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Confession .226. Venom, I Got That Adrenaline Momentum…

I got a song filled with shit for the strong-willed
When the world gives you a raw deal
Sets you off ’til you scream, “Piss off! Screw you!”
When it talks to you like you don’t belong
Or tells you you’re in the wrong field
When something’s in your mitochondrial
‘Cause it latched on to you…

Confession .226.  Venom, I Got That Adrenaline Momentum...

Here’s your advanced warning that i’m also blogging this tune tomorrow.  It’s been stuck in my head for days now, and i did today’s photo with it in mind, however, i’ve also got something in the works with some Sweet Thing awesomeness that makes me think of this song too… so… you get it twice in a row.  Sorry, not sorry.

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Confession .153. And It Mean Nothing Til You Let It…

And You say I drink and I smoke and I talk too much
But I know You lied when You said that You just had enough and save Yourself
So hear me out…

Confession .153.  And It Means Nothing Til You Let It...

“And You said need me to let this go, but it’s who I am.  Or am I just losing it?  Cause You said ‘Jump’ and I went first, but falling’s always been my downfall.”

This song.  Ugh.  It just punches me right in the feels.  So… I’m sorry if it punches you in the feels too.  *Nods lots*  Then again, most things that Eden and The Eden Project does know exactly how to drag you through a rollercoaster of emotions that you didn’t know you were going to feel for those 3 to 5 minutes.

It’s fucking tragically beautiful.

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Confession .15. I Am Not My Father

It’s hard to love the devil, He’s a hater
A dirty hypocrite, manipulator
Made a mama lose her kids
Made her go away for seventeen years
Not allowed to shed a tear
Growing up with all your phobic fears…

Like My Daddy

“But people tell me I’m just like my Daddy…”

“Ok then, Mitch…”

My mother says it to me because she knows it hurts.  3 words.  You wouldn’t think three words could hurt that much, especially when they seem so… ordinary.  But she does it on purpose.  Half the time she does it as a joke, when I’m being a smartass, because she knows it will make me laugh.

But the other times?

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Confession .13. I’m Not Strong Enough

I’ve been sleepless at night
Cause I don’t know how I feel
I’ve been waiting on you
Just to say something real

Let It All Go

“Who says truth is beauty after all?”

Confession #13.  And rather than being an ‘unlucky’ confession of sorts, I figured I’d be no less real than I’ve been with the rest of them.  I’m not strong enough.  I’m not.

Even in all this armor, I’m not strong enough.

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Confession .12. I’m Obsessed With Music

Mmm, what’d You say?
Mm, that You only meant well?  Well of course You did…
Mmm, what’d You say?
Mm, that it’s all for the best?  Of course it is!

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“Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.  Sick, sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.  Speak no feeling, no I don’t believe you.  You don’t care a bit.  You don’t care a bit.”

I was OBSESSED with Imogen Heap in high school, and I’ve recently re-discovered how much I love her.  So don’t mind my random-ass song today.  -laughs-

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If You Were A Poet And I Was A Faultless Muse…

Yeah, one million bullets could come my way
But I want you to know that I’d take a million, babe
How many would you take?

One Million Bullets 2

“I got a feeling the war has been won here.”

Wow.  You look very, very, very hot.

That’s what I like to hear about an outfit like this!  LOL.  I have what could probably be deemed as an ‘unhealthy obsession’ with anything and everything that Aisling makes, from the first gacha machine I ever played… which was their Game of Thrones Lady of Highgarden set at a Secret Affair event a couple years ago.  Been hooked ever since.

And this round of Fantasy Gacha Carnival was no exception.

Though, to be perfectly honest, it made me super giddy to get that compliment from the person I got it from, if I’m gonna be honest.  And after all, where am I the most honest?  Here in this damn blog.  LOL.

I’m pretty sure I made an ass out of myself when I first met this person.  Like… I’m pretty sure I was in a super weird mood that day/that point in my life… and I IMed Him acting like the epitome of a “pushy sub” and He HAD to have thought I was insane.  Like… certifiably psycho.  Or, at the very least, a nympho.  Lmao.  But despite what I am pretty sure was a quite tragically embarrassing beginning, that Man did not mute and derender me.  Lolol.  He actually kept speaking to me.

And I totally developed a thing for Him, like a little girl who has NO clue what she’s doing.  Lol.

But come ON… if half of you heard this Man’s voice just once… and then listened to the content of what He speaks… You would fully understand how feelings happened.

But the thing about Him, is that feelings happened.. but rather than trying to act on them, or explore them, I was content with just occupying a space in His life at all.  And that space just happened to grow to be like a little sister to Him.  Which is fine in the long run.  In the end, it’s kept us in each others’ lives for YEARS.

Though of course, there’s always a but…

On days like today when I’m watching everyone around me pair off, I do muse occasionally on the “what if”s in life… and this Man frequents them more than I’d like to admit.  Lol.

So, yeah… all this to say, that compliment made me grin like an idiot, and blush like a little girl.

Why are feelings so stupid?

One Million Bullets

*~* If You Were A Poet And I Was A Faultless Muse… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Dionne Skin (Soleil) || AlterEgo
*This is one of Toxxic’s gorgeous new Gen Two skins that were released in store on Feb 1st.  You should definitely go check it out. All new faces, and a completely redone body.
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Forest) || IKON
Hair: Haley (Naturals) || Lovey Dovey
* This was released at BlackOut this year, but it should hopefully be in the mainstore soon.
Body: Lara Body (v3.4) || Maitreya
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Gesture) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (Flat) || Slink
Lipstick: Classic Lipstick (Ruby Red; Java) || Pink Fuel
Top & Sleeves: Phryne Set || Common Gacha Item || Aisling || FGC Feb 2016
Panties & Skirt: Phryne Set || Common Gacha Item || Aisling || FGC Feb 2016
Collar/Cape/Backpiece: Phyrne Set || RARE Gacha Item || Aisling || FGC Feb 2016
Headpiece: Phyrne Set || RARE Gacha Item || Aisling || FGC Feb 2016

Pose (photo 1): Eternal Beauty 6 || Nantra
Pose (photo 2): Yeriak 1 || Posesion

Location: Miyako Jima Island

Blogging Tune: “One Million Bullets” – Sia

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Alice Alice, How Do You Sleep At Night?

