If i’m just somebody that You’re gonna leave
And You don’t feel something when You look at me
You’re holding my heart, mmm, what You say?
Just let me down slowly, i’ll be ok…
i’m eternally conflicted. i want to hate You for what You did to me. i want to hate You for the lies You told while proclaiming transparency. i want to hate You for the integrity You lacked while thrusting Yourself forward as an Example in the Community. i want to hate You for the girl You replaced me with. i want to hate You for every time You said one thing and did another…
Because what You did to me – has mostly ruined my sense of security with Anyone after You.
Because the lies You told while proclaiming transparency – have ruined my view of what transparency means.
Because Your lack of integrity while thrusting Yourself forward as an Example in the Community – makes me afraid for those who will look up to and attempt to emulate You.
Because the girl You replaced me with – is the same one You lied to me about. Over and over again.
Because every time You said one thing and did another – warped my view of the Truth, and Honor, and Walking One’s talk.
But despite ruining my sense of security with Anyone after You, pieces of me still crave pieces of You.
But despite ruining my view of what transparency means, i still find myself justifying everything else You were open about.
But despite being afraid for those who will look up to You and attempt to emulate You, i can’t stop Anyone from doing so.
But despite her being the girl You lied to me about over and over again, she still seems like a perfectly nice person.
But despite warping my view of the Truth, and Honor, and Walking One’s talk, i can’t bring myself to completely disentangle my brain from the feeling.
And i want to hate You for fucking me up for Everyone after You.
But i can’t.
Shape || Mine
Head || Genus Head Baby Face W001 (v1.6) | Genus Project
Body || Lara Body (v4.1) | Maitreya
Skin || Monica Skin (Tan Tone) | MILA
* Lipstick || FrenchKiss Gloss | MJN | new!
Hair || Olivia Hair | Magika
* Dress || Cori Lace Dress | Blueberry | new!
* Shoes || Cori Knee High Shoes | Blueberry | new!
Bindi&Septum || Indira Face Jewellry | Swallow
Rings || Free Spirit Rings | Yummy
Nails || Ballerina 1 Nails | Formanails
* Body Glitter || Stripper Body Dust | Cynful
– While i’m not wearing the Legacy body, Cynful has released an update of the Stripper Body Dust to include a Legacy body size! If you didn’t get an update, you can grab it via a Redelivery at the Mainstore. ♥
Pose || POSES // 92 | MILA
Location || ELVION
Blogging Tune || “90 Days” – P!nk ft. Wrabel