the tune attached to today’s blog.  Badassery isn’t something I’ve gotten to do very much lately in my styling, at least not in the way I’d want to, like today.  But walking into Collabor88 was like an angry girl’s heaven.  From the tight-fitting, off the shoulder dress down to the little pistol in my stiletto, I feel like the epitome of, “I will end you.”

It’s also not often that I find a ponytail lately that I like, however… color me surprised to find one in a hair designer that I had never heard of before.  Oleander.  Welcome to the craziness that is my blog.  😛

And I just can’t get over how awesome these shoes and jewelry set are.  Gah.  I’m just all over this styling today, I guess.  Lol.

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*~* But He’s Gonna Leave You Cryin’ With Your Heart In The Dirt… *~*

..:: Shape ::.. MINE
..:: Skin ::.. Adrianna Skin (special Rose tone) || AlterEgo || group gift!
..:: Eyes ::.. Hope Eyes (Forest) || IKON
..:: Hair ::.. Taffy (Mono Tones) || Oleander || Collabor88
..:: Body ::.. Lara Body (v3.5) || Maitreya
* Maitreya updated her body recently!  Be sure to grab it!
..:: Hands ::.. Avatar Enhancement Hands (Gesture) || Slink
..:: Feet ::.. Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) || Slink
..:: Fingernails&Rings ::.. My Short Square Nails || Puki
* The version I have is specifically for the Gesture hands, but there are SO many different ones, you’ll likely be able to find one that fits your chosen hand.
..:: Lipstick ::.. Classic Lipstick (Ruby Red; Java Tone) || Pink Fuel
..:: Dress ::.. Femme Fatale (Black) || Pixicat || Collabor88
..:: Heels ::.. Nika (Black) || N-Core || Collabor88
..:: Face Mask ::.. Taffy Metallic Mask (Black) || Oleander || Collabor88
..:: Necklace&Earrings ::.. Mata Hari Mesmer Set || Maxi Gossamer || Collabor88

..:: Pose (photo 1) ::.. Lady of Mystery 06m || Ma Vie || Collabor88
..:: Pose (photo 2) ::.. Lady of Mystery 07 || Ma Vie || Collabor88

..:: Blogging Tune ::.. “Good Girl” – Carrie Underwood

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If You Talk Enough Sense Then You’ll Lose Your Mind…

I’ll use you as a makeshift gauge
Of how much to give and how much to take
I’ll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense then you’ll lose your mind…

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“I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be: right in front of me.  Talk some sense to me.”

I read a book today.  Literally started at page one and finished the end.  Though to be fair, it was only just over 200 pages, and the way the book was setup, most of the pages were not full pages.  Some even only had a couple sentences on it.  “The Lover’s Dictionary” by David Levithan.  You may recognize the name, as he’s the same author who wrote “Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist”, which was adapted into a movie in 2008.  (God, was it that long ago?)  Though he does not specify whether the nameless narrator is himself, making this more “creative non-fiction”, or if it is truly two fictional characters.  The book defines itself as a novel, making me suspect the latter, however, its rawness makes me wonder…

The way the book is set-up… and this is what I loved about it… was words from the dictionary, organized alphabetically.  And each of these words has a memory associated with it.  They are not long things.  Some are longer than others, but the longest was maybe a full front and back page with a few lines on the next page.  So you can see how easy it was to become so fully engrossed in this book that I read it cover-to-cover over a total of about 3 or 4 hours today.

I loved the book so much… that I think I may occasionally pick and choose words/quotes from it and share them with you… while sharing my own stories that relate to such words.  Writing my own ‘cover’ of sorts to this book, gradually.  This is especially useful on days like today, when I have 3 photos to share instead of 2.  *Laughs*

I think I’m going to start with the first one, not only because it’s the first one and a perfect introduction to the book and its style, but because it’s very appropriate to the concept of Second Life and the people we meet here.

aberrant, adj.

“I don’t normally do this kind of thing,” you said.
“Neither do I,” I assured you.
Later, it turned out we had both met people online before, and we had both slept with people on first dates before, and we had both found ourselves falling too fast before.  But we comforted ourselves with what we really meant to say, which was: “I don’t normally feel this good about what I’m doing.”
Measure the hope of that moment, that feeling.
Everything else will be measured against it.

— “The Lover’s Dictionary” by David Levithan

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aberrant, adj.

It doesn’t normally take me a year and a half to sit down and have an extensive conversation with someone that I’m attracted to.  In most situations, I do like conversation and talking… even if it’s not with the /intention/ of getting to know someone… and, in fact, I tend to like general conversation better.  You get to know someone more that way.  When they don’t feel like they’re being interrogated, they’re more natural with you.  More at ease.  More likely to show you the person they are, rather than the person they think you want to see.

But that didn’t even happen.  So why did it take this long with him?

