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Confession .76. I Will Follow Where This Takes Me

Oh nothing’s sure, but surely as we stand
I promise I will stay the same
And I’ve never seen forever
But I know we’ll remain

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In a world uncertain…

Nothing is actually for sure.  Death and taxes, so they tell me, but even those things have their sliding scale.  There is nothing really certain to cling to in those tumultuous moments that toss you back and forth, leaving you dizzy and unsure which way is the surface… and all you need is a breath of air.

Sometimes things change so quickly.

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I Told You Time And Time Again…

I’m so ready for war
Got my soldiers and all
You should call on the Lord
Cause you’re taking the fall

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“We uncontrollable.  You tamer than a dog on leash.”

The third runway challenge for Miss Virtual World, fourth challenge overall, was this past Saturday.  And this song has been stuck in my head since the Empire episode it played on, on Wednesday.  I’d already mostly, if not completely, styled by then, but still for whatever reason this song served as my inspiration, and spoke perfectly to the attitude with which I styled.

Unfortunately, for me, this challenge was my last this year.  My journey has been cut short.  And yes, to me it feels like “cutting short”, but I’ll reflect on that, and everything else when it’s less raw.

The theme behind this runway challenge was “Fash and Furious”, based around the Fast and Furious series… HOWEVER, while we were asked to look to the series for inspiration, the briefing went DEEPER than that when our challenge was described to us.  We were told to “make being illegal look fashionable.”

That was the object.  The object was not to recreate the movie.  So I did not draw inspiration from particular characters, or a particular movie from the franchise.  Instead, I took my inspiration from the overall style briefing, the objective we were given, and the series as a whole.  With that, this is what I got.

My backstory for this particular challenge may have been a bit intense for some of the judges… but hey, it’s me.  Take it or leave it.  (For those who might be confused because of how broken up my backstory was for this challenge… not a long rambling paragraph about meaningless things that have nothing to do with the inspiration behind the outfit… everything from here to the end is the backstory that was read out on Saturday.  As I said earlier, I will blog at a later time about an overall reflection of my journey this year, at a time when the feeling is less heartbreaking and less raw.  Love you guys.)

“You don’t know me.  But you’re about to.”

There is nothing like the thrill of an adrenaline rush, no matter what it is that causes it.  Speed, tension, danger… anything that causes your blood to flow and your heart to race.  It makes you feel alive!  That is what Tivi screams when she takes this runway this morning… and it is a vital part of understanding who she is.

“Thrill me!” comes the cry of the bold red on black.

“Excite me!” call the spikes that litter the top and heels.

“To bore me is to lose me!” chime the chains across her shoulders.

Everything about her riddling a harmonious discord… a chaotic sort of stillness… a loud silence.

“I am a woman!  Not a fairytale princess!  I have emotions, opinions, a temper, a very loud voice, and one hell of a right hook!”  A smirk will pull across blood-stained lips.

“You don’t know me.  But you’re about to.”

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*~* I Told You Time And Time Again… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup Option 04) || Glam Affair
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.3) || Maitreya
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: Airwaves II (light blondes) || Vanity Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant 1) || Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Half Glitter Fall 2015 (Red) || -{ZOZ}- || from Rock Your Rack
Eyeliner: London Liner (Black Eyeliner Only) || Madrid Solo
Lipstick: Essential Lipsticks (Red; Matte; Dark) || Pink Fuel
Lip Shine: Grace Bonus Lip Gloss Only || Madrid Solo
Bustier: Rosalie (Black) || Maci || from Rock Your Rack
Jacket: Opium Jacket, Sleeves, & Skirt || Eshi Otawara
Pants: Abandon Pants (Grey) || Dead Dollz
Heels: Geeky Heels (w/ Color Hud) || Ducknipple
Back Pearl Necklace: Pearl Necklace (Back Only) || EMO-tions
Shoulder/Chest Chain: Scarlett Body Chain (Black) || Noodles
Forearm Cuffs: Yseult Cuffs || Zibska

Pose (photo 1): Runway I 6 – Level 4 || Vitalis Animatum
Pose (photo 2): Runway I 5 – Level 4 || Vitalis Animatum

Blogging Tune: “Dynasty” – Yazz & Timbaland ft. Empire Cast

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Maybe I Don’t Know How To Love, But Maybe I Do…

I wonder, does it blow Your mind
That I’m leaving You far behind
I wonder, does it stop Your heart to know
You’re not my sunshine anymore?

