Posted in Life, New Releases

Confession .360. Alpha Playing Beta Not To Upset Your Ego…

Tried to tell me that I’m nothing
And to know my worth
Well, ‘Big Bad Daddy’, I’m a wolf, yeah…

Confession .360.  Alpha Playing Beta Not To Upset Your Ego...

So… this happened. Lol. Honestly, it’s all Lelutka and Heaux’s fault – I couldn’t possibly see the soft boy skin that Heaux released for the new male Lelutka heads and NOT try it out… then when I tried it, I fell in love, and welp… here we are.

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Posted in Anthem, Events, Life, New Releases

Confession .339. Life Was A Willow And It Bent Right To Your Wind…

The more that You say, the less I know
Wherever you stray I follow
I’m begging for You to take my hand
Wreck my plans
That’s my Man…

Confession .339.  Life Was A Willow And It Bent Right To Your Wind...

They tell you that you won’t find what you’re looking for until you stop looking. And this was no more true for me than in the last four months or so. Learning about myself through learning about You, learning about working together instead of against each other. Learning about what love actually looks like.

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Posted in Events, Level Event, Life, New Releases

Confession .326. Everything Is Never As It Seems When I Fall Asleep…

i’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly…

Confession .326.  Everything Is Never As It Seems When I Fall Asleep...

i don’t really have a lot to talk about today, and i’m not sure if that’s because i’m too tired to chat, or if i genuinely don’t have anything to say. i haven’t been sleeping well (thanks, Bipolar), so i suppose i can chat a bit more candidly about that…

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Posted in Collabor88, Events, Life, New Releases

Confession .303. I Had No Warning About Who You Are…

You will never, ever touch me again
Won’t see your alligator tears
Cause, no, i’ve had enough of them…

Confession .303.  I Had No Warning About Who You Are...

Today i want to talk about the feeling of betrayal – a topic i realize won’t be E/everyone’s cup of tea.  So if this isn’t something you’re into, then feel free to scroll down for the pretties and i’ll see you at some point with something more lighthearted.

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Posted in Events, Life, New Releases, Uber

Confession .302. It’s Evolving, Just Backwards…

Confession .302.  It's Evolving, Just Backwards...

i took this title from the title of a Pewdiepie video.  i didn’t actually watch the video, so i’m not sure of the context, but the title just seemed to speak to everything that was on my heart right now.  Consider this a disclaimer.  i suppose i should also add a trigger warning… but i’m not sure what for?  If you don’t like being reminded of your privilege, i guess?

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Posted in Events, Life, New Releases, ROMP, The Liaison Collaborative

Confession .301. So I Took A Breath And Made A Wish And Blew Them All Away…

When I was a little girl, my mama said to me
“What’s your favorite flower, darling? I’ll get you the seed”
I said “Dandelion, Dandelion, ” that one’s so pretty
She said, “Child, that one’s not a flower, that one’s just a weed”

Confession .301.  So I Took A Breath And Made A Wish And Blew Them All Away...

Oh, what a same.  Now it don’t look the same.  Guess it don’t look the same.  Oh, what a shame.

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Posted in Equal10, Events, FaMeshed, Life, New Releases

Confession .300. If I Played Along To Ease The Friction, Would You Still Tell Me That I’m Terrible?

Is this what you came for, you paid for?
To watch somebody burn and crumble and stumble
Then fumble all my words and let you twist them
And listen to all the ugly things you tell me i am
i’m tryin’ so hard to understand how i’m the
Master Manipulator who couldn’t fool anyone
Monster Reciprocator, shot no bullets from my gun
The Drama Queen who never seems to get applause from anyone
i won’t be who you say i am…

Confession .300.  If I Played Along To Ease The Friction, Would You Still Tell Me That I'm Terrible?

Of course i’m returning with a Gabbie Hanna song – it’d feel inappropriate if i didn’t.  Lol.  Her new EP, Bad Karma came out on the day my blogging ‘vacation’ ended, and given that the first time i heard the song “Special”, i immediately sat down, choreographed a whole routine and built a set to perform it next Sunday at Moonshadow, this felt like the appropriate song to return to.

So i’m back… kinda.

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Posted in Collabor88, Events, Life, New Releases

Confession .299. If You See The Shell That’s Left Of Me, Could You Spare {Her} A Little Kindness?

Am i broken?  Am i flawed?
Do i deserve a shred of worth
Or am i just another fake, fucked up lost cause?
Am i human or am i something else?
Cause i’m so scared and there’s No One there
To save me from the nightmare that i call myself…

Confession .299.  If You See The Shell That's Left Of Me, Could You Spare {Her} A Little Kindness?

Here’s the scariest part of me – or one of them, anyway.  You won’t know i’m upset or that something is wrong… until it’s REALLY wrong.

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Posted in Events, Life, New Releases, Powder Pack (February)

Confession .75. I May Never Be What You Assume…

And I’ll spend my life penning my song, my song
And the verses I write will speak for me
Good girls don’t make history…

Confession .75.  I May Never Be What You Assume...

I have a blogger bucket list.  Most bloggers do, whether they admit to it or not.

My list has changed and evolved over time… things crossed off that I’ve managed to accomplish, things added as I discover new things that I’ve fallen in love with, things removed as attitudes prove unprofessional and more complicated than they’re worth.  It’s an ever-evolving process.

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