Confession .223. You Are Not Alone; I’ve Been Here The Whole Time…

Is A/anybody out there?
Can Y/you take this weight of mine?
Is A/anybody out there?
Can Y/you lead me to the light?

i don’t like talking much about my dad.  i’ve told the story in here of how he died/how i found out about it… and i’ve told a few stories about him generally – especially when it comes to ways i’m like he was… but otherwise, i don’t really like to talk about him.  Tbh, it’s still really hard… 5 years later, things like his birthday still make it feel like it was yesterday.