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Blah.  I’m trying a new photo format.  Layout is not my strong suit.  I’m just gonna get that out of the way now.  And when you see the second picture for this, you’ll see what I mean.

*Waits for people to scroll down and see it, since their curiosity was piqued*  Back now?

I’ve also blogged this song before.  Sue me.  Lol.  I found it again and have been playing it on repeat ever since.

Hopefully I’ll figure out the layout thing a bit more in future posts and start to be able to feature smaller details in a better way here soon.  What honestly inspired me to do this when I was so vehemently against it before was the septum ring.  I fell in love with it and it’s just like… from far away you can barely see it.  So I gave in and started highlighting small details.  It’s my first shot.  So be nice.

Why was I so vehemently against it before?  I felt less… pure… to me.  I don’t really know how to explain it.  But if you scroll back into my blogs, most of my pictures are shot out on location in a sim somewhere.  Natural SL surroundings, using windlight, and a bit of photoshop.  It was always my aim to display how products would actually appear in an SL environment, so if I wore a septum piercing and walked around SL, most people wouldn’t be camming in on my face like, “Ooo, let’s see what that looks like!”

But at the same time, it began to occur to me… the people who make this stuff spend just as much time, if not more, on their creations.  Just because the septum piercing is smaller than the dress does not mean that it deserves less attention.  So I was torn.  How do I show proper appreciation to all sorts of designers?

And so I will still likely do a picture or two, like the first picture above, that are more ‘organic’… naturally in SL to portray how everything works.  I won’t green screen or overly photoshop.  And then in a second (or third) picture I will try this sectioning out and highlighting small details thing.  I’ll figure out the best way to lay it out as I go along and try to do more of them, so bear with me while I figure it out in the beginning.

But I’m trying.

If any of you are bloggers who have been doing this sectioning/highlighting for awhile and have pointers, I’d love to hear them.  Anything that helps highlight all of these designers who work so hard on their wonderful designs.

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*~* Maybe I Don’t Know How To Love, But Maybe I Do… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Yolandi (Artic Tone; Makeup Option 04) || Glam Affair
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.3) || Maitreya
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) || IKON
Hair: Priya (Light Blondes) || Truth Hair
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) || Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Dark Set || Nailed It
Eyeliner: Bold Liner (Thin; U-Color-It) || Madrid Solo
Lipstick: Candid High Gloss (Black) || Madrid Solo
Tattoo: Indrani Tattoo || Things || The Fantasy Collective
Dress: Evie (Black) || Dead Dollz || The Fantasy Collective
* Comes in Maitreya-Compatible Fitted Mesh ONLY
Legwarmers/Flats: Ballerina Warmers (Black) || Reign
Headpiece: Bitter Berries Wreath II (Red) || LODE || The Arcade Gacha
Septum Piercing: Dahlia Septum (Black) || Atooly || The Fantasy Collective
Arm Chains: Esme Arm Chains (Black) || Noodles
Right Ring: Lock Ring || SUGAR
Left Ring: Bitter Berries Ring (Red) || LODE || The Arcade Gacha

Pavilion (photo 1): Rustic Pavilion || Trompe Loeil

Pose (photo 1): Star 04 || Ma Vie
Pose (photo 2): Electric 7 || PosESioN

Location: Home

Blogging Tune: “Ugly Heart” – G.R.L.

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We Can Only Get Brighter…

I’m standin’ in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin’ fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light

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It’s been a crazy ride.  And I have the migraine from hell today, so please forgive me if I’m neither deep nor witty today.  Lol.

