I put my armor on, show you how strong how I am
I put my armor on, I’ll show you that I am…
Where has old Sia gone? The Sia that wrote empowering shit like this? No, I’m not going to spend this blog post talking about the dumpster fire that is the movie ‘Music’… but know I’m not happy with it. I’m just saving that for when I feel more ranty.
Today, instead, I want to talk about one of my greatest passions in SL. I’ll give you three guesses and the first two don’t count what that is. Yep, dance.
I’ve been dancing in SL since, like, 2009. And, you know, after I sat down and thought about it, I never would’ve gotten involved in it, or I would’ve gotten involved much later, if it hadn’t been for my best friend at the time, and a man.
A group of friends and I used to always hang out at a club, right? She comes in one day screaming the name I had back then and is like, “I think I found a perfect man for you! He’s amazing. There’s only one problem… He’s Gorean.”
I had zero idea what this meant at the time, mind you. “He’s what?”
She briefly tried to explain Gor to me, confusing the shit out of me. But she brought Him to the club anyway so we could meet and talk and start to get to know each other. She was right, He was pretty fucking amazing. But it didn’t stop the fact that I still had no idea what Gor was, so while He was offline (timezones are a bitch, am I right?), I searched ‘Gor’ in SL and found a school.
That was when it hit me.
I’d enroll in the school and start to learn Gor. After all, if He was truly as amazing as He seemed from the conversations we’d started to have, He’d be worth the learning curve. Of course, as a female, I was playing a ‘slave’ role in Gor, and there was no such thing as an unowned slave. So unbeknownst to me, because I had no idea what was going on, I ‘submitted’ to the school and was then ‘owned’ by said school and its Administrator. I still had no idea that is what happened, and was happy as a clam to get back with my guy and tell Him what I did.
He was a bit devastated when He heard what I’d done. He appreciated the effort, but then He explained to me about my ‘ownership’ and that most schools won’t let you be collared by anyone else until you finish and graduate… which for someone with zero knowledge of Gor coming into it, could be a very long time.
Here I was trying to make Him happy, and I’d fucked it up. I felt terrible.
We both spoke to the Administration about it, about how new I was, and that I didn’t really understand what was going on. They said something may be able to be worked out, but there was nothing definitive planned. I continued my studies, He visited as often as He could, and we continued to get to know each other while I learned Gor for Him.
One of the lessons in my ‘schooling’ was Gorean dance. Dances created specifically for storytelling. I fell in love. I’ve always been a writer, and so to be able to create stories through dance – something I loved in RL as well – I couldn’t be happier.
After my dance exam, performing my very first dance (a dance of the six thongs, for those curious – thongs are ribbons of fabric, you pervs) in front of the Administrator, my teachers, and anyone else who happened to be in the sim at the time, I exited the tavern only to see everyone outside prepared for a ceremony. Because I’d passed that part of my training, the Administrator was allowing the man to collar me, as long as He promised that I would remain at the school to finish my studies.
I had no issue with that, because by that point, I was genuinely enjoying learning about Gor and looking forward to being able to explore it with Him.
And now here I am, performing all different kinds of dances, whatever inspiration pulls out of me. I’ve come a long way from that terrified girl dancing in a tavern in front of a bunch of people I didn’t know to the girl building sets and choreographing full pieces, but I wouldn’t be here without that school and those people and that man.
I’m not sure where He is anymore – His avi doesn’t exist anymore, but He could be around under a new name. I’ll likely never know. But wherever He is, I hope He’s happy. Because He is a contributing factor to why my SL is so full of joy today.
Shape || Mine
Body || Lara Body (v5.3) | Maitreya
Head || Lilly Head (v2.5) | Lelutka
Skin || Stasia Skin (Honey Tone; Browless version) | Heaux | Skin Fair (opens 03/12/21) | new!
* Hair || Searching (Blondes) | Stealthic
* Bodysuit&Tutu || Nutcracker Tutu | Salt & Pepper
* Pointe Shoes || Nutcracker Pointes (Colours) | Salt & Pepper
Pose || Ballet 9 | Glitterati
– This is an older pose set – the in-world store doesn’t exist anymore, and this particular pose set cannot be found on their marketplace. But it still has lots of other cute poses, so I’m linking it anyway. Happy shopping!
Blogging Tune || “Unstoppable” – Sia