i need Somebody to heal, Somebody to know
Somebody to have, Somebody to hold
It’s easy to say, but it’s never the same
i guess i kinda liked the way You numbed all the pain…
i feel like lately my reaction to everything is that i don’t really have words. And then yet my instinct when these things happen, is to blog. i’m a bit of a purist and believe that blogging also involved writing, but lately i find that my negative emotions are more aptly sated by the creativity of the photo, and by the time i come here to write i’m just… drained.
i’m not sure i’ve even begun to really process my release? i couldn’t really process it when it happened, because i was with my mother (again). And i’ve been back and forth between my house and her house ever since, with not enough time alone to just safely… fall apart.
And i know ‘falling apart’ sounds melodramatic and like a bad thing, but i don’t think that’s exactly what i mean. i just don’t have all the words grouped in sensical phrases to express what i mean. i just… i dunno. i want to cry?
But at the same time i want to scream and get angry? And then none of that feels very slavelike. i feel like the Community as a whole is expecting me to just… take it with grace and move forward… but how does one even DO that?
i don’t know. i don’t know anything right now, really. So just… i guess don’t expect any kind of profound lesson to come out of this experience for quite some time.
Shape || Mine
Head || Genus Head Baby Face W001 (v1.6) | Genus Project
Body || Freya Body Full BENTO (v5.0) | Belleza
Skin || Elena Skin (Tone 005) | Glam Affair | Belle Event | recent!
* Lipstick || Flawless Kiss | MJN | new!
Hair || Yuki Hair (Ombres) | Sintiklia
* Top&Bottom || Anesthasia Chain Set | Cynful | Collabor88 | recent!
Rings || Ouija Ring Set | Yummy
Pose || Up Close 4 | Diversion SL
Location || Candlewood
Blogging Tune || “Someone You Loved” – Lewis Capaldi