Confession .291. You Should Know It’s All Or Nothing To Be With Me…

Don’t You look at me, don’t You even think about it, Baby
If You ain’t… if You ain’t… ready for it all…

Independence is often a front in submission – at least it is for me. Yes, i’m an independent-ass woman generally, however… if i’m shoving that independence in Your face as a Dominant, then there’s often something deeper that is unfulfilled. Let me explain…

i want absolutely nothing more than to be able to put my all into a relationship with a Dominant. To trust completely and completely let go. But Man, when i tell You that there aren’t too terribly many People out there that can not only handle it but even deserve it? Whew.

But on a real note, the harder i push against You, the closer i want You and the more afraid i am of You. i was once told that my fear was a good thing, and honestly i think that Person didn’t understand at all what i meant. i don’t think being terrified of Someone… of being honest with Them in all things and trusting Them to do with that what They will… is a healthy thing. Instead, i think it speaks more to one’s past that they would be that afraid, rather than any kind of healthy dynamic that exists between You and them now.

But oftentimes when that independence and that fire comes out… we need Your control that much more. We need that safety provided by being completely held, that much more. At least i do.

i’m… a lot. And i think that’s putting it politely. i said in a discussion last night that whether W/we’re Dominant and submissive, Master and slave… whatever W/we are in a D/s or M/s context, W/we are still human. And sometimes the human takes over. A/anyone who tries to deny that is an outright liar. i challenge Y/you to find me S/someone who isn’t occasionally a flawed H/human being instead of the epitome of Dominance or submission.

Go ahead… i’ll wait…

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