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Confession .126. I Could Not Bare To Lie To You, To Lie With You…

Money won’t pay for Your problems
You gotta fix them Yourself
Vices and pity won’t solve them
Stop feeling bad for Yourself

Confession .126.  I Could Not Bare To Lie To You, To Lie With You...

Sort of a follow-up to yesterday’s post.  (Cause I’m writing this a couple hours later, and scheduling it ahead… cause I felt super productive with my photos tonight/this morning.)

I realize yesterday’s post was kinda sorta super angry.  That’s kinda what this blog is sometimes… stuff stays bottled up and then I find something perfect… like that Polaroid pose yesterday… and it all comes flooding out.  Again, there’s a super convenient ‘x’ in the upper right of your screen if you’re not a fan of the occasional word-vomit when it’s needed.

Today will be less ranty.

In addition to being one of those “Fool me once, shame on you.  Fool me twice, shame on me.  Fool me seven times, maybe this is a bad idea.” kind of people… I also have a tendency to hold on way too long at times.  Not holding on in a sense of wanting someone back, but holding on to, particularly, their opinion of me.

I judge myself against those that come after me, as some kind of assessment of my quality as a romantic partner.

That was why the story I wrote about the other day, with the guy that really just wanted to Own a dancer and really didn’t care who it was… that’s why that was a situation that had me so fucked up.  I judged myself against these people that He took on after me… as if the fact that He was attracted to us made us all similar in some way.  Like, He has a ‘type’, so I kept trying to fit myself into whatever that ‘type’ was, and used it to define me for awhile.

Spoiler alert: It’s a super unhealthy way to think of your past romantic partners.  And tends to lead down the slippery slope to a lack of self-worth.

So the past couple of months for me have been that process of slow revelation.  That I’m not bound to this shit anymore.  I’m not bound to what these people – or anyone for that matter – thought of me.  I’m not bound to the idea that those that come after me have to have something in common with me in their eyes.  I’m not bound to any one type.

I’m only bound to Master.  And that’s the only person I would ever want to be bound to, at this point.

Shape || Mine
Head || Chloe Bento Head (v3.0) | Lelutka
* Skin || Aurora Bare (T5; Dolce) | Lumae
* Lipstick || from Yulia skin pack | Lumae
Eyes || Hurt Eyes | Izzie’s
* Hair || Lily (Browns) | Mina Hair | Uber | recent!
* Lingerie || Eden Lingerie | Moon Amore | Frou Frou | new!
Collar || Inked Collar | RealEvil Industries

Bed || Jayden Bed + Lights | Trompe Loeil

Pose&Prop || Missing You Bento Pose | Reve Obscura | on sale!
– Currently Reve Obscura is having a store wide sale. Male and Female Bento poses, including poses with props (like this one), and couples poses all are 50% off. This means you can get single, well made, bento poses for L$25, and couples bento poses for L$50. Sale ends Sept. 21st!

Location || Home

Blogging Tune || “You Don’t Do It For Me Anymore” – Demi Lovato

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