The scar i can’t reverse
When the more it heals, the more it hurts
Gave You every piece of me, no wonder it’s missing
Don’t know how to be so close to Someone so distant…
i didn’t exactly intend for this to come out looking bridal – i just liked the color combination and loved the style of this gown, but i suppose it’s appropriate with what’s been on my mind lately. Demons from my past…
No matter how far Y/you think Y/you move forward, sometimes all it takes is one bad night to just wreck Y/your illusion. Not the illusion that Y/you’ve moved on… because i’m very certain i have… but the illusion that it doesn’t hurt anymore.
That all those things T/they did to Y/you don’t hurt anymore. That they never affected Y/you. That Y/you are stronger than that.
And as if being re-visisted by a single Demon in Y/your past isn’t difficult enough, try having Y/your head invaded by a few. i’m not sure what it is about O/our brains as humans, but it’s like as soon as W/we’re happy, Y/your brain wants to step in like, “Not so fast… Y/you know it’s not that easy…” and then just… fuck with Y/you. For no given reason. Other than to, Y/you know, be a dick.
Cause anxiety is a bitch.
This wasn’t my wedding dress – this is a new design – but i was hitting the ‘Share’ button on a Youtube video a few days ago and my ex-husband/former Master’s email came up as a suggestion of who to send it to. i haven’t talked to Him really since He deleted His avatar and i found His email and asked what was going on… so for it to all of a sudden pop up in my suggestions of who to email to threw me off… majorly.
i feel like E/everyone says this… but i really hadn’t thought about Him in a long while. And all of a sudden, there He was. Like a smack in the face with a cement brick.
Blech. i’ll be grateful when the weekend comes.
Shape || Mine
Head || Genus Head Baby Face W001 (v1.6) | Genus Project
Body || Lara Body (v4.1) | Maitreya
Skin || Alison Skin (Tone 007) | Glam Affair | Access | recent!
* Hair || Surrender (Blonde) | Truth Hair | Uber | new!
* Gown || Anastasia Dress | Hilly Haalan | new!
– Recently, i was blessed enough to be add to this wonderful designer’s blogger team, and after the recent debacle with some less-than-genuine templates, i am even more proud to work with such a professional, caring, honorable designer. Thank you again for this opportunity, Hilly, and gorgeous gown!
Collar || Simone Bow Collar | RealEvil Industries
Pose || Breather V3-3a | FoxCity
Location || Backdrop City
Blogging Tune || “Dynasty” – MIIA