Well first of all, he wasn’t around much.  That helps.  *Laughs*  But mostly?  I was scared.  I still am scared.  Knowing what I know and being where I’ve been, things just don’t tend to end prettily when I’m involved.  And so why should I operate on the assumption that this will be any different?  That thought kept me safe for a year and a half.  Was it fair?  Not in the slightest.  It’s not fair to subject everyone in my future to the mistakes of everyone in my past.  But did it allow me to stay guarded enough to not end up too close?  For a year and a half it did.

Now?  Now all bets are pretty much off.  And even if I’m scared… I still feel safe.  If that makes any sense.  And so everything else moving forward will be measured against that.

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*~* If You Talk Enough Sense Then You’ll Lose Your Mind… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Chrissy Applier for Lelutka Head (Ivory Tone) || Swallow
Eyes: Deadshine Eyes (Wight; Arid Pupil) || IKON || on sale through Oct 31st!
Hair: Jana (Redheads) || Elikatira
Head: Stella Head (v1.3.) || Lelutka
Body: Physique Mesh Body (v2.9) || Slink
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant 1) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Style Icon Set (Josephine) || Nailed It
Eyeliner Applier: from Chrissy Skin Head Applier (Ivory Tone) || Swallow
Lipstick Applier: Winterberries Lips || Zibska
Top & Pants: A Hazy Shade Of Winter (Bag 3) || LaVian & Co || Boho Culture Fair
Heels: Alex Heels || LaVian & Co
Necklace/Bracelet/Ring: Kaya Collection || Lazuri

Bench (photo 3): Park Bench || [we’re CLOSED]

Pose (photo 1): vaki_three || oOo Studios
Pose (photo 2): Inertia 03 || Ma Vie

Location: Hazardous

Blogging Tune: “I Found” – Amber Run

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Blood Thicker Than The Champagne…

Ooo, we’re makin’ moves
You only doin’ what my power lets you do
You see, that money isn’t everybody’s thing
When it come to power, there can only be one king

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“Blood is thicker than water, but b.s. is the thickest.”

It’s amazing how I can blog something and completely believe in it, and then, like, 10 minutes later, completely flip my opinion.  No catalyst, no nothing.  Just be thinking more about it and realize just how damn mad I am about it.

Because you know… I’ve been the supportive friend for a long time.  I’ve smiled and nodded when inside I’ve been SCREAMING, “This is a baaaaaaaaad idea.”  And even when we were together, I told him, “I will 110% support anything you choose to do, except taking her back.  That is the /one/ thing that will make me leave.”  And still, somewhere in his mind, going back to that… mess… was a better option.  A better idea.

And going back, only lead to the most recent break-up with the outing situation.  That I STILL can’t wrap my mind around how he just has seemed to up and manage to forgive her.

I honestly don’t think I can smile and nod anymore.  Because it’s a bad idea.  She’s a bad person.  And I used to think he deserved better.

The very definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and yet expecting different results… and that has been what I’ve observed from this man the entire time I’ve known him.  She comes across so sweet sometimes.  She’s one of those people that’s /really/ good at showing one face to other people, but being a completely different person behind closed doors.

I’m not terribly certain how comfortable I would be conducting an SL relationship with someone who made me break up with my RL partner whom I live with (yeah…. don’t get me started… I think I’ve commented on that before…), rezzed spy equipment in my sim to make sure I’m not back with said RL partner in SL… verbally abused me when I found said spy equipment and ended it with her… outed very personal real life information of mine the next time we broke up, with no regard to me as a person or as the person she supposedly loved… I don’t know how I could possibly forgive and forget all that and just go back into a relationship like nothing happened.

And I have ZERO idea how I could do that and EXPECT IT TO WORK THIS TIME.

I’m just over here beating my head against the desk in frustration like… I used to think he was a good person under bad influence.  And I clung to that idea so damn tight.  When everyone else told me otherwise.  When everyone else tried to make me see things he was doing that had nothing to do with her.  Decisions he was making on his own to betray and screw over his friends.  I refused to see it.  “She makes him this way,” I repeated, like a broken record.

Like a damn mantra that made my pathetic defense of him ok.

No more.  All doing this has ever done has allowed him to keep some sort of power over me, and that sure as hell isn’t healthy for me.  Not in the slightest.  Sometimes listening to other people can be a good thing, and it’s time that I start listening to my family and friends who actually give a damn about my well-being, telling me that this friendship and caring that I have for this man is not a good thing.  My closeness to him is detrimental to me.

So, my apologies that this is super ranty and rawr.  And that it’s a complete flip of yesterday’s blog.  And perhaps it’s even reminiscent of “old Tivi”, spilling tea all over the damn place… but I just… god damn, I’ve held back too much for too long.  And when you personally make a fool out of me by doing the same stupid shit when by now you should KNOW better… hell nah.  I’m done.

I’m out.  I’m not putting you back together when she does something else to ruin you.  Not my circus, not my monkeys.

