So let me just give up, let me just let go
If this isn’t good for me, well, i don’t wanna know
Let me just stop trying, let me just stop fighting
i don’t need Your good advice or reasons why i’m alright
You don’t know what it’s like…
Hopelessness is a feeling with unfathomable depth. Each time Y/you think Y/you’ve hit rock bottom with it, S/someone or something else can push Y/you just a little bit deeper. Let Y/you sink just a little bit further down… and at some point i worry that i won’t have enough oxygen left to swim to the surface. It’s a dangerous game of chicken to play, and eventually, S/someone’s going to lose.
The Universe crumbles apart in my hands. The world i thought i was building for myself… the relationships, the friendships, the closeness… the home i thought i had finally found just starts to crack and come apart at the seams.
Just because you see a large collection of light doesn’t always make it a good thing, and it doesn’t always mean it’s the ‘light at the end of the tunnel’.
i don’t know how much more of this empty striving i can take. How much toiling can one person be expected to put in only to be humiliated over and over again. To have a desire to serve and assist be exploited.
The truly unfortunate part is how much a simple ‘Thank you’ can drag me right back in. Proof of how little i hear it from T/them… that i would be that inspired by hearing it every so often.
No, instead ‘thanks’ is found most often in the form of ignoring… replacing… setting me up to be embarrassed… and i just… i don’t have any more compartments to file the hurt away into anymore. Everything is full to overflowing.
Let me just stop trying.
Shape || Mine
Head || Genus Head Baby Face W001 (v1.6) | Genus Project
Body || Freya Body Full BENTO (v5.0) | Belleza
Skin || Olive Applier (Basic Line; Tone 006) | Glam Affair
* Eyeshadow || Galaxy Shadow | Veechi | N21 | new!
* Lipstick || Freak Me | MJN | recent!
Hair || Mecca Hair (Deluxe HUD) | Doux
Nosering || Indira Septum Piercing | Swallow
Collar || Simone Bow Collar | RealEvil Industries
Rings || Art Deco Rings | Yummy
Location || Home
Blogging Tune || “You Don’t Know” – Katelyn Tarver