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Confession .303. I Had No Warning About Who You Are…

You will never, ever touch me again
Won’t see your alligator tears
Cause, no, i’ve had enough of them…

Confession .303.  I Had No Warning About Who You Are...

Today i want to talk about the feeling of betrayal – a topic i realize won’t be E/everyone’s cup of tea.  So if this isn’t something you’re into, then feel free to scroll down for the pretties and i’ll see you at some point with something more lighthearted.

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Confession .299. If You See The Shell That’s Left Of Me, Could You Spare {Her} A Little Kindness?

Am i broken?  Am i flawed?
Do i deserve a shred of worth
Or am i just another fake, fucked up lost cause?
Am i human or am i something else?
Cause i’m so scared and there’s No One there
To save me from the nightmare that i call myself…

Confession .299.  If You See The Shell That's Left Of Me, Could You Spare {Her} A Little Kindness?

Here’s the scariest part of me – or one of them, anyway.  You won’t know i’m upset or that something is wrong… until it’s REALLY wrong.

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Confession .296. I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games…

i wish i could hurt You back
Love, what would You do if You couldn’t get me back?
You’re the one who’s gonna lose
Something so special, something so real
Tell me, boy, how in the fuck would You feel?
If You couldn’t get me back
That’s what i wish that i could do to You…

Confession .296.  I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games...

i feel like i’ve used this backdrop, like, 3 times in the last year.  Oh, well.  Lol.  In the nature of not smiling and nodding as much when it comes to how i feel about things, and instead being more honest but tempered with respect… let’s try this, shall W/we?

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Confession .295. I’m Sorry That I Missed Your Call For The Third Time In A Row…

Don’t get carried away, no
I’ll only let you down
Certain circumstances got me feeling low
Don’t take it personally…

Confession .295.  I'm Sorry That I Missed Your Call For The Third Time In A Row...

i think it’s time to finally get real about a few things.  If you’re easily triggered by talks of Mental Health, then this likely isn’t the post for you.  Scroll down and grab the credits you want and i’ll see you next time.  For E/everyone else?  Buckle in…

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Confession .291. You Should Know It’s All Or Nothing To Be With Me…

Don’t You look at me, don’t You even think about it, Baby
If You ain’t… if You ain’t… ready for it all…

Confession .291.  You Should Know It's All Or Nothing To Be With Me...

Independence is often a front in submission – at least it is for me.  Yes, i’m an independent-ass woman generally, however… if i’m shoving that independence in Your face as a Dominant, then there’s often something deeper that is unfulfilled.  Let me explain…

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Confession .289. Are You Able To See Me?

i stand in front of You, with a few more steps between U/us
i stand in front of You, with a few more steps between U/us
i stand in front of You, with a few more steps between U/us
You tried to see the unknown…

Confession .289.  Are You Able To See Me?

Here’s a hint… the answer is no, Y/you can’t see me.  N/nobody can, it seems.  Lately, anyway.

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Confession .285. And If I’m Being Honest, It Might’ve Been A Nightmare…

And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don’t wanna let anybody know
‘Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don’t wanna let ’em down

Confession .285.  And If I'm Being Honest, It Might've Been A Nightmare...

Today has been… interesting.  Have you ever had one of those moments where you kinda hope someone will come clean to you about something that may or may not be no longer your business… but at one point it very much was?  Does that even make any sense?  Let me explain…

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Confession .284. Will You Still Love Me When I’m No Longer Young And Beautiful?

I’ve seen the world, lit it up as my stage now
Channeling angels in the new age now
Hot summer days, rock ‘n’ roll, the way you play for me at your show
And all the ways I got to know your pretty face and electric soul…

Confession .284.  Will You Still Love Me When I'm No Longer Young And Beautiful?

Today’s post is going to be a little bit heavy.  If that’s not Y/your thing, then i understand.  Just wanted to give Y/you a heads up before Y/you click for more.  🙂

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Confession .282. Art Is Not What I Create; What I Create Is Chaos…

You’re dripping like a saturated sunrise
You’re spilling like an overflowing sink
You’re ripped at every edge but You’re a masterpiece
And now You’re tearing through the pages and the ink…

Confession .282.  Art Is Not What I Create; What I Create Is Chaos...

Today i read a letter out loud that i wrote to my “Future Self” about a month ago now.  While a month might not seem like a long time to most of Y/you, especially to re-read a ‘future self’ type letter… it’s been a month of recovery, rebuilding, and growth.  i found it very effective, and so i’ve decided i’m going to share it with Y/you.  Be gentle.  These are pieces of me that i’m entrusting Y/you with…

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