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*~* Blood Thicker Than The Champagne… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Default Lelutka Stella Head (Artic Tone) || Glam Affair (from Lelutka Head HUD)
Eyes: Deadshine Eyes (Wight; Verdant Pupil) || IKON || on sale through Oct 31st!
Hair: Strange and Unusual (Reds; bow tinted manually) || Exile || Collabor88
Head: Stella Head (v1.2) || Lelutka || **new update! 10/20/15**
* Allows for Expressions; 3 eye options, 4 eyebrow options, 7 mouth options
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.3) || Maitreya
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Natural Rose Black || -{ZOZ}- || **new location! 10/22/15**
Eyeliner Applier: from Chrissy Skin Head Applier (Ivory tone) || Swallow
Lipstick Applier: Winterberries Lips || Zibska || Uber
Dress: Ribbons Undone Dress (Metallics) || Deche || not in store yet, but will be soon!
Boots: Adrianna Boots || Pure Poison || Collabor88
Septum Piercing: Dark Queen Septum Ring (P6) || RealEvil Industries || Seasons Story
Collar: Gothic Choker Victorian Collar (Black) || Zenith || Collabor88
Bracelets: Dark Queen Bracelets || RealEvil Industries || Seasons Story
Rings: Dark Queen Rings || RealEvil Industries || Seasons Story
Tattoo: Imperial Tattoo (Fresh) || Things
* Belleza/Omega/Slink/TMP appliers/standard tattoos included; fresh & faded versions

Pose (photo 1): Heavenly Creatures 09 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 2): Eternal Beauty 6 || NanTra

Location: Fallen Ones Realm

Blogging Tune: Ain’t About the Money – Jussie Smollett & Yazz ft. Empire Cast

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I Like To Believe You Are Thinking Of Me…

I know cause I’ve spent half this morning
Thinking about the t-shirt You sleep in
I should know cause I’d spend all the whole day
Listening to Your message I’m keeping
And never deleting

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So, I’m a derp.

I went to put in an application to potentially blog for one of my favorite stores lately, and when one of the requirements stated that we must have blogged purchased items in the past, I went back looking for links like, “Yeah!  Let’s get one of these posts… oh wait…”

Reasons Why Tivi’s A Fail #1: I regularly buy things with the intention to blog them… and then never do.  They either get saved in an outfit to blog that never is, or they get lost in the black hole that is my inventory.

That said, I knew I had to put together a styling, if for no other reason than to show off the wonderful work of Pixicat.

You know I barely wear shoes unless I have to, but these Gladiator boots?!  LOVE!  And Danity Mynx, one of my fellow MVW Misses passed me this jacket a couple weeks ago, remembering we have roughly the same taste in clothing, and she was RIGHT!  I positively love it and how open it is, while still appropriately covering… places.

This is also a wonderful time to mention that I have a new sponsor to add to the mix… Hush Skins!  I went to the store the other day and picked up one of the newer skins.  I don’t think it’s the newest release, but it was too pretty, I couldn’t pass it up.  What better opportunity to showcase a different skin than this open jacket with short shorts, hmm?

Anyway, I’m a derp, and really need to sort my inventory… like that will ever successfully happen!

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*~* I Like To Believe You Are Thinking Of Me… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Teagan (Sugar Tone; Makeup Option 1) || Hush Skins
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: Fynn (Light Blondes; no headband) || TRUTH Hair
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.3) || Maitreya
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (Mid) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Falling Leaves French || ZOZ || Cosmopolitan
Jacket: Bastet Jacket (White) || Pixicat (Gacha item)
Shorts: Talking Body Shorts || LaVian&Co
Boots: Gladiator Shoes (White) || Pixicat
Earrings & Ring: Kirenna Teardrop Pearl || Maxi Gossamer
Necklace: Dream Orb (Long) || Maxi Gossamer
Bracelet: Eva Luxury Bracelet || Lazuri

Pose (photo 1): Equilibrium 01 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 2): Phenomena 04 || Ma Vie

Location: Private sim

Blogging Tune: “Tee Shirt” – Birdy

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Line Your Lips And Keep Them Closed…

Run and hide your crazy and start acting like a lady
Cause I raised you better
Gotta keep it together even when you fall apart
But this ain’t my mama’s broken heart

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“Leave it to me to be holding the matches when the fire trucks show up and there’s nobody else to blame.”

Honestly?  I just love the lyrics in this song.  It’s had me giggling all last night and today.  That’s really the only reason I’m blogging it.  Lately traveling back and forth between the rental and the new house, I’ve heard it on the radio a lot.  It’s a couple years old, but it’s one of those things I forgot exists until hearing it again.

And it’s great!

Anyway, you’re getting stuff in a bit of a reverse order today.  You’ll get a press release about Rock Your Rack a little bit later today, but I couldn’t resist blogging this when I got it yesterday for one of the fashion shows to take place during the event.  I just fell in love!

Yesterday was quite a long day, so to get this little gem in my inventory somewhere in the middle of all of it, I was able to have something really awesome to wear to the last scheduled meeting/rehearsal for Rock Your Rack last night.  Jamee and the team are working incredibly hard to bring an event that surpasses expectations set by last year’s amazing turnout.

