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Confession .340. Maybe I’m Not Pretty, Maybe I’m Just Fun…

I’m not gunna ask for help
Cause all you’re gunna say is
“You’re perfect, and, oh, you’re so worth it”
But sometimes I hate myself
I get inside my head and
I think that I somehow deserve this…

Confession .340.  Maybe I'm Not Pretty, Maybe I'm Just Fun...

I’m back. And if this is your first time here and you don’t know where I went, I had weight loss surgery, something I talked a lot in a post HERE.

And before you listen to this song and think the sole reason I had this surgery is body image issues, please rest assured that it was incredibly medically necessary. This song just kinda describes how I’ve been feeling for the last, oh, entirety of my life.

What if I don’t feel like I’m beautiful?

Hell, what if I STILL hate myself when surgery has done its thing and it’s up to me to continue? I think that’s the one thing I’m terrified of happening. Like what if my brain is just programmed to hate myself, and no amount of healthy changes will make that stop?

I know… deep and morbid. We get that occasionally here in this blog. Lol.

But that’s the thought that currently haunts me, and kinda kept me out of commission for an extra week after I started slowly coming back online.

What if I don’t feel like I’m beautiful?

(And p.s. Before you worry about me too much, listen to the song again. It’s got a positive message in the end. ♥)

Shape || Mine
Body || Lara Body (v5.3) | Maitreya
Head || Lilly Head (v2.5) | Lelutka
Skin || Stasia (Honey Tone) | Heaux | Skin Fair (opens 03/12/21) | new!
Hair || Lucy Hairstyle (Deluxe HUD) | Doux | Level Event | new!
* Dress || Pauline (Fatpack) | Salt & Pepper | group gift!
– Happy belated anniversary, Salt, and thank you for trusting me with your gorgeous creations!
* Collar || Blue Ice Collar | [Tethered] BDSM

Backdrop || Still Time || FoxCity | Collabor88 | new!
Pose || Rituals 2 | FoxCity | Collabor88 | new!

Blogging Tune || “I’m Not Pretty” – JESSIA

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