And i need You to know that W/we’re falling so fast
W/we’re falling like the stars – falling in love
And i’m not scared to say those words, with You i’m safe
W/we’re falling like the stars – falling in love…
You mayyyy already know what this is… but… hear me out anyway. *giggles*
Continue reading “Confession .256. I Swear To God When I Come Home, I’ll Never Let Go…”
They say, “Don’t get bitter, get better,”
i’m working on switchin them letters
But tell God i’ma need a whole lot of hope keeping it together
i’m smilin in everyone’s face
i’m cryin whenever they leave the room
They don’t know the battle i face, they don’t understand what i’m going through…
No matter how many times i start listening to this song, intend to blog with it, and then change at the last minute to something else based on where the rambling writing of the post goes, i always seem to come back… these lyrics always seem to resonate deeply with me…
In honor of May being Mental Health Awareness Month, let’s have a chat…
Continue reading “Confession .254. Just Hold On And I’ll Find You…”
So pull me up from down below
Cause i’m underneath the undertow
Come dry me off and hold me close
i need You now, i need You most
So… Avril Lavigne released new music. That was a thing that happened in the last couple of weeks. After HOW many years? Right, let’s all revel in that for a moment… especially since this song is… amazing.
W/we’re not going to mention how much i relate to these lyrics right now… nope… nope…
Continue reading “Confession .220. I Can’t Swim The Ocean Like This Forever, And I Can’t Breathe…”
Even though all of my fears
And all of my doubts
Are outside my door, ready for war
Right here and now…
As a part of my training in the D/s sim i consider my home Community, i’ve been picking up journaling again. In the past, i didn’t find it effective – which is probably ironic, given that i’ve been writing here in this blog for five years with each post, so clearly there’s something to be said for the therapeutic quality of stream-of-consciousness type writing – but with the way it’s been panning out for the last couple of weeks, it’s been helpful, giving me a place to just… be… and write down my thoughts, unfiltered.
i want to share with Y/you all today a portion of my journal entry from yesterday… Some of you might be able to guess what sparked this particular line of thought – though i’m not going to mention it or talk about it specifically here. It simply served as inspiration, and the last thing i want to do is come across as ‘salty’ or ‘bitter’ about it. ♥
Continue reading “Confession .219. And They’re Marching In…”
Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It’s ok not to be ok!
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising
Just be true to who you are!
“I forgot what to do to fit the mould. The more I try, the less it’s working, cause everything inside me screams, ‘No no no no no no no no no!'”
Continue reading “Confession .214. Why Am I Doing This To Myself?”
Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way, yeah
But You never go away
So I guess I gotta stay now…
This is going to be one of those random rambling blog posts that don’t really make sense to anyone not inside my own head… so, if you read this and don’t understand, don’t worry… you may not be meant to.
Continue reading “Confession .210. Tear Me To Pieces, Skin And Bone…”
AM radio, not much to do
Used monsters as an excuse to lie awake
Now the monsters are the ones that I have to face
No band-aids for the growing pains…
Normally, it’s not my style to name here. However, today, I’m talking about my own relationship… and anyone who knew me at any point in the last year would know who that is, so let’s just save ourselves the trouble, shall we?
Continue reading “Confession .195. Can’t Find Pieces Of My Peace Of Mind…”
So what are you after, don’t You like my colours?
I’m confident, and I know it scares ya, scares ya
Bye bye, good riddance, the rules have been re-written
I’m better without You, and that’s the truth
Not part of Your agenda…
Well then. That was an unexpected hiatus. My bad. But hello again!
Continue reading “Confession .193. You’re Just Shooting Blanks…”
I don’t really like anybody
So don’t tell me I’m like anybody else
You put it back together, don’t let it fall apart again
People change with the weather…
I’m still getting back to getting comfortable exploring different style genres and things a little outside the “casual potato/barefooted hippie” vibe my SL normally consists of when I walk around not taking pictures. Bear with me. 🙂
Continue reading “Confession .183. Looks Exactly The Way It Did Inside My Head When I Dreamed About It…”
All the shine of a thousand spotlights
All the stars that we steal from the night sky
Will never be enough
Never be enough…
“I’m trying to hold my breath… let it stay this way… can’t let this moment end…”
I’m struggling. And the only thing I know to do when I’m struggling is to write about it… so you’re getting a bit of a glimpse into my head and my heart at the moment. If you don’t want that, then feel free to scroll to the end for credits and I’ll see you next time. ♥
To the rest of you, hi…
Continue reading “Confession .175. These Hands Could Hold The World, But It’ll Never Be Enough…”