This particular outfit is one of Lavian & Co’s Autumn/Winter ’15/’16 releases for the event, and I tell you what, they NEVER disappoint me in color options.  I’m such an indecisive person, and I love having tons of options to play with, and with this particular outfit… brace yourselves… the HUD gives you 36 (yes, THIRTY-SIX) different colors for the main body of the jacket, 36 colors for the sleeves, 36 colors for the pants, and 36 colors for the belt.  Mix and match to your heart’s content!  I was in heaven for a good few hours playing with all the different colors.  Meanwhile, my partner was in his own personal hell watching me mess with them and not be able to decide what I wanted to wear.  Lol.

The shoes you can see in the picture below are also from Lavian & Co’s Autumn/Winter ’15/’16 line, and come with the same 36 color options to make sure you can perfectly match from head to toe.  The HUD is split into two options… one with silver accents and one with gold accents, which I particular appreciate, because mixing silver and gold is such a rarity for me, it’s nice to be able to tailor these shoes to whatever metal I may be wearing that day.  Today it was Silver.

I don’t wear red that often… which is surprising as it’s Classis’ (Classis IS Rodric, for those that keep asking.  Lol.) favorite color.  But when I do wear red, because it IS his favorite color, I tend to go all out.  The makeup are a few staples from my favorites, Nuuna, Madrid Solo, and Pink Fuel.  I wanted something fierce but not too… busy?  Busy makeup is my weakness.  /I/ think it’s awesome, but then it becomes too much with everything else going on in an outfit.  I’m working on that.

I can always count on Maxi Gossamer for the jewelry I need for stuff like this, and she certainly didn’t disappoint.

The hair is one I forgot I had, from Exile, and I’ve fallen in love all over again.

I can tell you one thing.   This was just one item I received for a runway show for Rock Your Rack, but as a blogger, you can guarantee if given the opportunity I will DEFINITELY be bringing you more of this fierceness from Lavian & Co.  It is fast becoming one of my favorite brands all over again.

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*~* Line Your Lips And Keep Them Closed… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup Option 04) || Glam Affair
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: Collide (Light Blondes) || Exile
Ears: Steking Ears (Season 5) || Mandala
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Bonita Set (Option 12) || Nailed It
* HUDs for Slink, Belleza, and Maitreya; Also mesh nails for non-mesh hands
Top Eyeliner: Bold Liner (Thin; U-Color-It; Tinted Red) || Madrid Solo
Lower Liner: Ere Makeup (Red; manually tinted) || Nuuna
Lipstick: Essential Lipstick (Red; Dark; Matte) || Pink Fuel
Jacket & Pants: Love Me Like You Do || Lavian & Co || Rock Your Rack (Sept 26th)
Heels: Alex Heels || Lavian & Co || Rock Your Rack (Sept 26th)
Necklace: Knotted Shimmer Pearls || Maxi Gossamer
Ring: Lock Ring || SUGAR

Pose (photo 1): Inertia 03 m || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 2): Runway Stand (Both 3) || IsoMotion

Location: Glam Affair & Tableau Vivant Sim

Blogging Tune: “Mama’s Broken Heart” – Miranda Lambert

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Maybe I Don’t Know How To Love, But Maybe I Do…

I wonder, does it blow Your mind
That I’m leaving You far behind
I wonder, does it stop Your heart to know
You’re not my sunshine anymore?

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Blah.  I’m trying a new photo format.  Layout is not my strong suit.  I’m just gonna get that out of the way now.  And when you see the second picture for this, you’ll see what I mean.

*Waits for people to scroll down and see it, since their curiosity was piqued*  Back now?

I’ve also blogged this song before.  Sue me.  Lol.  I found it again and have been playing it on repeat ever since.

Hopefully I’ll figure out the layout thing a bit more in future posts and start to be able to feature smaller details in a better way here soon.  What honestly inspired me to do this when I was so vehemently against it before was the septum ring.  I fell in love with it and it’s just like… from far away you can barely see it.  So I gave in and started highlighting small details.  It’s my first shot.  So be nice.

Why was I so vehemently against it before?  I felt less… pure… to me.  I don’t really know how to explain it.  But if you scroll back into my blogs, most of my pictures are shot out on location in a sim somewhere.  Natural SL surroundings, using windlight, and a bit of photoshop.  It was always my aim to display how products would actually appear in an SL environment, so if I wore a septum piercing and walked around SL, most people wouldn’t be camming in on my face like, “Ooo, let’s see what that looks like!”

But at the same time, it began to occur to me… the people who make this stuff spend just as much time, if not more, on their creations.  Just because the septum piercing is smaller than the dress does not mean that it deserves less attention.  So I was torn.  How do I show proper appreciation to all sorts of designers?

And so I will still likely do a picture or two, like the first picture above, that are more ‘organic’… naturally in SL to portray how everything works.  I won’t green screen or overly photoshop.  And then in a second (or third) picture I will try this sectioning out and highlighting small details thing.  I’ll figure out the best way to lay it out as I go along and try to do more of them, so bear with me while I figure it out in the beginning.