Basically I’m super far behind blogging on Penumbra Spring/Summer ’15 Fashion Week stuff, and so I’m trying to sort through everything in my inventory that I’ve been sent or pulled out of the group.  Be prepared to be inundated with awesome things you can continue to get over the next few days.  Be sure to check out the official schedule in one of my recent posts – HERE – to get to the remaining shows for this wonderful event.

Last night I showed you a lingerie set from Supernatural, and I have to admit this was a new store for me.  I hadn’t heard of it before until I was setting up my stall on the Fashion Week sim (Zanze Provocateur is there as a designer as well!  So I’ve been busy!)  and Supernatural is the stall next to me.

When I finished setting up my beachy/boardwalk style stall, I admittedly cammed next door to see what she was working on and saw her ad pictures.  I love taking pieces and throwing them together in ways that may not utilize the whole boxed outfit, but work together for my particular style of dress and also show the work of the designer.  When I saw the Judy outfit, I knew I was going to do that with this vest.  The tunic-style vest originally goes over a bra and panties, but I grabbed it and off I went to create my outfit.

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I admittedly was wearing a pair of my own pants from one of my releases at Penumbra Fashion Week, from my Torrance outfit.  Harem-style pants just looked comfy to me, and with the headache I’ve got, comfy was a must.  At least for pants.

And yessssterday while I was having a conversation with the amazing Kiddo Oh of Dead Dollz, I got tossed a folder.  Of course, getting pretties from Kiddo is always awesome, so my reaction was, “Ooo what’s this?”  And it’s the top she just released at The Fantasy Collective that opened today.

Next stop was Cosmetic fair, cause I’m a slacker… it’s been open for the last 5 days and I just now got there.  Nuuna is one of my favorite avant garde type makeup artists, and when I found that she was selling Lelutka appliers for designs I hadn’t seen yet, it led me back to her store to pick up this new eye makeup that I just LOVE.  Another new designer to me, Moon Amore, was the source of this pretty killer hand tattoo.  To finish everything off, cause I felt naked without a bracelet or shoes or something, I grabbed some of my favorite rings from Formanails and some new anklets from Promagic, an awesome go-to store for most of my footwear needs, since she caters to more than just shoes… and I hate wearing actual shoes 90% of the time.

And thus, here we go.  In my true semi-boho nature, this hair from Truth of course screamed, “You must buy me!”  And the bindi in the center of my forehead was an awesome little find at Cosmetic fair from Kibitz.

I’m sorta super excited with how this all came out… and I like wearing it around.

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*~* We Can Only Get Brighter… *~*

Shape: MINE
Skin: Alice (Lovely Day; Artic Tone; Makeup Option 1) – Glam Affair
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Fjord) – IKON
Hair: Celeste (Ligh Blondes) – Truth Hair  **recent release**
Body: Lara Mesh Body (current version 3.3) – Maitreya
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) – Slink
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) – Slink
Nailcolor Applier: Monochrome Set – Nailed It
Eye Makeup: Mya Makeup (Grey) – Nuuna
Teeth: Open Mouth Pro (w/ Piercing) – PXL Creations
Hand Tattoo: 90’s Hand Tattoo – Moon Amore  @ Cosmetic Fair
Top: Missandei Top (Black) – Dead Dollz  @ The Fantasy Collective
Vest: Judy Tunic – Supernatural  @ Penumbra S/S ’15 FW
Pants: Torrance Pants (Black) – Zanze Provocateur  @ Penumbra S/S ’15 FW
Forehead Bindi: Bindi #12 – Kibitz  @ Cosmetic Fair
Nosering: Cihuapilli Nose Piercing – Soedara
Hand Rings: Accessoires Unisex Elegant (Black) – Formanails
Anklets: Girly Anklets (Black) – Promagic

Pose (photo 1): various from Morphine (now closed)
Pose (photo 2): various from Agapee
Pose (photo 3): various from oOo Studio

Location: Salt Water

Blogging Tune: “Beautiful Pain” – Eminem ft. Sia

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Home, Let Me Come Home…

I’ll follow you into the park
Through the jungle, through the dark
Girl, I’ve never loved one like you…

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More new things!  *Giggles*

In an effort to catch up on some stuff that came through my inventory while I was dealing with holiday stuff and moving, there may be times when I (attempt to) blog multiple outfits in the same post.  Some of you find this to be bad practice, or whatever… but at this point, I’d prefer to make sure that more creations get shown, as opposed to focusing on individual posts for EVERYTHING which will simply burn me out.  Especially at this stage in the game where I’m playing catch-up.