Alice knows where she’s going
She says in heaven, there’s no loneliness
As she reaches her final day
She still wears a smile
Alice knows where she’s going…

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“Switch to the improved posting experience.”  Stahp.  No.  >.<

Welp, I promised that I’d introduce you all to my second character in Realm of the Forgotten, my Paranoid Schizophrenic halfbreed… so here she is.  *Giggles*  She’s called Fae, but her true name is Faelwen.  She can be bound and controlled by her true name, so it’s really in her best interest that that not get found out by just anyone.

She’s a half-breed between a High Elf and a River Nymph, so she has Water Affinity, the ability to essentially communicate with water and control it with a bit of proficiency.  River Nymphs can breath under water, and also have an ability called Breath of Life, that is a kiss that allows someone to breathe under water for an hour.  However, River Nymphs also have the tendency to fall in love with landwalkers and then accidentally drown them… my suspicion is by using that kiss and then keeping them underwater too long.  *Laughs*  I’ve not had a roleplay like that yet, but it certainly sounded like it would be fun to play.

I wanted her to look mainly like an elf, though now with the introduction of hit points into the races, I’m thoroughly concerned that that will play against me when the app processors are assigning my hit points.  River Nymphs by default have 9, and Elves have 6 (while Humans have 8…?)  So I’m a little afraid that I will end up on the lower end of that spectrum because she appears mostly like the elf in her.  But I won’t know until the app processors get to that.

Oh, yeah… the sim is going through a massive re-roll of our characters because some improvements to the system have been made in preparation for coming out of Beta (super exciting!), so we’re all in the process of re-submitting character applications.  It helps some of us who may see some traits that we should have taken based on how we play their personalities, so I’m thoroughly interested in seeing how this goes.

I’ve not sat down to do my re-rolls yet.  But I know I want to keep Fae mostly the same.  A Paranoid Schizophrenic Prophetess… a Directionally Challenged Dreamwalker?  There are some amazing roleplays to be had with that.  ESPECIALLY since they’ve been working so hard on the Dreamworld skyboxes so we can actually roleplay out dream scenes.  There have already been some pretty interesting roleplays of Fae following her delusions around and ending up in some… strange places.

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Because she is water and magic inclined, this gacha set from Zenith at the newest round of Fantasy Gacha Carnival was about the most perfect thing of the entire round.  Lol.  I managed to get every piece except the shoulders, and after watching far more lindens than I’d like to admit go into the machine, I gave up.  There is also a really neat hat that I wish I could wear with Fae, but her ears are too big and come up too high that they pierce the hat.  However it’s amazingly made and works so well to pull the whole set together.

Aside from being a Prophetess, the profession Fae uses to actually make money is dancing (me?  Play a character that’s a dancer?  NEVER!) so of course I’m always looking for things that fit her character but are still condusive for dancing, and so this outfit just… gah.  I can’t get enough of it.

She has zero weapon skills whatsoever, and when I first made her application, I actually took “Physically Weak” and “Battle Fear” both as weaknesses, however I think the staff on her back could perhaps aid in her attempting to be intimidating, which is something she does try to do when she’s frightened, and it can also aid in spell-casting, when I manage to earn enough character points to start teaching her higher level spells.

I’m looking forward to revamping and tweaking her just a little bit and getting back out to play her again.  She’s such a fun character, both to style, and to play.

Also, because credits in this post may be a little confusing, as most of it is the Zenith set, I’m going to include Zenith’s Gacha Key.  So if you don’t see something specifically credited, it’s likely a part of this set, under the “Outfit” credit.  Sorry if it’s confusing!

=Zenith=High Elf Priest - Pic

*~* Alice Alice,  How Do You Sleep At Night? *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Immortalia (Femme; Thana Tone) || The Plastik
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.3) || Maitreya
Eyes: Deadshine Eyes (Wight Eyes; Frozen Pupil) || IKON
Hair: Titania (B&W Pack) || little bones || Collabor88
Ears: Sprite Ears || Illusions
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Feet: Mesh Body Feet (v3.3; set to Tip Toe) || Maitreya
Outfit: Snowy Discipline Gacha Set || Zenith || Fantasy Gacha Carnival
Ear Chains: Mystic Chains (fit for Sprite Ears) || Illusions
* Chain Color Options: Bronze, Gold, Copper, Sterling, Antiqued, & Tarnished
Necklace: Dream Keeper Orb || Maxi Gossamer || Collabor88
* Comes in Long & Short, and Silver & Gold in each style
Hand Claws: Hasani Claws || LR Weapons || We ❤ RP
* Color change hud for chain, jewel, and claws included
Light Swirls (photo 1): Energy Armor || Darkestmind
* Color change hud for lights/sound control included

Pose (photo 1): Les Revenants 01 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 2): Miss 10 || Posesion

Location: Realm of the Forgotten
* I’m linking it for those interested in checking it out, but please keep in mind this is an ACTIVE roleplay sim.  This is NOT a photography sim.

Blogging Tune: “Alice” Bianca Ryan feat. Chloe Lukasiak