Daddy raised a soldier, whether he knew it or not
He supplied the pain, I put it into music, made it hot
Strong back, strong shoulders, cause I’m holding up a lot
I’m underneath this bitch, supporting
Same time, I’m at the top…
“Everything’s on me. Everybody wondering what it’s gonna be. Is [she] gonna fail, is [she] gonna succeed? Everybody keep watching, and watch carefully… I’ma show the world I’m strong! And I’m holding up a lot. I’m underneath this bitch supporting… same time, I’m at the top.”
Everything Jussie Smollett has done for Empire this season has been incredibly powerful. So pardon my obsession in my blog posts since the new season started. *Laughs* Those that know anything about me know how drawn I am to powerful lyrics.
Especially when I relate to them in one way or another.
I feel like… I’m being stared at a lot lately. Is that weird? Is that narcissistic? Maybe. And it could even be paranoid and no one really cares. LOL. But it’s like… they warn you when you tackle a large, widely-known competition like Miss Virtual World that people are going to start watching you. And while I’m sure those Top 13 (that are working their ASSES off to get perfect for the finale this weekend, by the way. Break legs, ladies!) are being watched far more closely… I can’t help but feel like I’m being stared at.
“You didn’t make the cut. Now what?”
Like they’re waiting for me to blow up into something despite that… or to fade back into irrelevance where many people would like to assume I came from.
The fact of the matter is… I dunno what y’all are waiting for, but if you could stop staring at me, that would be great. I mean, come on. I’ve been doing this for three years now. And while that’s FAR less of a period of time than a lot of the great models that I look up to and aspire to be like, that still quite a substantial period of my Second Life to be devoting to something. I’ve worked my ass off in those three years. I have not sat on the shoulders of a Mentor (even if I’ve had a few mentors in my time) and expected them to hand me everything I was given. I worked… and I worked hard… and I fought… and pushed through… and the ONLY reason that I got to where I did was because of all that work.
I guess I’m the exception that proves the rule about “who you know” being the only thing that matters. I know people, sure… we all do. But do I ask them to tip scales in my favor? No. Unlike some, I happen to live by a code of ethics…. regardless of whether or not some of you see those ethics on a daily basis, they are there. You just aren’t looking hard enough. You’re too busy watching the ground in front of me waiting for something for me to trip over and fall on my face.
Newsflash: I worked hard to get to where I was. And nothing will change that. I’m still here, I’m not going any-damn-where, and I’m going to continue to work just as hard as I always have.
So you can stop staring. I’m still Tivi. And I’m still going to put my blood, sweat, and tears into everything I do.
I suppose the real question is… what are YOU going to do? Step it up and work your ass off too? Or try to continue to rely on those broad shoulders you sit on, and eventually fade into the irrelevance you are attempting to drag me into?
Your choice, I suppose. However, the first step is coming down off that high horse of yours… and careful, darling… that first step is a bitch.
*~* They Say Heavy Is The Head That Wears The Crown… *~*
Shape: MINE – new!
*Special thanks to Toxxic Rhiannyr of Alterego, as one of her shapes was used as the base for tweaking!
Skin: Layla Skin (Caramel Tone) || Alterego
Eyes: Odyssey Eyes (Forest) || IKON
Hair: Murder of Crows (Chapter 1 Earth HUD) || Spellbound || Enchantment
Body: Lara Mesh Body (v3.4) || Maitreya
Hands: Avatar Enhancement Hands (Elegant 1) || Slink
Undereye Shadow: Makeup Addon Lower Shadow II (Tintable) || Alterego
Nailcolor Applier: Art Nails (Boho Eyes) || Nylon Outfitters || Collabor88
Top: Fall-In-Line (Vest Only; Dark Grey) || Cynful || Collabor88
* Fall-In-Line is a 3-in-1 top, featuring a cropped turtleneck (not pictured) and a vest, that can each be worn separately, or both together to create a layered look. Standard sizes, Maitreya Lara, Belleza Freya/Isis/Venus, and Slink Physique/Hourglass sizes included for both.
Pants/Boots: Lavigne Snowboarders Pak (Black) || Vinyl || GEN-Neutral
* Solid (pictured) & “Block” pattern versions included, chooseable via HUD. Standard sizes, Maitreya Lara, Belleza Freya/Isis/Venus, and Slink Physique/Hourglass sizes included. Boots are optional and come in corresponding sizes, color-change via HUD.
Septum Piercing: Dark Queen Septum Ring (P6) || RealEvil Industries
Tattoo: Bohemian (FULL 14008; 50% Opacity) || Letis Tattoo
* 100%/75%/50%/35% Opacity Options. Tattoo layers, Belleza, Lola’s Tango, Maitreya Lara, Omega, Slink Physique (can also be used for just hands), & TMP appliers included.
Location: Pandora Box of Dreams
Blogging Tune: “Heavy” – Jussie Smollett ft. Empire Cast