But I’m trying.

If any of you are bloggers who have been doing this sectioning/highlighting for awhile and have pointers, I’d love to hear them.  Anything that helps highlight all of these designers who work so hard on their wonderful designs.

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*~* Maybe I Don’t Know How To Love, But Maybe I Do… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup Option 04) || Glam Affair
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.3) || Maitreya
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: Priya (Light Blondes) || Truth Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Dark Set || Nailed It
Eyeliner: Bold Liner (Thin; U-Color-It) || Madrid Solo
Lipstick: Candid High Gloss (Black) || Madrid Solo
Tattoo: Indrani Tattoo || Things || The Fantasy Collective
Dress: Evie (Black) || Dead Dollz || The Fantasy Collective
* Comes in Maitreya-Compatible Fitted Mesh ONLY
Legwarmers/Flats: Ballerina Warmers (Black) || Reign
Headpiece: Bitter Berries Wreath II (Red) || LODE || The Arcade Gacha
Septum Piercing: Dahlia Septum (Black) || Atooly || The Fantasy Collective
Arm Chains: Esme Arm Chains (Black) || Noodles
Right Ring: Lock Ring || SUGAR
Left Ring: Bitter Berries Ring (Red) || LODE || The Arcade Gacha

Pavilion (photo 1): Rustic Pavilion || Trompe Loeil

Pose (photo 1): Star 04 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 2): Electric 7 || PosESioN

Location: Home

Blogging Tune: “Ugly Heart” – G.R.L.

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Alice Alice, How Do You Sleep At Night?

Alice knows where she’s going
She says in heaven, there’s no loneliness
As she reaches her final day
She still wears a smile
Alice knows where she’s going…

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“Switch to the improved posting experience.”  Stahp.  No.  >.<

Welp, I promised that I’d introduce you all to my second character in Realm of the Forgotten, my Paranoid Schizophrenic halfbreed… so here she is.  *Giggles*  She’s called Fae, but her true name is Faelwen.  She can be bound and controlled by her true name, so it’s really in her best interest that that not get found out by just anyone.

She’s a half-breed between a High Elf and a River Nymph, so she has Water Affinity, the ability to essentially communicate with water and control it with a bit of proficiency.  River Nymphs can breath under water, and also have an ability called Breath of Life, that is a kiss that allows someone to breathe under water for an hour.  However, River Nymphs also have the tendency to fall in love with landwalkers and then accidentally drown them… my suspicion is by using that kiss and then keeping them underwater too long.  *Laughs*  I’ve not had a roleplay like that yet, but it certainly sounded like it would be fun to play.

I wanted her to look mainly like an elf, though now with the introduction of hit points into the races, I’m thoroughly concerned that that will play against me when the app processors are assigning my hit points.  River Nymphs by default have 9, and Elves have 6 (while Humans have 8…?)  So I’m a little afraid that I will end up on the lower end of that spectrum because she appears mostly like the elf in her.  But I won’t know until the app processors get to that.

Oh, yeah… the sim is going through a massive re-roll of our characters because some improvements to the system have been made in preparation for coming out of Beta (super exciting!), so we’re all in the process of re-submitting character applications.  It helps some of us who may see some traits that we should have taken based on how we play their personalities, so I’m thoroughly interested in seeing how this goes.

I’ve not sat down to do my re-rolls yet.  But I know I want to keep Fae mostly the same.  A Paranoid Schizophrenic Prophetess… a Directionally Challenged Dreamwalker?  There are some amazing roleplays to be had with that.  ESPECIALLY since they’ve been working so hard on the Dreamworld skyboxes so we can actually roleplay out dream scenes.  There have already been some pretty interesting roleplays of Fae following her delusions around and ending up in some… strange places.

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Because she is water and magic inclined, this gacha set from Zenith at the newest round of Fantasy Gacha Carnival was about the most perfect thing of the entire round.  Lol.  I managed to get every piece except the shoulders, and after watching far more lindens than I’d like to admit go into the machine, I gave up.  There is also a really neat hat that I wish I could wear with Fae, but her ears are too big and come up too high that they pierce the hat.  However it’s amazingly made and works so well to pull the whole set together.

Aside from being a Prophetess, the profession Fae uses to actually make money is dancing (me?  Play a character that’s a dancer?  NEVER!) so of course I’m always looking for things that fit her character but are still condusive for dancing, and so this outfit just… gah.  I can’t get enough of it.

She has zero weapon skills whatsoever, and when I first made her application, I actually took “Physically Weak” and “Battle Fear” both as weaknesses, however I think the staff on her back could perhaps aid in her attempting to be intimidating, which is something she does try to do when she’s frightened, and it can also aid in spell-casting, when I manage to earn enough character points to start teaching her higher level spells.

I’m looking forward to revamping and tweaking her just a little bit and getting back out to play her again.  She’s such a fun character, both to style, and to play.

Also, because credits in this post may be a little confusing, as most of it is the Zenith set, I’m going to include Zenith’s Gacha Key.  So if you don’t see something specifically credited, it’s likely a part of this set, under the “Outfit” credit.  Sorry if it’s confusing!

