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Confession .265. You Don’t Know What It’s Like…

So let me just give up, let me just let go
If this isn’t good for me, well, i don’t wanna know
Let me just stop trying, let me just stop fighting
i don’t need Your good advice or reasons why i’m alright
You don’t know what it’s like…

Confession .265.  You Don't Know What It's Like...

Hopelessness is a feeling with unfathomable depth.  Each time Y/you think Y/you’ve hit rock bottom with it, S/someone or something else can push Y/you just a little bit deeper.  Let Y/you sink just a little bit further down… and at some point i worry that i won’t have enough oxygen left to swim to the surface.  It’s a dangerous game of chicken to play, and eventually, S/someone’s going to lose.

The Universe crumbles apart in my hands.  The world i thought i was building for myself… the relationships, the friendships, the closeness… the home i thought i had finally found just starts to crack and come apart at the seams.

Just because you see a large collection of light doesn’t always make it a good thing, and it doesn’t always mean it’s the ‘light at the end of the tunnel’.

i don’t know how much more of this empty striving i can take.  How much toiling can one person be expected to put in only to be humiliated over and over again.  To have a desire to serve and assist be exploited.

The truly unfortunate part is how much a simple ‘Thank you’ can drag me right back in.  Proof of how little i hear it from T/them… that i would be that inspired by hearing it every so often.

No, instead ‘thanks’ is found most often in the form of ignoring… replacing… setting me up to be embarrassed… and i just… i don’t have any more compartments to file the hurt away into anymore.  Everything is full to overflowing.

Let me just stop trying.

Shape || Mine
Head || Genus Head Baby Face W001 (v1.6) | Genus Project
Body || Freya Body Full BENTO (v5.0) | Belleza
Skin || Olive Applier (Basic Line; Tone 006) | Glam Affair
* Eyeshadow || Galaxy Shadow | Veechi | N21 | new!
* Lipstick || Freak Me | MJN | recent!
Hair || Mecca Hair (Deluxe HUD) | Doux
Nosering || Indira Septum Piercing | Swallow
Collar || Simone Bow Collar | RealEvil Industries
Rings || Art Deco Rings | Yummy

Pose&Prop || Magical Balls (Blue) | HERA + Kraftwork

Location || Home

Blogging Tune || “You Don’t Know” – Katelyn Tarver

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