For all of the light that i shut out
For all of the innocent things that i doubt
For all of the bruises i’ve caused and the tears
For all of the things that i’ve done all these years…
Tonight while i ironically led a Red Flags workshop in-world geared towards submissives and what they should look for in their interactions with Dominants, i realized just how terrible i am at taking my own advice and practicing what i preach sometimes. Let me explain…
Continue reading “Confession .288. Grace Is Just Weakness, Or So I’ve Been Told…”
You’re dripping like a saturated sunrise
You’re spilling like an overflowing sink
You’re ripped at every edge but You’re a masterpiece
And now You’re tearing through the pages and the ink…
Today i read a letter out loud that i wrote to my “Future Self” about a month ago now. While a month might not seem like a long time to most of Y/you, especially to re-read a ‘future self’ type letter… it’s been a month of recovery, rebuilding, and growth. i found it very effective, and so i’ve decided i’m going to share it with Y/you. Be gentle. These are pieces of me that i’m entrusting Y/you with…
Continue reading “Confession .282. Art Is Not What I Create; What I Create Is Chaos…”
Cause i don’t know the perfect road to go down
But i know i’m trying my best
i’m trying my best to be ok
i’m trying my best, but every day it’s so hard…
Oh god, i collabed! And i hope it doesn’t look terrible! My inspiration is always so sporadic that i’m scared to collab with other P/people that i won’t do T/them justice or their avatars or their looks or pretty much just any bit of anxiety that can stop me from doing something cool, will. But this year i signed up for the BVN Collab Challenge and while finding these two collab buddies was a bit unconventional, we did it!
Continue reading “Confession .281. Would You Believe Me If I Told You I’ve Got Flaws?”
i know you wanna say you’re sorry
But i’ve already heard that story
i don’t wanna be your fool anymore…
Can’t you see i’m in recovery?
Today i decided to do something a little bit different – record a video! i dunno… why not? E/everyone else and their brother in SL does this, and i just couldn’t find a good photo i liked until AFTER i recorded the video in order to do a traditional blog post, so i figured i’d give this a shot. This is my first video, so play nice. Scroll to the bottom beneath the credits where the ‘blogging tune’ is for the video! Flickr wanted to be rude.
Continue reading “Confession .280. Just Let It Be, I’m In Recovery…”
Come on little lady, give Us a smile
No, i ain’t got nothin to smile about
i got no one to smile for, i waited awhile for
A moment to say, “i don’t owe You a goddamn thing!”
This is another one of those days where the lyrics to the song speak more than i do…. and so i’m just going to let them do that.
Continue reading “Confession .279. I’m Tired And Angry, But Somebody Should Be…”
i need Somebody to heal, Somebody to know
Somebody to have, Somebody to hold
It’s easy to say, but it’s never the same
i guess i kinda liked the way You numbed all the pain…
i feel like lately my reaction to everything is that i don’t really have words. And then yet my instinct when these things happen, is to blog. i’m a bit of a purist and believe that blogging also involved writing, but lately i find that my negative emotions are more aptly sated by the creativity of the photo, and by the time i come here to write i’m just… drained.
Continue reading “Confession .266. I Was Getting Kinda Used To Being Someone You Loved…”