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*~* Alice Alice,  How Do You Sleep At Night? *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Immortalia (Femme; Thana Tone) || The Plastik
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.3) || Maitreya
Eyes: Deadshine Eyes (Wight Eyes; Frozen Pupil) || IKON
Hair: Titania (B&W Pack) || little bones || Collabor88
Ears: Sprite Ears || Illusions
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Feet: Mesh Body Feet (v3.3; set to Tip Toe) || Maitreya
Outfit: Snowy Discipline Gacha Set || Zenith || Fantasy Gacha Carnival
Ear Chains: Mystic Chains (fit for Sprite Ears) || Illusions
* Chain Color Options: Bronze, Gold, Copper, Sterling, Antiqued, & Tarnished
Necklace: Dream Keeper Orb || Maxi Gossamer || Collabor88
* Comes in Long & Short, and Silver & Gold in each style
Hand Claws: Hasani Claws || LR Weapons || We ❤ RP
* Color change hud for chain, jewel, and claws included
Light Swirls (photo 1): Energy Armor || Darkestmind
* Color change hud for lights/sound control included

Pose (photo 1): Les Revenants 01 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 2): Miss 10 || Posesion

Location: Realm of the Forgotten
* I’m linking it for those interested in checking it out, but please keep in mind this is an ACTIVE roleplay sim.  This is NOT a photography sim.

Blogging Tune: “Alice” Bianca Ryan feat. Chloe Lukasiak

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Bombs Over Broadway For Fire In The Sky…

My life flashed before my eyes
Razorblade lips and daggers up in your eyes
Baby your love is a crime
Danger by day, but you’re evil in the night…

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“Switch to the improved posting experience!”  God no!  I like my posting experience the way it is, thank you very much.  I’m already more than a little irritated at the two successful hacking attempts into my blog that has now forced me to move back to the WordPress.Com platform and re-syndicate my blog with everyone… again.  I’d like to not have to learn new posting experiences.  Lol.

One step at a time, WordPress.  Please?

Anyway.  This is an entirely new look for me, yeah?  Haha.  Some of you might remember my Facebook post the other day (a week or so ago?) about the Fantasy RP sim that Rodric and I found.  I have two characters there, both on Tivi’s avi, just different appearances and different slots on the roleplay HUD for her information, but this is one of them.  Her true name is Jerijah, which literally means “fear”, and she goes by Ijah, because she can be bonded and controlled by anyone who knows her true name.  She’s a demoness who doesn’t exactly… eat?  She feeds solely on fear.

Though how she harvests said fear, as she is learning, can tend to drive people a little bit insane.  So that’s always fun.

She is the darker side of me.  When I’m angry, upset, stressed out… when I just want to throw things or beat things with sticks (ask Rodric… it happens more than you might think), it’s a nice outlet to go and be able to roleplay a character that is simply, for lack of a better term, a frigid bitch who gives zero fucks about anybody else.  And when she doesn’t feed for an extended period of time?  She becomes extremely violent and psychotic (a racial trait), so that can be fun to play as well.

Plus… do you see her?  The styling opportunities are tremendous!  *Giggles*

Here shortly I plan to show you my other character as well, Faelwen, as soon as I can get some good pictures of her.  I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting this blog for so long.  As you all know, shortly after my last post, I went to housesit for my parents for a week, so I didn’t have access to my computer, nor my internet connection for most of that.  Then when I came home, I was home for less than 24 hours before I ended up with a fever of 104.5 and my mother came and got me to take me back to her house.  I was literally held captive (well, not literally, but it felt like it! lol) until my fever was down and stayed down without being pumped full of antibiotics and ibuprofen, which lasted about 3 days.  When I got home, the storm that rolled through the day before knocked out my internet.  And when I say knocked it out, I don’t mean like, “Oh, it was a signal problem that a tech fixed the next day.”  I mean, literally, something nearby got hit by lightening, and it took 4 days to get someone out to fix it.  Lol.  From there, I’ve simply been attempting to get back into the swing of things, adjust to new medications after finally getting to go back to a real doctor, and was busting my ass on a project… that I am no longer working on.

But we won’t go into that project.  Because the whole situation surrounding that mess makes me angry.

