Confession .328. Look At You All Dressed Up For Someone You Never See…

And i wonder why i tear myself down
To be built back up again
Oh i hope somehow, i’ll wake up young again…

Yesterday was my rez day, so forgive my extra. -grins-

Confession .312. If You Wanna Break These Walls Down, You’re Gonna Get Bruised…

I’m headed straight for the castle
They’ve got the kingdom locked up
And there’s an old man sitting on the throne
That’s saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut

October usually inspires me, however 2020 being the ass-backwards year that it is, i’m finding that it’s taken me 9 days into spooky month to feel inspired to post much of anything…

Confession .311. I Wonder When I Love Me Is Enough…

After all the times i went and messed it up
i wonder when i love me is enough…

As the hurricane ruined my plan for topics inspired by Suicide Awareness Month last month, i’m still going to go over a few things that i wanted to cover then. Tonight, i want to approach something that i still have issues with at times… self-love and being a whole person by myself.

Confession .310. You Can’t Hurt My Feelings, But I Like Pain…

Your honor, i’m a freak bitch, handcuffs, leashes
Switch my wig, make Him feel like He cheating…

So…. i’m not really gonna talk about this song… but rather bring up something that came up last night during a workshop i was leading…

Confession .309. I’ll Be The Light That You Can’t Make…

It’s like when you’re tired, you’re someone else
Don’t speak for some time to find those words inside yourself
Honey don’t worry, I’ll do your laundry, covered in dirt
Darling be patient, it’s easy to break beneath the weight of the earth…

Well i had every intention of blogging more in the month of September, and then a hurricane happened.  So, here we are.

Confession .304. Deep Down, When No One’s Around, You’ve Got A Heart Of Gold – Where Is It Now?

Charlotte, would You still care
If You knew i was hurting?
i miss my Friend, it’s like i’m missing
Parts of me i didn’t know
And now i’ve got to let them go
But i…
i just wanna know if You’re still fine…

i don’t have another way to get to You…

Confession .296. I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games…

i wish i could hurt You back
Love, what would You do if You couldn’t get me back?
You’re the one who’s gonna lose
Something so special, something so real
Tell me, boy, how in the fuck would You feel?
If You couldn’t get me back
That’s what i wish that i could do to You…

i feel like i’ve used this backdrop, like, 3 times in the last year.  Oh, well.  Lol.  In the nature of not smiling and nodding as much when it comes to how i feel about things, and instead being more honest but tempered with respect… let’s try this, shall W/we?

Confession .295. I’m Sorry That I Missed Your Call For The Third Time In A Row…

Don’t get carried away, no
I’ll only let you down
Certain circumstances got me feeling low
Don’t take it personally…

i think it’s time to finally get real about a few things.  If you’re easily triggered by talks of Mental Health, then this likely isn’t the post for you.  Scroll down and grab the credits you want and i’ll see you next time.  For E/everyone else?  Buckle in…

Confession .293. Broken Legs, But I Chase Perfection…

Insidious is blind inception
What’s reality with all these questions?
Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in…

This is one of those days when music speaks louder for me than my own voice… soooooo here you go.

Confession .292. Either Love Is Blind Or Nothing’s There, Be Clear…

i can’t see the forest from the tree
The water from the sea
And i was starting to believe
But it’s a forest full of dreams…

i was starting to believe.  i really was.  But every time i start, i’m reminded exactly why it will never work…