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Confession .207. Turns Out I’m Your Favorite Thing To Discuss…

Nothing that you say is mildly true
Spit deceit through shift smiles
Two faces you’ve had for awhile
You act like such a fucking child…

Confession .207.  Turns Out I'm Your Favorite Thing To Discuss...

Today, I’d like to have a fun little chat about gaslighting – so please consider this your trigger warning for subjects like self-harm, psychological/mental abuse, and other similar themes.  If you click off for this reason, then see you next time!  ♥

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Confession .96. I Wanna Be Like Most Girls…

Most girls are smart and strong and beautiful
Most girls word hard, go far, we are unstoppable
Most girls, our fight to make every day
No two are the same
I wanna be like, I wanna be like most girls…

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“You know, some days you feel so good in your own skin, but it’s ok if you wanna change the body that you came in.  Cause you look greatest when you feel like a damn queen!  We’re all just playing a game, in a way, tryna win that life.”

I love this song.  Like… love it.  Lately, the songs I’ve been blogging, I’ve heard on the radio (I know, right?  That still exists?!) in the car on my way home from work.  The station I listen to prides itself on playing what ‘YOU want to hear’, so every day at 5pm local time, they do a “Test Drive At 5” with a new song, then they ask on Twitter for thumbs up and thumbs down.

I think this song was, like, 81% positive feedback.

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Confession .93. If I Showed You, Would You Run Away?

Do I even need you?  Should I leave you?
Do I gotta be you just to please you?
Do I say I’m all good when I bleed you through my heart?
Quit tearing mine apart…

Confession .93.  If I Showed You, Would You Run Away?

I think people sometimes forget how relevant music can be if you take a moment to listen to the lyrics.  They’re not just fancy words written just because they rhyme.  Someone wrote them for a reason.  They speak someone’s heart… they tell someone’s story.

To demonstrate this, the rest of this post is going to be the lyrics of this blogging tune, but written out in ‘paragraph’ form, rather than line by line.

Music is someone’s life.  And sometimes, it can be so closely related to our own, that some of use better communicate via music than we do our own words.

Try to keep this in mind when dealing with people.

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Confession .74. Adronitis

All that’s real is faded
Like a car into the night…
Like a painkiller, I take it
And I watch the world ignite.

Confession .74.  Adronitis

Adronitis

n. frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone—spending the first few weeks chatting in their psychological entryway, with each subsequent conversation like entering a different anteroom, each a little closer to the center of the house—wishing instead that you could start there and work your way out, exchanging your deepest secrets first, before easing into casualness, until you’ve built up enough mystery over the years to ask them where they’re from, and what they do for a living.

Yep.  So.  This is me right now… heh.

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Confession .73. I May Have A New Obsession…

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Hi, my name is Tivi, and I’m obsessed with my Bento mesh heads.

As most of you know, or can see from previous blog posts, I’m in love with my Lelutka Simone Bento head.  But prior to the integration of Bento into Firestorm, I was absolutely enamored with my Catwa Tumble animated and Catwa Kori static heads.  So when I heard about an SL subscription box focused solely around Catwa heads, can you guess what I said?

YES, PLEASE!

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Confession .72. I Told You To Be Balanced, And I Told You To Be Kind

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
And who will fall far behind?

Confession .72.  I Told You To Be Balanced, And I Told You To Be Kind

When I was younger, I loved all of the Disney movies, though Mulan was my favorite.  Cause… badass woman doing what men think she can’t do simply because she wasn’t born with a penis?  Yes, please.

However, as I grew older, I grew to have a bit of a love/hate relationship with Cinderella.

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They Say Heavy Is The Head That Wears A Crown…

Daddy raised a soldier, whether he knew it or not
He supplied the pain, I put it into music, made it hot
Strong back, strong shoulders, cause I’m holding up a lot
I’m underneath this bitch, supporting
Same time, I’m at the top…

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“Everything’s on me.  Everybody wondering what it’s gonna be.  Is [she] gonna fail, is [she] gonna succeed?  Everybody keep watching, and watch carefully… I’ma show the world I’m strong!  And I’m holding up a lot.  I’m underneath this bitch supporting… same time, I’m at the top.”

Everything Jussie Smollett has done for Empire this season has been incredibly powerful.  So pardon my obsession in my blog posts since the new season started.  *Laughs*  Those that know anything about me know how drawn I am to powerful lyrics.