Either way, I’m back and blogging again, and hopefully will introduce you to Faelwen soon!  And I’ll blog my MVW audition outfit with a bit of a recap on how that went and what is going through my head as this journey begins.  And and and… so many post ideas!  So excited.  ❤

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*~* Bombs Over Broadway, For Fire In The Sky… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Immortalia (Femme; Nerio Tone) || The Plastik
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v 3.3) || Maitreya
Eyes: Deadshine Eyes (Black) || IKON
Hair: Stoned Love (All Blacks Pack) || Vanity Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant 1) || Slink
Feet: Mesh Body Feet (v3.3; set to Flat) || Maitreya
Tail: Sci-Fi Demon Tail || CREATiCA
Nail Claws: Lethal Talons (Black; For Slink Elegant 1) || CerberusXing
* Comes with sizes for Maitreya Hands, Slink Elegant 1, TMP Female, and TMP Male
Claw Top/Panties/Skirt: Thorny Succubus Outfit (Black) || Aii
Chain Top/Sash/Belt/Bracelets/Hands: Aphrodite Gacha || Aisling || The Secret Affair
Sandals: Pandora Sandals (Coal) || Fri.day
Halo: Lucifer’s Halo || CerberusXing
Forehead Horns: Devil Female (Black) || Punch
Horns: Hundred Chain Horns (Chained + Black) || CerberusXing
Facial Piercings: Schakal || the HV
Pipe: Dragonclaw Pipe Silver (Ebony) || CerberusXing
Katana: Da-Katana || MPS

Pose (both photos): Rock Chick 09 || Ma Vie

Location: Realm of the Forgotten Fantasy RP Sim
* I’m linking it for those interested in checking it out, but please keep in mind this is an ACTIVE roleplay sim.  This is NOT a photography sim.

Blogging Tune: “Evil In The Night” – Adam Lambert

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My Memory Lacks Initiative…

Yeah, so I’m already dead on the inside
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs
I have learned to love the lie

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Ok, so the lyrics of this song sound incredibly depressing… but the upbeat nature of it and some of the random things they say make me giggle.  So… bear with me.  This is my mood on blog post #3 of the day.

You’ll have to forgive me for being the largest blogger hypocrite ever today… when I made post #1 today and mentioned I didn’t understand how some people could do multiple posts in a day (except for those who sacrifice photo quality), I was kinda intrigued and inspired to try it myself.

I hate it.  I’ll be lucky if I can sit down and do one per day.  Let alone multiple per day, several days in a row.

I just feel like I got NOTHING else done today.  Granted, I’ve been awake since 7pm my time yesterday, so the longer I go, the more I slow down with exhaustion.  But seriously.  I’ve pretty much been standing in my dance pit tabbed into Photoshop, or writing, or looking up SLURLs, or tp’ing to MIC to take pictures, or tp’ing to an event to figure out more information about it… I couldn’t imaging allowing this to consume my entire SL.

There’s so much else that I enjoy doing, I couldn’t sit here all day every day just blogging.  I can do it for short periods of time, like now, to catch up on how far behind I am on everything, post-wise… but I don’t think I could do it regularly.

I’d never get anything else done.

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This is the part where some of you tell me, “Well Tivi if you didn’t yammer on every time you blog, then maybe it wouldn’t take you so long to post the shit and you could get multiple posts done in a day AND do other things.”  But that’s just it…

a website containing a writer’s or group of writers’ own experiences,observations, opinions, etc., and often having images and links to other websites.” — Dictionary.Com

From what I read… the very definition of a blog includes writing.  This has been one of my pet peeves for awhile.  People who literally post nothing but a picture or two… on a white background, no less… and then style credits.  And usually incomplete style credits – another pet peeve I can rant about later.  Like… where is the creativity in that?  Where is the originality in that?  Where is the art in that?

Where is the BLOGGING in a blog like that?

There is someone I know, and I don’t want to use her name just in case people misunderstand and think I’m talking about her negatively (I’m NOT… I love her to death and wish more people would follow her example).  She keeps a blog, on a blogging website… but then she does additional pictures that are not blogged and keeps them solely on her Flickr.  She doesn’t call them her ‘blog’ and her ‘Flickr blog’.  She calls them her ‘blog’ and her ‘photo journal’.  THAT, to me, is accurate.

Much like events are cropping up all over the place and coming out of the woodwork, bloggers seem to be coming out of nowhere as well.  Everyone who can operate the SL camera and start a WordPress or Blogger site and post pictures and sometimes credits is trying to call themselves a blogger now and it’s just… frustrating.

What happened to the days when bloggers actually… you know… BLOGGED?

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*~* My Memory Lacks Initiative… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup 04) || Glam Affair || Summerfest (til July 12th)
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: The Italian Job (Blondes) || Vanity Hair
Ears: Steking Ears (Season 5; set to Elf) || Mandala
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (Mid) || Slink
Nails (hands): Mesh Nails (Slink Elegant) || ZOZ
Nailpolish (hands): Wild Summer 2015 Polish || ZOZ || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)
* Must have ZOZ Mesh Nails for this polish
Nailpolish (feet): Tropical Nails || MUA || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)
Eyeliner: U-Color-It Bold Liner (Thin Set) || Madrid Solo
Outfit: Fleur (Etre Aux Anges Collection) || Lyrical Bizarre
* Includes Corset, Panties, Pearls, Collar, Garter, & Back Piece (called ‘chest piece’)
Jewelry: Hibiscas Falls || Moondance Boutique || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)

Pose (photo 1): Phenomena 04 || Ma Vie
Pose (feature/photo 2): Star 04 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 3): Revealed 02 || Ma Vie

