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Confession .330. On The Hardwood Floor, We Should Be Asleep…

Baby, i’m not even in a gown
i’m just in a t-shirt on the couch
The way You want me makes me want You now
The only thing you have to say is, “Wow!”

Confession .330.  On The Hardwood Floor, We Should Be Asleep...

Family who happen to stumble along this post… just move right along, and please don’t beat me. Lol. Love youuuuuu.

i wrote a line today in a letter that really kinda hit me hard after i re-read it: “For someone who is so good at finding things, i was terrible at finding some self-respect.”

Read that again.

i’ve talked about slut-shaming in here before, and the unfortunate part is that i teeter in the middle of some really weird place: on one hand, i would usually be ashamed of a photo like this because of my RL self-image in which i hate the way i look, absolutely hate it; and on the other hand, i would also usually be ashamed of a photo like this because if i dared to be proud of it or enjoy it i would be looked at as some kind of slut.

Despite not showing any actual bits, how dare i parade my pixels naked in a blog that just anyone can stumble across, or that people will undoubtedly find on social media?

Hell, i used to be ashamed to admit that i kink for the idea of being shared. i still really DON’T admit that too often (well, until now, i guess, lol) – and the first time i did was because i was in an environment that normalized that kind of thing in a safe and healthy way amongst P/people who trust each O/other and i was finally able to just relax and breathe like, “Ok, yeah. Me too.”

i’m determined that along with all the changes i’m making to my RL to start living more for myself that i’m going to start doing the same thing within my SL. i’ve always been the kind of person that cares way too much about what other P/people think. And while a little bit of that is healthy, like “Should i make an ass out of myself on social media? No, that would cause unnecessary drama.” But you can’t LIVE like that all the time. It’s just not sustainable.

And you wind up hating yourself because you think everyone else hates you.

So as much as i don’t do ‘resolutions’ for the new year, because goals are for any time in your life that you decide to embrace them, my goal for 2021 is to start living more for myself, in both RL and SL. What makes me happy? What makes me proud of myself? And, god dammit, what makes ME feel good?

Because i’ve spent 30 years living for everyone else. It’s time i give myself a break and live for me.

Shape || Mine
Body || Legacy Body (v1.3) | The Shops/The Mesh Project
Head || Lilly Head (v2.5) | Lelutka | Free gift until December 26th!
There are three locations to get the head, NONE of which are the Mainstore. i repeat DO NOT go to the mainstore to try and get this head, you won’t find it. Instead, you can go Here, Here, or Here.
Eyes || Influencer Eyes | Avi-Glam
Skin || Willow Skin | Glam Affair
Hair || Always (Red HUD) | Stealthic | Collabor88 | new!
Bracelet || Bound Together Bracelet | RealEvil Industries | Santa Inc | new!
– Because of how the Santa Inc scripts work, you have the option of gifting this item to someone with your name attached OR anonymously! You can, of course, buy it like normal for yourself as well.

Backdrop || After Party Photo Booth | FoxCity | Saturday Sale!
Pose || Illuminated 1m (Fatpack Exclusive) | FoxCity | Saturday Sale!
– Both of these items are available for L$75 each until Sunday, December 13th!

Location || Home

Blogging Tune || “Wow” – Zara Larsson

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