To everyone who’s hit their limit, it’s not over yet
Even when you think you’re finished, it’s not over yet
Keep on fighting
Out of the dark, into the light, it’s not over
Hope is rising
Never give in, never give up, it’s not over!
“Game, set, match. Time to put it in your past. Feel the winter leavin’, it’s redemption season! Long live the young at heart. Cheers to a brand new start! We’re revived and breathin’ to live a life of freedom!”
Lyric overload today. But I positively adore this song lately. One of my ‘favorites of the moment’, religious song or not. I would heavily encourage you to scroll down to the bottom of this post at some point where the video is embedded and listen to the whole thing at least once.
However, I’m not responsible if it ends up stuck in your head, or on repeat for the next week. ❤
Anyway… this song very much speaks to me on a profound level, in regards to both RL and SL. It’s no secret to most of you who care enough to have noticed that I’ve not logged in much over the last month. Most of that was health-related, I will admit, and I’m doing much better… and have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow to make sure everything is smoothed over and I’m recovering how I should be.
However, health issues aside, some of it… I just hit that limit where I was either stressed out or frustrated with everything I tried to do… and none of it was inspiring anymore. Logging in began to feel more like a chore than it did a pleasure. And one thing Gen has always told me from pretty much the day we started talking more often was that things in your life should be there to enhance it in a positive way… and that’s the only reason they should be there. It got to the point to where SL and the people in it were no longer enhancing my life in a positive way… but in fact, they were becoming detrimental to me, and hurtful most of all.
Slowly I’ve creeped back in here in the last week or so… testing the waters and seeing if it feels ok to stay again. The act of logging in no longer throws me into a panic attack or makes me angry… so that’s a step in the right direction. But I’d be lying if I said there weren’t some people in particular that set off that side of me when I think about, look at, or speak to them. And right now, my body physically cannot handle the stress of the anxiety that these particular people induce. So if you ever see me randomly pop offline unexpectedly, especially mid-conversation, I promise I’m not trying to be a bitch… it’s that I’ve been triggered and have probably ducked out to hide for a bit to keep myself in check, for the sake of my health.
If you /are/ one of these people, trust me, you either already know, or I’m sure you’ll figure it out eventually.
But in my last week or so in I’ve just been trying to focus on a couple of things that I used to find passion and enjoyment in… and this seems to be working. I sent in a casting for one of my favorite stores, that allowed me to style something completely fun and funky with a lot of bright colors from one of the most amazing palettes I saw come out of the Autumn collections in SL this year. And I’ve been poking around with an event idea. And if you read the last post, then you know that I went out and impulse-bought a L$2,500 gift card to Truth Hair to giveaway to those of you who are here and read me and have just generally been there and not been a nuisance to the grid… lol. Because I appreciate you all, and I actually was able this year to finally do something to show that.
And then today, I ran across a post on Facebook and I HAD to run IMMEDIATELY and pick up this gown. One of the other things that’s kept me calm lately is just dressing however I damn well please. For about a week I rocked a look that I classified to Gen as “hobo chic” with my tied top, jeans, beanie hair, complete with high heels. (Trekking through the snow as we explored a few sims, mind you. Beastmode Princess.) But if you know me at all, you know I occasionally get a wild inspiration that says I MUST look pretty today, even if I’m not going to a formal any time soon. And that is where this gown is so amazing.
I am in love. So in love. And if I didn’t have to change clothes for a commitment tomorrow, then I would likely be in this gown for a week. LOL.
Merry Christmas, if I don’t see you before then, aside from to annouce the winner of the gift card giveaway. Which, btw, ends TOMORROW NIGHT at 10pm SLT. Click HERE for the post with terms and instructions and the link to Rafflecopter giveaway page where I’m running it.
*~* This Goes Out To The Heaviest Heart… *~*
Skin: Layla Skin (Caramel Tone) || Alterego
Eyes: Hope Eyes (Forest) || IKON
Hair: Patricia (Dark Greys) || enVOGUE || **recent release**
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.4) || Maitreya
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Casual) || Slink
Freckles: Odd Beauty Freckles || Besom (formerly Milk)
Lipstick: Essential Lipstick Red (Matte; Deep) || Pink Fuel
Gown: Golden Leaf (Red) || Kelini Haute Couture || **recent release**
Jewelry Set: Lasya Complete Set || Lazuri
* Comes with Forehead Jewel, Earrings, Necklace, Upper Arm Bracelets, Bracelets, Anklets, Belly Jewel, Rings
Pose (photo 1): Cute 5 Mirror || Vitalis Animatum || **recent release**
Pose (photo 2): Aphrodita 7 || Posesion Poses
Backdrop: 1 Derb Assehbe. Marrakech || Common Gacha Item || Rowne || Dec. Arcade
Blogging Tune: “It’s Not Over Yet” – For King and Country