Two of my favourite gowns in my inventory at the moment both come from Kiddo Oh of Dead Dollz, and they were both designed for Miss Virtual World candidates this year.  The first gown I want to show you below, is “Andalusia”, made for Miss Virtual Spain 2015.  The second gown you’ll see is “Tanguera”, made for Miss Virtual Argentina 2015.

Both of these gowns dwell in a color palette of black and red, and both are unique in their own way.  Both are extremely well-crafted, so of COURSE I fell in love with them immediately.

(And then I’ve got Jacob in the background saying, “I really like this dress.  Well, the bottom half.”  LOL.)

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It was interesting to sit on the sidelines and watch some friends I’d grown close to take their MVW journey without me.  After some incredibly negative experiences in Colour of Couture, I just couldn’t see subjecting myself to MVW when they are now run by the same people.  So I smiled and nodded, wished my CoC sisters, and some other friends, the best of luck on their individual journeys, and watched as the challenges unfolded before my eyes, on Flickr and Facebook.

From a spectator perspective, there were a lot of interesting challenges this year.  Some stylists hit them head-on and went all out with it… and I loved seeing some things that they came up with.  Jamee Sandalwood was one of my favourites to watch, as was Trinity Aironaut.  And Eleseren with the swimwear challenge blew me away.  Then again, I LOVE color, so I was totally biased.  LOL.

Either way, it was fun to just sit back and watch.  Will I ever try to do MVW?  I don’t know. At this point, from where I’m sitting right now, in this moment, no.  I never will.  Because I don’t have enough personal belief in capabilities of the leadership to instill a sense of individuality and creativity among the contestants, as opposed to conformity to some ideal that squashes everything they are as a PERSON.  I can’t get behind that.  I’m sorry, but I can’t.

For right now, I’m just lingering back.  I’m doing Mr&Miss Model International because it compounds on a few ideas that I’ve been looking for in fashion from the very beginning: creativity and individuality are EMBRACED… and FEEDBACK is offered after every challenge.  That is the thing that makes me hold up my pom-poms and scream “Whoo MMI!”  I’ve been dying for feedback for years.  As a dancer it’s crucial.  As a model, I feel it is too.  How do you know how to better prepare for the next casting after you don’t succeed in the last one, if no one gives you CONSTRUCTIVE criticism?

Anyway.  I’m just having fun being me.  And that’s all that matters right now.  I don’t need MVW.

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*~* Home, Let Me Come Home… *~*

— The Basics (the same for both gowns) —

Shape: MINE
Skin: Amberly II (Jamaica Tone; Makeup Option 02) – Glam Affair
Eyes: Promise Eyes (Apex) – IKON
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant) – Slink
Body: Lara Mesh Body v2.1 – Maitreya
Nailcolor Applier: Dark Set (Red) – Nailed It
Eyeshadow: lilumi Eye Shadow (Ignition) – Lovely Disarray
Liptick: Glossy Pout Lipstick (Red; Deep Tone) – Pink Fuel
Earrings: Hoops Earrings Deluxe (Gold) – Soedara
Nosechain: Of The Plains (Gold) – Soedara

— Gown 1 [photo 2] —

Hair: Snowdrift (Redheads) – Tableau Vivant  (former C88 release)
Gown: Andalusia Gown – Dead Dollz
Collar: Junon Collar (Gold) – Skjern Designs

— Gown 2 [photos 1 & 3] —

Hair: Diavolo (Dark Reds) – Vanity Hair
Feet: Avatar Enhancement Feet (High) – Slink
Gown: Tanguera Gown – Dead Dollz
Ribbon (feet): Ballet Lace – Alterego

Poses: various from Agapee

Location: My home

Blogging Tune: “Home” – Glee Cast