Confession .335. Can You Look Her In The Face And Promise Her That Things Will Change?

What are you gonna tell her when she’s wrong?
Will you just shrug and say it’s been that way all along?
What are you gonna tell her when she figures out
That all this time you built her up just so the world could let her down?
Yeah, what do you tell her?
What are you gonna tell her?

Some of you have never heard this song, and after the events of today i’m going to make you cry like i have been all day. My apologies in advance. Today, in light of what is going on in Washington DC, i felt like i needed one of my “just the lyrics” posts… because these lyrics ring so true for the state of our country right now, unfortunately.

Honestly the only reason i’m posting is because i wanted to lose myself in Photoshop for awhile. Hence this picture is different than what i usually do. There are no words i can say that will describe my feelings of heartbreak like the lyrics of this song.

Confession .329. Fa La La La La, La La, La La…

See the blazing Yule before us
Strike the harp and join the chorus
Follow me in merry measure
While i tell of Yuletide treasure

i held off long enough – it’s 10 days into December, 2 weeks til Christmas eve, here’s my first Christmas-y picture of the season.

Confession .324. All The Wrong Words Unite In Your Head…

You’re weak on the surface, You speak when you’re nervous
And all the wrong words unite in your head
You can’t stand the space in your bed
So you shake in the darkness, You break like an artist
And all your big plans are small the next day
You can’t wait to throw them away…

When i saw this backdrop from FoxCity coming out for Uber (that opens today!), i knew the ‘thot topic’ storefront was perfect for the topic that i wanted to discuss today: slut shaming.

Confession .323. When I’m Like This, You’re The One I Trust…

i been tryna call, i been on my own for long enough
Maybe You can show me how to love, maybe
i’m going through withdrawals, You don’t even have to do too much
You can turn me on with just a touch, Baby…

All i want to do lately is take pictures, dance, and talk to a small handful of P/people. Which is unfortunate, because i have a lot of P/people on my list in-world and most of them i just… want to ignore. So… consider this an apology if i’m an asshole lately.

Confession .300. If I Played Along To Ease The Friction, Would You Still Tell Me That I’m Terrible?

Is this what you came for, you paid for?
To watch somebody burn and crumble and stumble
Then fumble all my words and let you twist them
And listen to all the ugly things you tell me i am
i’m tryin’ so hard to understand how i’m the
Master Manipulator who couldn’t fool anyone
Monster Reciprocator, shot no bullets from my gun
The Drama Queen who never seems to get applause from anyone
i won’t be who you say i am…

Of course i’m returning with a Gabbie Hanna song – it’d feel inappropriate if i didn’t.  Lol.  Her new EP, Bad Karma came out on the day my blogging ‘vacation’ ended, and given that the first time i heard the song “Special”, i immediately sat down, choreographed a whole routine and built a set to perform it next Sunday at Moonshadow, this felt like the appropriate song to return to.

So i’m back… kinda.

Confession .297. I Just Want Relief From My Stress…

Some days, I don’t want to see or
Have a bunch of people to impress
I just want relief from my stress
Yeah, I just want relief from my stress…

i had a completely different post planned tonight… so forgive the photo not matching this subject matter at all.  But i’m just… beyond floored tonight.

Confession .296. I Gave You Ride Or Die And You Gave Me Games…

i wish i could hurt You back
Love, what would You do if You couldn’t get me back?
You’re the one who’s gonna lose
Something so special, something so real
Tell me, boy, how in the fuck would You feel?
If You couldn’t get me back
That’s what i wish that i could do to You…

i feel like i’ve used this backdrop, like, 3 times in the last year.  Oh, well.  Lol.  In the nature of not smiling and nodding as much when it comes to how i feel about things, and instead being more honest but tempered with respect… let’s try this, shall W/we?

Confession .281. Would You Believe Me If I Told You I’ve Got Flaws?

Cause i don’t know the perfect road to go down
But i know i’m trying my best
i’m trying my best to be ok
i’m trying my best, but every day it’s so hard…

Oh god, i collabed!  And i hope it doesn’t look terrible!  My inspiration is always so sporadic that i’m scared to collab with other P/people that i won’t do T/them justice or their avatars or their looks or pretty much just any bit of anxiety that can stop me from doing something cool, will.  But this year i signed up for the BVN Collab Challenge and while finding these two collab buddies was a bit unconventional, we did it!

Confession .280. Just Let It Be, I’m In Recovery…

i know you wanna say you’re sorry
But i’ve already heard that story
i don’t wanna be your fool anymore…
Can’t you see i’m in recovery?

Today i decided to do something a little bit different – record a video!  i dunno… why not?  E/everyone else and their brother in SL does this, and i just couldn’t find a good photo i liked until AFTER i recorded the video in order to do a traditional blog post, so i figured i’d give this a shot.  This is my first video, so play nice.  Scroll to the bottom beneath the credits where the ‘blogging tune’ is for the video!  Flickr wanted to be rude.

Confession .278. Or Is It None Of My Business?

But she’s new and she’s beautiful
You’ve never been in a fight
Yeah, it’s awfully perfect now
But You just know deep inside
She’s not me…

If You’re going to just shit on O/our memory, then why do You still have sentimental things about me in Your profile?