When the bones are good, the rest don’t matter
Yeah, the paint could peel, the glass could shatter
Let it rain ’cause you and I remain the same…
i had written a completely different blog post for this… like, picked a song, took the photo, wrote the whole post out, had the credits… and then i paused… and changed everything. i’m much happier with what this says now, and i think it’s a much better post for a day like today.
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As i choke on flames, You light up Your torch
Each of my defeats if Your victory
And i walk barefoot on a field of swords
You have Mastered the art of Cruelty…
Ok, after surviving for a week and a half on my “i think this might be a workaround” theory, i can safely say that i think it’s the only workaround i’ve got. i have to keep my avi logged online, even when i’m afk at night asleep, in order to keep the connection open. Buuuut by keeping the connection open, i’m not crashing our or anything. So that tells me the problem was with SL trying to open whatever connection it needed through my ISP – that’s the part that was getting overloaded. It doesn’t do anything nefarious when it’s actually logged in. So basically that just means i have to stay logged in.
But i’m game to do that for awhile if it means being able to take photos and get work done on a consistent basis again. 2 months of that was too much. So please bear with me while i play a bit of catch-up.
Continue reading “Confession .247. Fall On Rosy Thorns For A Taste Of Lethal Bliss…”
Standing on the corner crying, feeling like a fool for trying
i don’t even remember why i wasted all these tears on You
i wish i could erase O/our memory cause You didn’t give a damn about me
Oh, i’m finally through wasting all these tears on You
The other day, Someone from my past popped back up in my life very unexpectedly. And like… as much as i want to altruistically believe in harmless intentions for P/people, this seems to be what bites me in the ass more times than not. There’s just no way that it was all a coincidence. Malicious or not, it was still purposeful. And it’s really gotten me back inside my head a bit further than i like to be. Let me explain…
Continue reading “Confession .246. And You Left Me…”
Yeah, they say when we grow up
You’ll understand when you’re older
Guess i’m still a kid, i don’t know if
if i’ll ever let go of this…
Taking advantage of finally having some up-time from my connection by taking another photo and trying to get this post up. Lol. i promise i’m gonna keep trying to get as much done as i can during the times i can connect. i feel terrible, because “Level 1” Tech Support people can’t really do anything about this issue but make a notation on the account that i called again, but i finally kinda lost my shit when i called yesterday. Poor guy. But maybe when he writes down just how upset i was, the rest of the techs will take the issue seriously.
Anyway… occasionally i find a song that speaks to me in such a way that there aren’t any supplemental words i can provide that i feel will communicate better than the lyrics themselves do. Today is one of those days, so the content of today’s blog post are the lyrics to this song. And i hope Y/you enjoy. ♥
Continue reading “Confession .245. Actions Speak Louder Than Words Do, It’s Pretty Quiet, Isn’t It?”
But i miss me more
i miss my own beat, to my own snare drum
i miss me more
Miss my own sheets in the bed i made up
i forgot i had dreams, i forgot i had wings
Forgot who i was before i ever kissed You
Yeah, i thought i’d miss You
But i miss me more
It’s going on 2 months now that i’ve been having these issues with my ISP. For those that don’t know, i’m having a very strange error where my ISP just doesn’t want to communicate back with SL when it’s logging in, forcing me to get stuck at “Waiting for Region Handshake”. i have tried everything suggested by Google, tech-savvy friends, and 5 separate tech support professionals from my ISP, have had the connection physically looked at, and have had the modem replaced, to no avail. i’ve been saying for 2 months now that it sounds internal on their end, but what do i know, right?
Either way, the only way i can log on during those times that the connection is throwing its temper tantrum is to set up a hotspot on my phone and connect to that (something else that tells me it’s an internal issue with their network, because connecting to another network works just fine… so it’s not my computer, my connection, etc). But of course, doing this requires using data, which is not unlimited. And the connection strength is terrible so i cannot do a lot of the things i would normally do when connected – like take photos. i’m getting so sick of getting the run around ANY TIME i call in to tell them that no, sitting around on their asses doing absolutely nothing does not, in fact, solve my problem… but i’m pretty much at the point now where all i can do is just continue to call them ANY time it goes down for even so much as an hour, let alone the times it’s down for days on end, to let them know that it is, in fact, a problem, and one they need to fix.
Continue reading “Confession .244. I Didn’t Wanna Lose My Friends, But Now It’s Hard To Even Find Them…”
i want You to bring it all on
If You make it all wrong, then i’ll make it all right, yeah
i want You to ruin my life, You to ruin my life, You to ruin my life…
i promise i’m not dead. Though my ISP might be if they keep having DNS issues that result in me needing to use a mobile connection to login and actually get work done. -.-
Anyway, today i was hoping to share a bit of a work-in-progress kinda poem that i’ve been toying around on for the last little bit. It is nowhere near done, i don’t think, but meh… it’s a start.
Continue reading “Confession .243. Come Bring Me Help, Let It Rain Over Me…”
Can you medicate a broken heart?
Make your tragedies a work of art
Medicate a broken heart
Build your walls up just to rip them apart
Is this the way to fix this or is this a quick fix?
i really couldn’t say
Can you medicate, medicate, medicate it away?
i’m going to need some of my favorite female live singers to learn this song ASAP. Gabbie killed it again… and she brought about a HUGELY relevant topic at the moment to me… so that’s what i’m going to talk about.
Continue reading “Confession .242. Make Your Tragedies A Work Of Art…”
Here we stand at the Genesis
As the world is awakening
A new day will start again
Here we stand at the Genesis…
As you may or may not be aware, February 1st, 2019 is National Wear Red Day, as a part of the Go Red For Women campaign supported by the American Heart Association. Heart Disease is the number 1 killer of Women, and today i’m going to talk a little bit about it, and the Go Red For Women Movement. If this isn’t your thing, then feel free to scroll down to the credits and i’ll see you next time. ♥
Continue reading “Confession .241. Are We Holding The Promise Yet To Come?”
Oh, Mr. Man Upstairs
i know You’re tuning in up there, way up there
Would You care to answer my question?
i don’t really know how to summarize or prepare y’all for what is in this post today. So… just… yeah. Sorry.
Continue reading “Confession .240. Cause It’s Hard To Find The Silver Lining In The Bittersweet…”
i wish S/somebody woulda told me
“If you want love, you gon’ have to go through the pain
If you want love, you gon’ have to learn how to change
If you want trust, you gon’ have to give some away…”
i’m obsessed with this hair. Sorry, not sorry, if Y/you see it more often in my SL and in future posts in various configurations.
Continue reading “Confession .239. The Pointless Conversations With The Old Me…”