Is this what you came for, you paid for?
To watch somebody burn and crumble and stumble
Then fumble all my words and let you twist them
And listen to all the ugly things you tell me i am
i’m tryin’ so hard to understand how i’m the
Master Manipulator who couldn’t fool anyone
Monster Reciprocator, shot no bullets from my gun
The Drama Queen who never seems to get applause from anyone
i won’t be who you say i am…
Of course i’m returning with a Gabbie Hanna song – it’d feel inappropriate if i didn’t. Lol. Her new EP, Bad Karma came out on the day my blogging ‘vacation’ ended, and given that the first time i heard the song “Special”, i immediately sat down, choreographed a whole routine and built a set to perform it next Sunday at Moonshadow, this felt like the appropriate song to return to.
So i’m back… kinda.
For those who are curious, no, i did not get the virus. i did have a bit of a scare and was forced to get tested, but my results came back negative, thankfully. i still have a pretty nasty cough, though, so there are times that i just don’t feel like doing anything.
Between trying to keep up with my nearby family members’ needs and situations and the general slow incline in my anxiety level, i just needed to take a step back from the deadlines and the forced posting and just… return to myself for a bit. i still might be sifting through and making some decisions about how much blogging i want to do for awhile moving forward, but for now, this photo was fun to work with and so i hope you enjoy it.
i’m feeling kinda… isolated a bit right now, which is why this song appealed to me so much, i think. Some of that is voluntary with the path i’ve chosen in my Training, and some of it is in light of some not-so-genuine friends finally showing their true colors. Either way, people love to try to paint you into a box – it’s like their default defense mechanism.
But i won’t be who you say i am. 🙂
i’m sorry i don’t have much more to say right now.
Shape || Mine
Body || Freya Body (v5.2) | Belleza
Head || Genus Head Baby Face W001 (v1.7) | Genus Project
– During my absence, the Genus Project DMCA situation happened, so currently Genus Heads are not available for sale. i apologize for any inconvenience and i wish all parties involved a speedy resolution. ♥
Skin || Aiden Skin (Cinnamon Tone) | Bold & Beauty
Hair || Laquisha Hairstyle | Doux | Equal10 | new!
* Dress || Megera Dress | Kaithleen’s
Forehead Jewel || Jahanara Bindi | Swallow
Bracelets || Aura Bracelets | RealEvil Industries | FaMESHed | recent!
Location || Home
Blogging Tune || “Special” – Gabbie Hanna