Could You find a way to let me down slowly?
A little sympathy i hope You can show me…
This weekend was… well… let me start from the beginning…
Human beings have the ability to decimate each other in a way that i don’t understand. And i realize i make that statement as though i exist outside of the label of ‘human beings’, but when it comes to shit like that, i truly don’t feel connected to humankind. Maybe it’s the Aspie brain, but i don’t understand all the deceit and bullshit that people put each other through. Or the reasons behind it.
Like, what? Is this fun for You? Is that why You do it? Please explain to me.
This weekend i was revisited by an uninvited ghost of my past that i truly wish would just stop showing up in places. It was no one’s fault in particular that it happened – it just sucks that it did. i had grown so much from the place this person had held me in for a hot minute, and i damn near let myself go back there… but i’m stronger this time and have many more supportive people around me than i used to.
But now i see in a couple weeks i will be faced with this ghost again – during a time that is supposed to be celebratory for myself and my sisters. For now, i’m just going to try to ignore it, and deal with it later.
That hasn’t served me well in the past, but it’s what i need to do now, to get done what needs to be done. My sisters will not suffer because of my demons.
After all, they call me Diligent for a reason. ♥
Shape || Mine
Head || Genus Head Baby Face (W001) | Genus Project
Body || Lara Body (v4.1) | Maitreya
Skin || Dariya Skin (Tone 007) | Glam Affair
Eyeshadow || Second Nature Shadow | MJN
Lipstick || Vice Matte Lipstick | MJN
* Hair || Flowers in the Sun (Reds) | Exile Hair
* Top || Evie Crop Top (Orange; Strength) | Blueberry | recent!
Nosering || Bento Piercing Set 03 | Suicidal Unborn
* Necklace || January Birthstone Necklace | E.Marie | FaMESHed | new!
Pose || Portrait 2 | FoxCity
Backdrop || The Harmison Blanco | LEIJIN
Location || Backdrop City
Blogging Tune || “Let Me Down Slowly” – Alec Benjamin ft. Alessia Cara