Especially when I relate to them in one way or another.

I feel like… I’m being stared at a lot lately.  Is that weird?  Is that narcissistic?  Maybe.  And it could even be paranoid and no one really cares.  LOL.  But it’s like… they warn you when you tackle a large, widely-known competition like Miss Virtual World that people are going to start watching you.  And while I’m sure those Top 13 (that are working their ASSES off to get perfect for the finale this weekend, by the way.  Break legs, ladies!) are being watched far more closely… I can’t help but feel like I’m being stared at.

“You didn’t make the cut.  Now what?”

Like they’re waiting for me to blow up into something despite that… or to fade back into irrelevance where many people would like to assume I came from.

The fact of the matter is… I dunno what y’all are waiting for, but if you could stop staring at me, that would be great.  I mean, come on.  I’ve been doing this for three years now.  And while that’s FAR less of a period of time than a lot of the great models that I look up to and aspire to be like, that still quite a substantial period of my Second Life to be devoting to something.  I’ve worked my ass off in those three years.  I have not sat on the shoulders of a Mentor (even if I’ve had a few mentors in my time) and expected them to hand me everything I was given.  I worked… and I worked hard… and I fought… and pushed through… and the ONLY reason that I got to where I did was because of all that work.

I guess I’m the exception that proves the rule about “who you know” being the only thing that matters.  I know people, sure… we all do.  But do I ask them to tip scales in my favor?  No.  Unlike some, I happen to live by a code of ethics…. regardless of whether or not some of you see those ethics on a daily basis, they are there.  You just aren’t looking hard enough.  You’re too busy watching the ground in front of me waiting for something for me to trip over and fall on my face.

Newsflash: I worked hard to get to where I was.  And nothing will change that.  I’m still here, I’m not going any-damn-where, and I’m going to continue to work just as hard as I always have.

So you can stop staring.  I’m still Tivi.  And I’m still going to put my blood, sweat, and tears into everything I do.

I suppose the real question is… what are YOU going to do?  Step it up and work your ass off too?  Or try to continue to rely on those broad shoulders you sit on, and eventually fade into the irrelevance you are attempting to drag me into?

Your choice, I suppose.  However, the first step is coming down off that high horse of yours… and careful, darling… that first step is a bitch.

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*~* They Say Heavy Is The Head That Wears The Crown… *~*

Shape: MINE – new!
*Special thanks to Toxxic Rhiannyr of Alterego, as one of her shapes was used as the base for tweaking!
Skin: Layla Skin (Caramel Tone) || Alterego
Eyes: Odyssey Eyes (Forest) || IKON
Hair: Murder of Crows (Chapter 1 Earth HUD) || Spellbound || Enchantment
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.4) || Maitreya
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant 1) || Slink
Undereye Shadow: Makeup Addon Lower Shadow II (Tintable) || Alterego
Nailcolor Applier: Art Nails (Boho Eyes) || Nylon Outfitters || Collabor88
Top: Fall-In-Line (Vest Only; Dark Grey) || Cynful || Collabor88
* Fall-In-Line is a 3-in-1 top, featuring a cropped turtleneck (not pictured) and a vest, that can each be worn separately, or both together to create a layered look.  Standard sizes, Maitreya Lara, Belleza Freya/Isis/Venus, and Slink Physique/Hourglass sizes included for both.
Pants/Boots: Lavigne Snowboarders Pak (Black) || Vinyl || GEN-Neutral
* Solid (pictured) & “Block” pattern versions included, chooseable via HUD.  Standard sizes, Maitreya Lara, Belleza Freya/Isis/Venus, and Slink Physique/Hourglass sizes included.  Boots are optional and come in corresponding sizes, color-change via HUD.
Septum Piercing: Dark Queen Septum Ring (P6) || RealEvil Industries
Tattoo: Bohemian (FULL 14008; 50% Opacity) || Letis Tattoo
* 100%/75%/50%/35% Opacity Options.  Tattoo layers, Belleza, Lola’s Tango, Maitreya Lara, Omega, Slink Physique (can also be used for just hands), & TMP appliers included.

Pose (photo 1): Mortius 5 || Posesion Poses
Pose (photo 2): Statue 7 || Posesion Poses

Location: Pandora Box of Dreams

Blogging Tune: “Heavy” – Jussie Smollett ft. Empire Cast