Location: MIC Imagin@rium

Blogging Tune: “LG FUAD” – Motion City Soundtrack

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I Want To See What You’re Willing To Lose…

Where are You taking me?
I can’t be blamed
I want You to want me again

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I have an insane attention to detail 98% of the time, and so I find myself gravitating towards the ring in this picture.  When I was messing with windlight settings for this picture, something seemed off.  Now granted, I’m not used to my hands being all ‘in your face’ in poses, but I wanted to show the jewelry and the nails, so I knew this would be a better pose to try.  However, I noticed when I turned full bright off on the jewelry, it stayed on in the ring.  For those who normally turn full bright on on their jewelry to avoid it dulling in darker windlights, then this will be no problem for you at all.  For those who keep it off, this may present an issue, but the designer is said to have an open door policy for those who may have experienced problems.  I have no doubt she would be willing to aid you, if you find yourself in need of a solution to this problem.

Also, I’m making myself out to be a hypocrite with my last post of, “I don’t understand how people can crank out several posts in a day.”  Though to be fair, I already had this outfit styled.  I was wearing it WHILE writing my last post… because that last outfit was what I’d been wearing for, like, 4 days, before I finally took the pictures 2 days ago and edited them last night.

And also… again… this is my first time experimenting with mesh nails that go on Slink hands.  The good thing about ZOZ is that she makes everything pretty simple to do, even for someone like me who’s never done it before.  She’s got the instructions broken down into individual notecards that are numbered in the order you should follow the steps.  That’s good for people like me who have the tendency to skim when I understand PART of the process but not ALL of it… and then I end up missing an important step and screwing something up.  With ZOZ’s system, I can read the titles of the notecards and either read the step or skip it, depending on if I already know how to do that particular part of the process.

It’s a lot easier than I’m making it sound.  It literally took me 30 seconds.  Lol.

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Also, how CUTE is this purse?!  Each color (yellow, orange, green) default attaches to your hand, but I was totally inspired by the ad photo that features the model holding one in her mouth to re-attach mine and adjust it to match.  These are the things that amuse me at 8 in the morning.  Lol.

I feel like lately most of my outfits are mix and matches of not only designers, but events.  There are SO many events going on right now, and going on all the time anymore, that I rarely find myself in a designer’s mainstore anymore.  I just wait for them to come to events.  The only time I’m in the mainstores would be, like, if they were at an event that I missed, and I want to see if they brought their release back to the store.

I’m still trying to figure out if this is a good thing or a bad thing, from a marketing standpoint.

Oh!  Also!  The jewelry set that features the necklace and ring that you can see also has matching earrings that you cannot see with my mass of hair.  Basically they are studs that match the gemstone in the center of the flower, a couple linked rings to make one of the plumeria flowers dangle.  They are super cute and simple, but do require some editing to get them to match, as they are initially at entirely different rotations when you put them on.  All together, it makes a nice set that offers color change options on the gemstones, plumeria flowers, metal, and pendant on the necklace.  The butterflies (the yellow and white pieces) are not color change.

I am positively IN LOVE with these sandals from Pure Poison that I found at Uber.  I thought I was going to have to choose between the colors, which at the time I was styling something completely different and didn’t know quite what color to go with.  But when I clicked on the circle to buy the color I finally chose, much to my surprise, it was one price for a pack that contains 6 different colors – Black, Brown, Rainbow (named “Colors” in the pack), Pink, Teal (the one I’m wearing), and Green (named “Vert” in the pack).

Overall, I’m just super obsessed with these ZOZ nails, and can’t stop staring at them.  It takes a lot to get me away from Nailed It, Giela Delpaso’s brand… as she has been such a super sweet sponsor of my blog for a long time.  But lately, I find now that I bounce back and forth between Nailed It and ZOZ, and now I’ve discovered Figure.  3 wonderfully talented designers to diversify my nail collection.

Probably the best three I’ve seen in SL to-date.

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*~* I Want To See What You’re Willing To Lose… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup 04) || Glam Affair || Summerfest (til July 12th)
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: Lessons (Hud 01) || Magika Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (Mid) || Slink
Nails (hands): Mesh Nails (Slink Elegant) || ZOZ
Nailpolish (hands): Wild Summer 2015 Polish || ZOZ || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)
* Must have ZOZ Mesh Nails for this polish
Nailpolish (toes): Tropical Nails || MUA || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)
Eyeliner: U-Color-It Bold Liner (Thin Set) || Madrid Solo
Dress: Fiona Dress (Blue) || Heydra
Heels: Katarina Sandals (Teal) || Pure Poison || Uber
* Versions for Slink Mid and Maitreya Medium included
Purse (photo 2): Slice Purse 2 || Lyrical Bizarre || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)
Jewelry Set: Plumeria Bloom || Moondance Boutique || FashionTropic (opens July 7th)

Pose (feature/photo 1): Jewel 01 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 2): La Vampira 08 m || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 3): Becoming 01 || Ma Vie

Location: MIC Imagin@rium

Blogging Tune: “Desire” – Years & Years